CHAPTER 12

aziz : lujain a7ibich .

i paused in my place . and i kept on staring at the paper then aziz . no expression was drawn on my face . i was surprised and shocked because i never believed that this would happen . i wasent sure if i wanted to replace m7amed with aziz ..... it was just hard and it is like i had betrayed m7amed .

aziz then suddenly leans over and slowly kisses my cheeck that immediatly blushed .

aziz : i just couldnt control myself ......

and as he leans over again , he starts to kiss my neck more and more he digs in and 9AR ILY 9AR :))) (shraykum agool ba3ad :)) ..... la2 shhal 7ache 3aib ya 3alam wallah 3aib akeed fahtaw my point )

me : aziz bss

i pushed him away leaving a few inches  between us .

aziz : lat7aremene minich lujain ... tara a7ibich

me : aziz .... please leave some space between us ..... ily ga3den insawe 7aram .

aziz : la2 mo 7aram ... la2na ana nawe zawaj ....

me : min9igik ?

i asked and butterflies started to form .  

aziz : eee min9igy lujain .....

me : 3ayal itha 9ig it7bne aziz mara7 itgarib yame ,,,, wa idish min bab il bait wa ta5thne bl 7alal

aziz : 5ala9 3ayal wa3ad ya ba3ad 3omre ......

a5aaaaaaaih his sweet voice that are filled with love went through my ears and into my tummy causing butterflies . its been a long time since i heard them ..... i really miss them .... i miss the sweetness behind them , i miss the undescribable feeling .

me : *blushes +chuckles* ambaaaih nesaina 3an your poem ... yallah 6ali3 iwriga 5anaktib .

aziz : * laughs * intay 7asbalich ine yaybich 3ashan il poem

me : eee

aziz : il 9ig ina yayebich ihne 3ashan nit'3ada o insolif .....

me : heeeey yal 3ayar may9eer

aziz : *chuckls* lat5afeen ana katib poem ...... wa ra7 agralich iya

me : *mouth open * you liar ....... it3arif taktib poem .... o ana 7asbale inik baree2

aziz : btsm3een wala shlon

me : *chuckls* yallah basma3

aziz :

 " I thought of you today but that’s nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too
for every day good or bad you'll always be in my head
I hope you've understood everything I’ve said
this isn't just a joke or a silly lie
I’d never do anything to make you wanna cry
I’m sorry if I do something to make you really mad
it only comes back and makes me really sad
I really do love you and everything you are
I hope this relationship gets really far
I’ll never get you out I simply don't know how
in fact I’m thinking of you right about now
you’re everything I need and everything to me
you know exactly who you are and what you want to be
you always make me smile just by being there
I hope you know how much I really do care
every time I think of you my stomach seems to twist
This is why I love you, I’ve made a huge list
the list goes on forever and never will it end
neither will our relationship you'll always be my friend
not just a simple friend but a special friend at that
I want to spend my whole life with you "

my stomatch started to twist . i stayed there silent staring at aziz's eyes the would shine under the sun light , his hair kept on flying away with the air and my heart did the same . it didnt know if it was right what we are doing .

aziz : shrayich ?

he smiled and i melted inside . god , that feeling came back , the feeling of love . its like a whole new beggining .

me : 3ajeeb .....

aziz : awal yoom shiftech ma gidart anam bilayl ... 6ool il wakit afakir feech .... wa magdar afakir ib shay thany , chan a5ith iwriga o 8alam o aktib hal poem .

cuteeeeeeeeee .................... ya ba5teee ib hal walad . its not fair how aziz had the ability to steal my heart right away .

me : *blushes*


and all of a sudden  , my phone starts ringing and rakan was calling .

me : i need to answer this .

i said to aziz while standing up and moving away a bit . i pressed " answer " button.

me : aloooo

rakan : aloooo wainech ?

he asked and he seemed mad .

me : 6al3a barra ma3a refejtee

rakan : intay mo min9igich 9a7 ?

me : la2 min9ige

rakan : inzain golele inich 6al3a .... allah iyhadach 5alatene adawirech mithil il maynoon bl jam3a

me : rakan ... please latdig 3alay anymore .... ana lal7een shaka feek and you owe me an explanation .

rakan : lujain wait ....

and by that i hung up . i went back to aziz who was busy with his phone , as soon as he saw me , as smile got drawn on his face .

aziz : ma boga shay 3ala mo7a'9arte .... 5anratib il ashya2 wa awa9lich il bait .

me  : yallah ibser3a latit3a5ar 3ala il moo7a'9ara

aziz and i started to arrange the stuff and clean up or mess . as soon as we finished , we rode the car and we drove off back home .

aziz : 3a6ene telephonech

he demanded and i obeyed him . he started clicking stuff and i cant really know what was he doing .

aziz : 7a6aitlech ra8me da5il ..... ma awa9ech i6amnen 3alaich bain wakit lay wakit .

me : inshallah .

aziz : wa min yoom o rayi7 ana ra7 awadech il jam3a mako taxi .....

oh no ..... rakan is the person who usually takes me to college and returns me back home . but now i dont trust him anymore so ya aziz can do that for me and ill be thankful .

me : ok

aziz : o libs ig9eer matalbseen fahma .....

me : ee inshallah .

aziz : 3afya 3ala il shar6ra .

and by that , we reached my apartement . aziz and i said our goodbyes and as i turned around the door  knob and got in . i noticed most of the place empty . i looked over the table to find a note .


" ma tiwa8a3tich itshken fene lujain .... bss 9ar ily 9ar ..... wa min 7agich it5afeen mineee ... ana 8arart arja3 il kuwait .... wa a5eelich it3eesheen 7aytich bedone .... wa ana kalamt dana 3ashan ira8bich o a7meech ... kint bss abe il 5air 7agich ... "

- rakan . 

guilt started to run through my vines . i stopped to sit down and read the message and after that i quickly dialed in rakan's number but he dosent answer . i tried dialing again and again and still the same no answer , i lost hope and decided to try tomorrow . so after all i have blamed rakan for something he would never do , all he did was try to protect me . i will never forgive myself for what i did to rakan ......... he didnt deserve it at all . i owe him a huge apology .

i spent the rest of the day sitting down on the coach watching tv and talking to aziz . the apartement felt quiet without rakan being around and the apartement was missing the fun of rakan and his jokes . i got tired from watching tv so i decided to lay my head down and sleep .



* bell * *bell*

the sound of the door bell woke me up from my sleep , i quickly went in the bathroom did my things then wore my rob and went to open the door .

it was a guy holding a box .......

guy : hello

me : hi

guy : where is mr . rakan

me : oh ... he isnt here .

guy : well , can you give him this box .....

me : yes sure .

guy : oh and can you sign here .

i took the paper form the guy and i signed it then took the box and thanked him . i closed the door and i placed the box on the table then i decided to open it .

and i was suprised to find a huge red velvet cake and this was written on the top

" HBD LUJAIN INSHALLAH IL 3OMIR KILA <3 "

what have i done ......... poor rakan was planning a surprise for me , my birthday was tomorrow , how did i forget . a limp started forming in my throat . the tears froze on the edge of my eyes . i decided to try and call him again .