yup , i guess the end of the story has arrived faster than i thought . so i guess its time to say good bye to the characters that i was writing about for a month or so . im not sure yet if this is the end of my journey in the blogging world . dont worry ill keep u guys updated .
* zzzzzzzzzz * *Zzzzzzzzzzz*
sleep tight dont let ur guilt bite because tomorrow night ur about to face the wrong sight
- unknown
me : *mouth open * taiba shoofay
i held up my phone for taiba to look at .
taiba : what does the message mean ?
me : idk but im sure it dosent sound good , i guess unknown is threatning us
taiba : * smirks * unknown thinks that this will scare us and the game will end easily
me : oh well its working because this message is creeping the shit out of me
all of a sudden taiba held both of my arms and she squzeed them tight then said
taiba : lujaaaain listeeen to meeee ..... we have waited for so long for this day and we wont back off no matter what .......
me : a777 inzain
i replied while moving taiba's hands away .
taiba : yallah 5anam tomorrow is going to be a long day .
me : ok
i closed my eyes and i stayed that way for 2 hours i kept on turning left and right but i just couldnt sleep , many things are running through my head . espically the wedding , i had a bad feeling about it , a bad feeling that made fear grow in me . i started shivering in my place . i knew that this might be the last time ill c taiba and even the closest people to me . but taiba was right , i shouldnt be afraid of the consequence that unknown has saved for me . i need to fight back , i need to get my revenge and tomorrow is the day .
and by the constant thinking , i slept around 3 in the morning .
* 12 afternoon *
taiba : * pushing me * lujaaain goomay yallah
me : haaaaaa *rubbing my eyes*?
taiba : gooomay we have alot of stuff to do now
me : uffffff im so tireeeed ...........
taiba : noomich mithil noom ahil il kahaf
me : 3adal intay deyaya ga3datlee min 9iba7 allah 5air
taiba : shasaweee 7adeee mishta6aaa
me : ...... yallah gayma
taiba : inzain yallah ibser3a
she said while going out of the room
after that taiba and i went down stairs to have breakfast .
taiba : i bought 3 gasoline cans yesterday and i already have the matches
me : ok
i replied and my voice was lower than ever . my eyes were glued on the freshly baked waffles .
as soon as we finished eating , taiba and i started revising the plan over and over again .
* 10 hours later *
the clock stricked 10 at night and it was the time of fatima's wedding , the time of fear has arrived and i needed to face it with all my strength . i sat down on my phone nervously waiting for taiba to come out of the bathroom . she finally came out dressed in black , her face was covered with a white mask and her eyes was the only thing showing .
taiba : shrayich ?
she said while posing infront of me
me : *fake smile * 7ilw
deep down , i wanted this plan to end fast . i wanted this day iy3ade 3ala 5air .
taiba : ishna6ra ...... yallah roo7ay put ur oufit on
me : haa......
taiba : shfeech sar7an ...... come on lujain la nit2a5ar
me : inzain ni6ray
i took the clothes that taiba has prepared for me and i went to the bathroom to put them on . taiba and i had matching outfits . this is what we wore
and we wore this mask on top to cover our faces and our identities
i got out of the bahthroom and as soon as taiba saw me she said
taiba : perfect .... just like i planned it .
me : yallah inroo7
taiba : eee bss sa3dene ada5il the gasoline cans in the car
me : ok
taiba and i carried the gasoline tanks in the car , they were extremely heavy pain crept through my body .
taiba placed in her car keys then she started the engine . we were then off to the wedding .
me : taiba .......
taiba : ha ?
me : do u believe that fatima is unknown ?
taiba : eeee laish tis2leen
me : la2na a5aaf itkoon ma'9looma
taiba : *smirks * she killed ur baby , put an evil spell on nasser and now she is going to marry him and u say " a5af ma '9looma " ? minu la3ib ib mo5ich
me : m7ad im just asking ...... to make sure that we are doing the right thing .
taiba : la t5afeen ........... we are doing the right hing .
and the mins passed by quickly and i found myself in the parking of a huge garden that was decorated with lights . it had a huge tent in the center . many people started arriving . smiles were every where .... everyone seems to have a good time , im sure all of these things will disappear after what we are about to do .
me : sh*T ..... shlon inroo7 al7eeen fe wayid awadim
taiba : lat5afeen fe cabinet wain i7toon all the food in it ... right there
she replied while pointing at the far cabinet
me : ok good ....
taiba : yallah shwaya shway 5ansheel the gasoline cans .
me : ee yallah gabil ma iyzeedoon il nas
taiba and i sneaked through the place and we placed all of them gasoline cans that we bought . i stopped to catch my breath .
me : offff taaa3abtt ......
taiba : ham ana ............ sim3ay lets carry 1 gasoline can and throw it all over the tent
me : bss shlon ...... a5af il nas iyshoofoona
taiba : laaaa2 just listen to meee ....... we will carry one by one and throw all of the gasoline on one side of the tent .
me : ok
taiba and i started throwing the gasoline cans on one side of the tent . after that , taiba took out the matches . my heart started to beat faster and butterflies started forming in my stomatch .
taiba : 1 ........ 2 ...................
me : waaaaait
taiba : 3 ......................
and by that the match hit the tent and everything started burning , all the laughter in the tent turned into screams , it was a total night mare .
all of a sudden , i heard some footsteps getting closer and closer . a person wearing a black mask with black cloths was approching me . i scream in fear . then all of a sudden
" PPPCCCHHHUUUUU"
The sound of the gun going off ripped through my ears as if I was right next to a fireworks display, listening to it go off, with no protection. The echo of the ear-splitting "BANG" carried on . i turned around to find the person on the ground . i shook in fear . tears found its way out of my eyes , i turned around to surprisingly find
rakan ............ holding a gun in his hand .
me : rakan *sniff*
rakan : i killed unknown
he said in his lowest voice .........
me : * sniff * * sniff * shdarak
rakan : look
rakan pulled out his phone close to my face . i read this message that caused my nightmare to get worst . i felt like dying ,,,
if u want to save lujain then u better come to nasser's wedding ,,,,,,,, ill be wearing a black mask . be sure to kill me
-unknown
me : whyyyyyyyy ............
i scram in sadness
me : why did u listeeeen tooooo unknown ............. he trickedddd uuuu rakan * sobbing hardly *
rakan : la2 mosta7eel
rakan's weak voice said and i could c the fear and sadness in his eyes .
i leaned on the ground and i slowly took off the mask away from the shotten person i surprisingly found
m7amed .
me : m7amed
i scram while holding him to my chest .
m7amed : a77 ... lujain
his weak voice called out my name .
me : 7abeeby
m7amed : ya 3umri intay
he replied while placing his hand on his injury . m7amed held my hand that was shaking . he then placed it on his heart and said
m7amed : u will always be here .
It wasn't so much the pain, but the shock, the surprise that m7amed was facing . feeling the hot, wet pain in his chest, the hole the bullet made. It wasn't what he expected. He had thought there would be more pain. He stumbled, taken aback, still looking dully into the air, not knowing what came next, just knowing that it was the end.
m7amed's beautiful eyes that i always fell for started to shut slowly , the grip of his hand on mine faded away . his breathing has stopped and i knew that my world has ended . i couldnt believe my eyes
me : m7amed ........
i said hoping to get a reply
m7amed : ............
me : m7amed ........ please wake up * shaking him *
m7amed : ....................
me : m7amed ........................
*police sirens * * police sirens *
police : put ur hands about ur head
i repeat * put your hands above ur head *
the police blamed us for the death of m7amed . they locked us up in a scary cage . we stayed like this for months and years .
i turned around to face rakan who has grown a beard .
me : rakan ..... minu unknown ?
rakan : * smirks * 9arlina isneen masjoonen ihnee wa lal7een mat3arfeen ?
me : please gooly minu
rakan: i warned u lujain ..... lo intay mo ray7a il 3ers chan ma9arlina chithe ... chan ma9arlich chitheee
tears started to form ,,,, they froze on the edge of my eyes
rakan: hufff .... taiba unknown lujain
he said and shock started to fill me . anger covered every inch of my body .
me : shinuu ?
m7amed : eeee unknown taiba * screaming * zaaain chitheeee shofaaaaay i7naa al7een shlooooon ......................
me : m7amed bsss lat9ari5 *sobbing *
m7amed : shlon ma a9ariii5 lujaaaaain ,,,,, we are criminals ...... thats what everyone thinks now .... we cant change anything about ittt * screaming *
rakan's eyes started to tear .
me : we are not
i screamed back at him .
rakan : yallah roo7ay goolay 7ag il 3alam o 5anshoof itha iy9adgoonich .
since rakan and i have been locked up in jail , all i did was cry . it was a daily routine , i forgot the meaning of happiness , i forgot how to smile which was the easiest thing i was good at doing before . and i would sit up and rewind the memories of m7amed ....... my life . i tried to sucide several times but something stopped me and it was my grandma .... she didnt deserve anything of it . my grandma was the only reason why iam still holding on to life .
police guy : lujain al flani ... fee resala
me : wainha *sniff*
i replied while whipping away my tears . i stood up then i went up to the police guy who had an envelope in his hand .
i quickly tore the papers with my nimble fingers .
game over . i won
-unknown
and by that i wrote a poem dedicated to my one and only m7amed . i miss u
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the end ...............................
* zzzzzzzzzz * *Zzzzzzzzzzz*
sleep tight dont let ur guilt bite because tomorrow night ur about to face the wrong sight
- unknown
me : *mouth open * taiba shoofay
i held up my phone for taiba to look at .
taiba : what does the message mean ?
me : idk but im sure it dosent sound good , i guess unknown is threatning us
taiba : * smirks * unknown thinks that this will scare us and the game will end easily
me : oh well its working because this message is creeping the shit out of me
all of a sudden taiba held both of my arms and she squzeed them tight then said
taiba : lujaaaain listeeen to meeee ..... we have waited for so long for this day and we wont back off no matter what .......
me : a777 inzain
i replied while moving taiba's hands away .
taiba : yallah 5anam tomorrow is going to be a long day .
me : ok
i closed my eyes and i stayed that way for 2 hours i kept on turning left and right but i just couldnt sleep , many things are running through my head . espically the wedding , i had a bad feeling about it , a bad feeling that made fear grow in me . i started shivering in my place . i knew that this might be the last time ill c taiba and even the closest people to me . but taiba was right , i shouldnt be afraid of the consequence that unknown has saved for me . i need to fight back , i need to get my revenge and tomorrow is the day .
and by the constant thinking , i slept around 3 in the morning .
* 12 afternoon *
taiba : * pushing me * lujaaain goomay yallah
me : haaaaaa *rubbing my eyes*?
taiba : gooomay we have alot of stuff to do now
me : uffffff im so tireeeed ...........
taiba : noomich mithil noom ahil il kahaf
me : 3adal intay deyaya ga3datlee min 9iba7 allah 5air
taiba : shasaweee 7adeee mishta6aaa
me : ...... yallah gayma
taiba : inzain yallah ibser3a
she said while going out of the room
after that taiba and i went down stairs to have breakfast .
taiba : i bought 3 gasoline cans yesterday and i already have the matches
me : ok
i replied and my voice was lower than ever . my eyes were glued on the freshly baked waffles .
as soon as we finished eating , taiba and i started revising the plan over and over again .
* 10 hours later *
the clock stricked 10 at night and it was the time of fatima's wedding , the time of fear has arrived and i needed to face it with all my strength . i sat down on my phone nervously waiting for taiba to come out of the bathroom . she finally came out dressed in black , her face was covered with a white mask and her eyes was the only thing showing .
taiba : shrayich ?
she said while posing infront of me
me : *fake smile * 7ilw
deep down , i wanted this plan to end fast . i wanted this day iy3ade 3ala 5air .
taiba : ishna6ra ...... yallah roo7ay put ur oufit on
me : haa......
taiba : shfeech sar7an ...... come on lujain la nit2a5ar
me : inzain ni6ray
i took the clothes that taiba has prepared for me and i went to the bathroom to put them on . taiba and i had matching outfits . this is what we wore
and we wore this mask on top to cover our faces and our identities
i got out of the bahthroom and as soon as taiba saw me she said
taiba : perfect .... just like i planned it .
me : yallah inroo7
taiba : eee bss sa3dene ada5il the gasoline cans in the car
me : ok
taiba and i carried the gasoline tanks in the car , they were extremely heavy pain crept through my body .
taiba placed in her car keys then she started the engine . we were then off to the wedding .
me : taiba .......
taiba : ha ?
me : do u believe that fatima is unknown ?
taiba : eeee laish tis2leen
me : la2na a5aaf itkoon ma'9looma
taiba : *smirks * she killed ur baby , put an evil spell on nasser and now she is going to marry him and u say " a5af ma '9looma " ? minu la3ib ib mo5ich
me : m7ad im just asking ...... to make sure that we are doing the right thing .
taiba : la t5afeen ........... we are doing the right hing .
and the mins passed by quickly and i found myself in the parking of a huge garden that was decorated with lights . it had a huge tent in the center . many people started arriving . smiles were every where .... everyone seems to have a good time , im sure all of these things will disappear after what we are about to do .
me : sh*T ..... shlon inroo7 al7eeen fe wayid awadim
taiba : lat5afeen fe cabinet wain i7toon all the food in it ... right there
she replied while pointing at the far cabinet
me : ok good ....
taiba : yallah shwaya shway 5ansheel the gasoline cans .
me : ee yallah gabil ma iyzeedoon il nas
taiba and i sneaked through the place and we placed all of them gasoline cans that we bought . i stopped to catch my breath .
me : offff taaa3abtt ......
taiba : ham ana ............ sim3ay lets carry 1 gasoline can and throw it all over the tent
me : bss shlon ...... a5af il nas iyshoofoona
taiba : laaaa2 just listen to meee ....... we will carry one by one and throw all of the gasoline on one side of the tent .
me : ok
taiba and i started throwing the gasoline cans on one side of the tent . after that , taiba took out the matches . my heart started to beat faster and butterflies started forming in my stomatch .
taiba : 1 ........ 2 ...................
me : waaaaait
taiba : 3 ......................
and by that the match hit the tent and everything started burning , all the laughter in the tent turned into screams , it was a total night mare .
all of a sudden , i heard some footsteps getting closer and closer . a person wearing a black mask with black cloths was approching me . i scream in fear . then all of a sudden
" PPPCCCHHHUUUUU"
The sound of the gun going off ripped through my ears as if I was right next to a fireworks display, listening to it go off, with no protection. The echo of the ear-splitting "BANG" carried on . i turned around to find the person on the ground . i shook in fear . tears found its way out of my eyes , i turned around to surprisingly find
rakan ............ holding a gun in his hand .
me : rakan *sniff*
rakan : i killed unknown
he said in his lowest voice .........
me : * sniff * * sniff * shdarak
rakan : look
rakan pulled out his phone close to my face . i read this message that caused my nightmare to get worst . i felt like dying ,,,
if u want to save lujain then u better come to nasser's wedding ,,,,,,,, ill be wearing a black mask . be sure to kill me
-unknown
me : whyyyyyyyy ............
i scram in sadness
me : why did u listeeeen tooooo unknown ............. he trickedddd uuuu rakan * sobbing hardly *
rakan : la2 mosta7eel
rakan's weak voice said and i could c the fear and sadness in his eyes .
i leaned on the ground and i slowly took off the mask away from the shotten person i surprisingly found
m7amed .
me : m7amed
i scram while holding him to my chest .
m7amed : a77 ... lujain
his weak voice called out my name .
me : 7abeeby
m7amed : ya 3umri intay
he replied while placing his hand on his injury . m7amed held my hand that was shaking . he then placed it on his heart and said
m7amed : u will always be here .
It wasn't so much the pain, but the shock, the surprise that m7amed was facing . feeling the hot, wet pain in his chest, the hole the bullet made. It wasn't what he expected. He had thought there would be more pain. He stumbled, taken aback, still looking dully into the air, not knowing what came next, just knowing that it was the end.
m7amed's beautiful eyes that i always fell for started to shut slowly , the grip of his hand on mine faded away . his breathing has stopped and i knew that my world has ended . i couldnt believe my eyes
me : m7amed ........
i said hoping to get a reply
m7amed : ............
me : m7amed ........ please wake up * shaking him *
m7amed : ....................
me : m7amed ........................
*police sirens * * police sirens *
police : put ur hands about ur head
i repeat * put your hands above ur head *
the police blamed us for the death of m7amed . they locked us up in a scary cage . we stayed like this for months and years .
i turned around to face rakan who has grown a beard .
me : rakan ..... minu unknown ?
rakan : * smirks * 9arlina isneen masjoonen ihnee wa lal7een mat3arfeen ?
me : please gooly minu
rakan: i warned u lujain ..... lo intay mo ray7a il 3ers chan ma9arlina chithe ... chan ma9arlich chitheee
tears started to form ,,,, they froze on the edge of my eyes
rakan: hufff .... taiba unknown lujain
he said and shock started to fill me . anger covered every inch of my body .
me : shinuu ?
m7amed : eeee unknown taiba * screaming * zaaain chitheeee shofaaaaay i7naa al7een shlooooon ......................
me : m7amed bsss lat9ari5 *sobbing *
m7amed : shlon ma a9ariii5 lujaaaaain ,,,,, we are criminals ...... thats what everyone thinks now .... we cant change anything about ittt * screaming *
rakan's eyes started to tear .
me : we are not
i screamed back at him .
rakan : yallah roo7ay goolay 7ag il 3alam o 5anshoof itha iy9adgoonich .
since rakan and i have been locked up in jail , all i did was cry . it was a daily routine , i forgot the meaning of happiness , i forgot how to smile which was the easiest thing i was good at doing before . and i would sit up and rewind the memories of m7amed ....... my life . i tried to sucide several times but something stopped me and it was my grandma .... she didnt deserve anything of it . my grandma was the only reason why iam still holding on to life .
police guy : lujain al flani ... fee resala
me : wainha *sniff*
i replied while whipping away my tears . i stood up then i went up to the police guy who had an envelope in his hand .
i quickly tore the papers with my nimble fingers .
game over . i won
-unknown
and by that i wrote a poem dedicated to my one and only m7amed . i miss u
I see you through dawn misted eyes.
Tempted not to kiss them lips, that longing goodbye.
But to stay here wrapped in your embrace.
Yet alas I have to entertain the daily rat race.
It’s the glimpse of you I see in my heart,
Your smile.
Your laugh,
Embed in my senses never to part.
The scented morning air catches me just,
Thoughts of you make my head rush.
You’re the reason for living,
My very world,
My being.
When we struggle and times are tough.
Know matter how hard,
Being with you is always enough.
You’re my lover
My family
A man like no other.
My very best friend
My soul mate till the end.
Its these thoughts of you I treasure day to day,
I don’t wish to bury them or keep them locked away.
But I never knew these images in my mind
Would be all I have left of you over time.
If I had stayed one morning that one minute more,
I wouldn’t bee seeing you through tears as I morn.
If I had held you just one more second in the day
I wouldn’t be wishing you were here to stay.
I thought the goodbyes I use to contend with,
Were the hardest,
Most painful,
Even when sealed with a kiss.
This departure,
This long goodbye.
Twists and cuts me like a knife.
I still see you, in the hazy sun rise.
But I’m frightened to open my eyes.
To see that empty space in my head ,
Remembering you,
And all that’s now dead , but i promise u we will meet in heaven someday .
Tempted not to kiss them lips, that longing goodbye.
But to stay here wrapped in your embrace.
Yet alas I have to entertain the daily rat race.
It’s the glimpse of you I see in my heart,
Your smile.
Your laugh,
Embed in my senses never to part.
The scented morning air catches me just,
Thoughts of you make my head rush.
You’re the reason for living,
My very world,
My being.
When we struggle and times are tough.
Know matter how hard,
Being with you is always enough.
You’re my lover
My family
A man like no other.
My very best friend
My soul mate till the end.
Its these thoughts of you I treasure day to day,
I don’t wish to bury them or keep them locked away.
But I never knew these images in my mind
Would be all I have left of you over time.
If I had stayed one morning that one minute more,
I wouldn’t bee seeing you through tears as I morn.
If I had held you just one more second in the day
I wouldn’t be wishing you were here to stay.
I thought the goodbyes I use to contend with,
Were the hardest,
Most painful,
Even when sealed with a kiss.
This departure,
This long goodbye.
Twists and cuts me like a knife.
I still see you, in the hazy sun rise.
But I’m frightened to open my eyes.
To see that empty space in my head ,
Remembering you,
And all that’s now dead , but i promise u we will meet in heaven someday .
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the end ...............................
Ma9aaadigg D'x dgeega mafhamt!! shlwn m7amad kan hnaaak ?!? 3abaly oha fee switz w taiba shlwn e5tfaat :O bs wallaa unexpextes ending!! it was amazing !!
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