CHAPTER 6

wahab and i got inside . i sat down on one of the chairs and wahab went to take our orders . kint 7a9rana fa i decided to go and use the bathroom . as soon as i finished , i washed my hands then i went out . all of a sudden , an arm got placed infront of me , blocking my way of walking

nasser: ni6ray lujain ... abe akalmich


i froze in my place from how shocked i was .

nasser : 7ayach nig3ad o nitkalam

me : umm ..... ma2gdar

nasser : mara7 aklich lat5afeen

me : la2 mo 3an chithe bss yeet ma3a my friend .

nasser : oh ... 3ayal we meet up bachir il 9ib7

me : 5ala9 ashoof itha gidart wa ra7 areedlik 5abar

i turned around to spot wahab staring us he was actually examining us .

me : lazim aroo7 al7een ma3a il salama

nasser : allah iysalmich

after that , i went back to our table and i sat down infront of wahab who was busy with his phone .

wahab turns his gaze towards me then says : *smirks* imwa3da ?

wtffffff ??????

me : shakooo

i replied .

wahab : hathe a5ir marra ra7 iyeebich starbucks

me : bala laish ?

i asked .

wahab : intay shayfa shga3da itsaween .... 3ala kaif mazajech itroo7en wa itsoolfen ma3a il reyayel

me : *eyes popped out * wahab shfeek ..... ily tawne kint ga3id asoolif ma3a was my ex husband

wahab froze in his place , he kept on staring at me with his eyes that were sparkling .... he was speechless .

wahab : il simoo7a lujain

i grabbed my drink then i went out of starbucks and i started walking towards the car . i laid my back on it as i suddenly got a call from shoug ! i pressed answer .

me : hala shouuuuug

i said cheerfully .

shoug : * sniff * *sniff * lujaaaain

she replied and i could hear her sobbing over the phone .

me : shougg ga3da tabcheen ?

i asked

shoug : ee * sniff * lujaaain pleaseee sa3dene

me : shfeeeech 7abeebty .... minu imza3lich ?

shoug : wahab ...... wahab

she replied as she started crying hardly . i tried calming her down but it was no use .

me : minu hatha wahab ??

shoug : *sniff* 7ayate kilaha

me : haw ?? u never told us about him

shoug : i know .... sorry but it was a low key relationship and i promised him that i wont tell anyone .

me : inzain shisawalich 3ashan tabcheen chithe ?

shoug : tihawashna ..... wa ohwa gi3ad iy9ari5 3alay .... it was a night mare i just couldnt imagine wahab doing that to me .

me : 3ala shinu hal hoosha " il kbeera " ?

shoug : ana kint abe arkab il jet ski ma3a rakan o nesait agool 7ag wahab la2ne kint mista3yela chan 3ogb ma 5ala9t kalamt wahab wa giltla chan gi3ad iy9ari5 3alay .... o ana 5ayfaaa ina ra7 iyhidneee * sniff *

and the sobbing started to come back .

me : shoug ishrayich ayeelich la2ne bl shalaih al7een o waktha nitfaham

shoug : eee please ta3alay ..... ill be waiting

me : 5ala9 3ayal ill c u .... bye

i said then i hung up . and after a few minutes wahab came out of starbucks holding a box of flowers . i stared at him weirdly thinking that he has went out of his mind . as he came closer , his face was red and i assumed that he was angry ....

he then threw the box of flowers on the ground and said

wahab : hach .

me : min minu hathool ?

wahab stared at me in a disgusted way then said

wahab :  adree inich it3arfeen minu mala da3e itmathleen .

his words went like knives into me . i picked up the box to find a note inside it . i opened it to read this .

roses are red , violets are blue

wahab is for shoug , not for u

if you try to steal his heart , ill rip out yours apart .

- unknown .

my mouth opened widely because the though of unknown again trying to hunt me is not what i wanted , i just wanted peace nothing more . i quickly rushed back to wahab's car as i sat down and closed the door .

me : wahab minu 3a6ak hal box ?

wahab : wa7id .......

me : shlon shakla

wahab : shdarane ....

me : ufff wahab please this will help me alot ..... just tell me how he looks

wahab : ma rakazt 3ala wayha ....... wa heeeeey intaay tara ana sakitlech wa intay ma9a5teeha

me : shisawaitlik ?

i asked being clueless .

wahab: *smirks*walah 7asait

me  : shinu 7asait ?

i said while being annoyed of how wahab was acting .

wahab : intay yaya ihne 3ashan itwa3deen 7abeeb il galb

me : wahab shakoo ....... a9lan ana mo mirtab6a

wahab : 3ayal minu yablich hal 9andoog

me : unknown

and all of a sudden i started crying hardly ......... tears wouldnt stop flowing down . i just had enough of it , the pain and the endless nightmare that keeps on chasing me . i wanted my old life back , the life that would consist of happiness no tears at all . i remmeber being the happiest person on earth but now i cant remember this feeling at all . i want a day to pass without trouble and that isnt too much to ask .

wahab : lujain

his words voice called out my name .

me : * sniff * haa ....

i said while covering my face .

wahab : wa5ray eyedich ..... 5anshoof i3yoonich

me : *sniff * mabee

wahab : ya lujain ..... lat3andeen ... i wont hurt you

i still didnt move my hands . then all of a sudden i felt wahab 's soft hand wrap around my hand , he then moved away my hands off my face and said

wahab : sam7ene lujain ..... tara ma kan 8a9de aza3lich ...

me : la2 3ade

i said while whipping away my tears

wahab : yallah '97kay ...

me : laish ?

wahab : bss wayhich iy9eer a7la

me : *smile* haa istanast

wahab : eee la2na il 9ara7a ma at7amil il ga3da yam a7ad za3lan

me : *laughing * 3ad allah iy3eeenik ana kila az3al

wahab : laish chithee ? intay feech shay ?

me : il 9ara7a ee .... bss... never mind

wahab : tigdireen itgoolele .... ga3id asmi3ich

me : im not ready wahab .... you will find out sooner or later

wahab : 3ala ra7tech

he said then started to drive .

me : eee wahab please take me to my friend's shalaih

wahab : waina ?

me : ka the adress .....

i replied while showing him the adress from my phone .

wahab : hatha o5ooch ?

he said and i was confused .

me : ay o5oo ?

wahab : il background mal telephonich

i quickly took the phone away to find m7amed's picture . i smiled and i imagined him sitting beside me .

me : no ..... he is a special friend there is no longer alive . 

wahab : 3ad 7asbale intay 7a6a 9oorte bl backgeound istanast

me : waii3 ..... 9oortik ra7 tiksar telephone .

wahab : afaaa ..... tawne ma5thich starbucks itgoolen chithe

me : *tongue out* tistahal .

wahab : inzain ... laish ma itshelen 9oorta la2na ana mit2akid intay tit'9ayigayin kil ma itshoofen il 9oora .

me : eee ana a'9ayig .... bss mabe ansa

wahab : madre laish a7is ohwa akthar min 9adee8

me : you are right ... because he was my life

i said while hugging my phone hoping it was m7amed instead .

wahab : ya3ne 7abebch 9a7 ?

i noded my head .  i felt like my heart has been ripped out. Suddenly there was an aura of grey around me. It was a mist that wouldn't rise. A state of depression that i couldn't see myself through.

i felt a terrible weight on my shoulders. It was as if a giant boulder was laid on me and i couldn't straighten up or catch my breath entirely.

A single tear rolled down my cheek.

i shouldnt have been crying, but i was too numb to even think about crying.

There was a giant hole in my heart and i knew nothing would ever be the same.

i looked like death and i didn't care.

me : wahab i miss him

i said as i laid my head on his shoulders and i countinued on crying .

wahab : shhhh lujain .... 9alay 3ala il nabee .. id3eela bss

me : wahab imagine waking up everyday and you always have to remind yourself that the person will never come back again , it hurts . i just sometimes feel that he didnt deserve this ..... because i did . i swear id rather die before he did and atleast that way i wouldnt have to suffer , or wait for someone who isnt planning on coming back .

wahab : * sigh * yabeelena ga3da ..... 3ashan waktha intay itgoolele kil ily ib galbich

me : thank u wahab , i truely owe u one .

wahab : shhal 7achee .... what are friends are for

me : *smile *

wahab : ka wi9alna shalaih refejtich

me : 9ig

i turned around to notice that we are infront of the adress that shoug gave me .

wahab : roo7ay istansay......... bss manabee bachee

me : *chuckls * okkk..... mashkoor 3ala il taw9eel

wahab : il 3afu 

me : ill just call her and tell her that im here .

wahab : take your time .

i called shoug and i informed her that i was waiting outisde , she told me that she is going to come out now . i sat down silently waiting for shoug to come and when she finally did .

me : shoooooug

i said as i opened the door .

shoug :  wahaab

she said and her mouth was open 

me : laykoon hatha wahab ily giltele 3ana

shoug nods her head and says

shoug : hatha owa