CHAPTER 10

fter that , the class started to give him a big applause . and i just sat down there silently shocked. tears started to fall one after the another .

aziz : thank you

and after that , he climbed up the stairs and sat down on his seat . i quickly whipped away my tears or i can say my flowing mascara . and as i was whipping it , i noticed aziz staring at me ... he seemed worried or confused at the same time ... it was like he had mixed emotions going on .... i took my bag then i left the place and i entered the ladies bathroom . as i was washing off the dried out mascara on my cheecks , i noticed the door open and came in dana , the one and only . (if you dont remember dana then she is m7amed's friend ily lama kan fe carnival bl jam3a .... ) 

dana : lujain 9a7 ?

she asked while pressing on the soap .

me : ee

i tried my best to smile .

dana : uh ... intay tadren shi9ar ib m7amed 9a7 ?

me : eee

dana : 3atham allah ajrech

me : ajrna wa ajrech .

dana : everyone misses him over here .... they wouldnt stop asking about him .

me : he was a good man .

dana : yes .... he was .

she said while applying a nude lipstick .

dana : i used to crush on him .... but they told me he was taken .

i knewwww it ............ that bitch used to have a thing for him .

me : you will find better then him .

dana : idk about that ..... because m7amed was unique ... passionate ... romantic

i intereppted by saying .

me : are you done bitch ? because he was my boy friend

i said while grabbing my bag and getting out of the bathroom . a7saaaan tistahal hal 7ayawana .... ma7ad ya5ith m7amed minyee . and all of a sudden the bathroom door opened i turned around to see dana .

dana : did he tell you that once we slept together ?

 i  looked at her in a disgusted way .... anger filled my vines .... my head started to ache and my heart started to beat faster ... i tightened my fist ... trying my best to calm down .

me : you slept with him ....... you slut

dana : actually we slept ... hmmm .. let me count

and she started counting her fingers . thats it ........ i ran towards her and i pushed her to the ground .... o 9ar ily 9ar ( pulling hair ..... punching .... pushing .... pinching etc ) until the college students gathered around us ,.... then 2 boys started to pull me and dana away . i turned around to notice aziz  pulling me away from dana .

aziz : bss .... shfeekum .... ma tist7oon 3ala wayihikum .... i7tarmaw ily mawjooden 3al a8al .

dana : *fake crying* kila min lujain

she said while pointing at me which made the students that were gathered around have their eyes on me .

dana : ihya dazatne .... ana ma gilt shay '3ala6 ... bss gilt il 9ig *sniff*

i couldnt stand watching her lie more and more each sec . she was fake and by fake i mean it . there wasent anything real about her ... maybe her name only .

aziz : al7een kil wa7da tirja3 9afha ,.... manabe mashakil o mala da3e tikbar .

me : bitch

i said to dana and then grabbed my bag off the ground and went out  of the college to sit down and wait in one of the benches for rakan . and as i turn around i notice aziz approaching me .

aziz : iy9eer ag3ad  ?

he asked while smiling .

me : i dont own it ... so yeah you can sit .

i said while smiling back .

aziz : intay yedeeda ihne 9a7 ?

me : eee

aziz : malich sh'3el min dana ihya chithe sha59eeyatha ... ra3yat mashakil .

me : ana wa7da ma taskit 3ala ashkal chithe fa isma7le bss she is the biggest bitch i have ever seen .

aziz : *smirks* adree ... wallah 7as feech .

me : messed up generation *sigh*

aziz : shfech za3lana ....

me : mafene shay .....

aziz : shiftech tabchen ....

me : ha ..... la2 shako fa shay dash ib 3aine .

aziz :  ham targee3 mat3arfeen itrag3een .

me :*laughs* and what makes you care ....

aziz : *laughs* why are u sure that i care

me :  idk *smile*

aziz then takes out his cigarette and lights it up . i looked at him in a sad expression showing how much i hated what he was doing . 

me : mo zain

i said while looking at him .

aziz : intay mo awal wa7da itgolele chithe

me : 3ayal ishna6ir 3ashan itwagif ?

aziz : and why do you care *laughs*?

me : i dont care pshtt ..... im afraid that you are going to kill the planets .

aziz : uhaaaa *laughs* 9aidaa

me : chub ......

and by that a horn made me jump from my place . i looked up to find rakan with his shades on .

me : ill have to go now ... bye

aziz : it was nice meeting u

me : same here .

and as i opened the car door , aziz asks

aziz : shismich ?

me : lujain

aziz : o ana aziz

me : i know

i replied then closed the door of the car and drove off back to the apartement .

rakan : shlon il tour ?

me : zain

rakan : shaklich ta3araftay 3ala a9di8a2 yedad

me : umm .... la2 lal7een

rakan : 3ayal minu il rayal ily kintay itkalmene

me :  wa7id isma aziz .... bss solafna shwaya .... thats all .

rakan : 7ilw

he said and it was weird how he showered me with many questions .  the rest of the ride was silent . and as we finally reached home . i went in the apartement with rakan following me and i thew myself on the coach .

rakan phone started ringing he excused his self as he went out of the apartement . and as he gets back , he started talking .

rakan : ana baroo7 al7een ...... 3inde sh'3el '9aroory .

me  : wain .

rakan : baroo7 il jam3a ...

me : inzain .

rakan : mara7 at2a5ar .

me  : its ok tyt .

rakan  grabs the car keys then leaves the apartement .

*zzzzz* zzzzzzzz*

it was a message .

follow rakan .... he is hiding something .

-unknown

the message got many thoughts running in my head . i dont know if i should listen to unknown . i didnt want to waste time or the chances of getting answers so i grabbed my coat and bag , took a taxi and told him to take me to the college . as soon as i arrived , i looked out of the window searching for rakan . and unforchunately i didnt spot him , so i got out of the car and i told the taxi to wait . i got in the college and i walked slowly towards the empty hallway . i then noticed voices coming out of a room . i placed my head close to the door to over hear this .

rakan : laish itsawen chithe ... '3abeya .... ana ishgayelich .

dana : uffff ana shdarane..... ihya narfizatne .

rakan : al7een sim3ay manabe mashakil ma3ach o lujain .... abech itra8benha 3adil .

dana : inzain inzain ..

rakan : o hach hathool 200 kd .

dana : mashkor .

rakan : yallah ana baroo7 al7een ..... mabe lujain itshik .

and after that i quickly entered the room next door to avoid getting caught and as i watch each one of them leave . i get out and i enter the taxi and we were off to the apartement .

how does rakan know dana ?

why did he talk to her ?

why did he ask her to watch me ?

and mostly why did he pay her ?

all this questions started to collide in my head leaving me speachless and scared that i might be sitting with unknown in the same room . no ... no rakan cant be unknown but the events of what just happened keeps on getting reminded leaving the idea of rakan being unknown true . maybe all of this is just a game , a game that i never won .

i got of my car then i slowly entered the apartement , then by mistake i made the tissue box fall causing a loud noise . rakan quickly turned around being surprised and confused on what was going on .

rakan : wain kintay  ?

he asked .

me : ha .... uhh kint ray7a coffee shop .

rakan : laish ma ni6arteene chan yeet ma3ach

me : il yayat aktahr .

i said and fear was the only thing flowing through my body other then blood . i tried my best to smile but i just couldnt fake it all , this is serious , rakan might be unknown and i dont know if its true . ill have to find out alone . but the question that got me thinking alone is " why would unknown try to help me " ? . this part was just confusing .

i decided to put this problem on side and to deal with it tomorrow . i ended my day with a nice sleep .

" lujain " " lujain"

a soft voice said and i managed to open my eyes , to notice that rakan was extremely close to me . i quickly moved away in fear .

rakan : shfech i5tra3tay ... ana rakan .

me : laish dash da5il ?

rakan : sima3tech it9ar5en ism m7amed .... 7asbaly 9ar fech shay .

me : maybe it was just a nightmare .

rakan : eee shakla chithe .

me : now can you please get out , i need to change .

rakan : ee akeed .

he obeyed and i was left alone in the room . i couldnt live like this everyday fearing rakan . i needed to talk to him and i will now in the car . i wore this



 

after that , i went outside to find the breakfast ready . i didnt feel like eating because i was just worried about the idea of rakan being unknown .

rakan : 9aba7 il 5air ...

me : 9aba7 il noor .

i said while fake smiling.

rakan : 7ayach ... laish wagfa .

me : la2 mo mishtahya akil .

rakan : afa ..... ana gayim imbachir 3ashan asweelich hal akil min iyede .

me : laish kalaft 3ala 3omrik ...

rakan : la2 shda3wa .

rakan : inzain ta3alay iklaylo bss shwaya .

me : la2 wallah mo mishtahya .,, o a9lan ana mit2a5ra 3ala college .

rakan : mo china mo7a'9artich ba3ad ni9 sa3a .

me : adree bss ana a7ib aroo7 imbachir 3ashan ajahiz

i was trying my best to argi3 3ashan ... i get out of this place and start looking for answers .

rakan : 5ala9 3ayal .... ana awadech al7en lata5then taxi .

me  : ok

rakan and i entered the car then we were off to uni .

i opened my bottle of water then i started drinking fast then all of a sudden i chocked .

me : *coughing alot*

rakan : lujain ....

his worried voice called out my name . all of a sudden rakan placed his hand on my back and he started rubbing it .

me : wa5ir 3aneee ....

i demanded .

rakan got surprised of my reaction .

rakan : shfeech 3alay ilyoom ..... ryoog matabeen taklen .... o kil ma abe asa3dech it9ar5een 3alay aw itwa5rene 3anech ib ay 6aree8a .

me :la2na m9adig wa7id mithlik iysawee feene chithe .

rakan : intay shga3da it5arb6en .

me : i know you are unknown rakan ..... filha .....

i said while being disappointed . i opened the car quickly not giving a chance for rakan to speak .

rakan : lujain shhal kalam ..... minu la3ib ib mo5ich

he said while following me in to the door of the uni . rakan then suddenly wrapped his hand around my arm and said .

rakan : minu la3ib ib mo5ich ..... o shlon it7i6een hal fikra ib mo5ich .... i would never do this to hurt you .

me : rakan raj2an wa5ir iyedik 3ane .... because i just cant trust you anymore .

i said while moving his hand off my arm and as i was and all of a sudden i bumped into someone and the books fell on the ground .

me : im so sorry .

i said while getting down to pick up the books .

... : la2 3ade .

wait .... the person speaks arabic ..... i looked up at the person and i was shocked and surprised to notice unknown , taiba .  
 
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