CHAPTER 8

shoug and i rode in her car and we were off to my shalaih .

me : haaaa .... golely shi9ar ma3ach o 7abeb il galb

shoug : wala shay ..... bss tikalamna and we worked things out .

me : zain ....

shoug : 7adaa its like a rock has been lifted off my shoulders

shoug : lujain bagoolich shay bss promise me you wont tell anybody .

me : shinu ? goolay .....

shoug : awal shay promise  ?

me : i promise

shoug : uhhh .....

me : shoug

i gave her a stare .

shoug : wahab ra7 ya56ibne isboo3 il yayi

me : shinuuuu ???

i said being surprise .

shoug : eee ,,,, finally i found my prince charming .

me : cuteeee ..... im happy for you but ...........

i paused .

shoug : but shinu ?

me : i wont be in kuwait

i said disappointingly

shoug : la222 ........ shhal 7acheee may9eeer .....

she said while looking disappointed .

me : a7san itha it2ajleena ...... 3ashan ham rakan ra7 iysafir ma3ay .

shoug : shinu

she said while looking at me  , forgetting the fact that she is driving .

me : shoofay jidam la nid3am .

shoug :uffff .... ufff inzaaaiiin .

shoug : tara '9ayagtay 5lgee ......

me : wallah were sorry lo daraina gabil chan ajalna our flight .

shoug : ufffff al7een shlon agool 7ag wahab iy2ajil kil shay ..... hes impatient .

me : dont worry im sure he will understand you and he will reschedule the wedding and everything .

shoug : inshallah 3ad yir'9a

and by that , we were parking the car infront of my shalaih . we got off then we entered the shalaih . we were then greeted by my grandmother and wahab's grandma too . after that , we went up the stairs and we sat down in our room talking . until we heard a knock on the door , the door opened and came in wahab .

wahab : shougtyyy .......

he said and every word was filled with love .

shoug : 3younha

i was staring at both of them o kint 8amta il '97ka , lama ba6aithaaaa .

me : *lmfao* shoughtty ??? seriously ........

then all of a sudden shoug slapped my arm hard .

me : a7777 7aywana

wahab : zain itsaween feeha ma ar'9a 3ala shougty .

me : wai3 .... mo kafu tawne agool 3ankum cute o amda7kum .

wahab + shoug : *laughing*

wahab : lujain o shoougty 5anroo7 nitmasha barra

me : la2 wallah ........ inta 7adik romancy

wahab: afaa 3alaich a'9ab6ech *chuckls*

me : la2 ana wain ayee ma3akum ..... ra7 akon il ba6a il sooda

shoug : la2 bl3aks ........... ta3alay shitsaween ibroo7ech + ra7 iyshkon feena .

me : ok bss lan6awil .... 7ade ta3bana

wahab : min9igich minu gal bin6awil ..... bss nitmasha ishwaya o nirja3

me : ok yallah

we went out then we started walking . shoug and wahab were holding hands and walking , and i would be the silly one there imagining m7amed holding my hand now . i would make up a conversation in my head with m7amed . i would do anything to feel m7amed's existence .

wahab then leans over shoug's cheecks and kisses her . shoug blushes right away then looks the other side.

wahab : ana amoot feeeech .

he said while looking straightly through her sparkling eyes that was filled with joy and love .

shoug : wa ana akthar .....

they were adorable . i just couldnt stop looking at them .

all of a sudden , i heard a load noise , i turned around to find nothing . my heart started to beat faster and butterflies starts to form .

me : *breathing heavily * sma3taw il 9oot ?

rakan : eeee

shoug ilzigat ib wahab and she placed her head on his shoulder . wainek ya m7amed , wain your shoulder i need you now . im afraid , i have no protection , i have no faith , give me ur hand and i wont lose you again ill show you the light and whats with in it . you and i are the meaning of love , cant you c it .

wahab : shhhhh ,,,,,, wala wa7da i6ali3 9oot *low voice *

wahab : minuuuuu *screaming*

......................

all he got was silence .

shoug : 7abeeby 5anirja3 ..... 7ade 5ayfa .

wa ana shagool ? ma 3inde la protection la ba6ee5 :))

wahab : 5alich maska iyede o lat5afeen ....... mara7 a5alee ay a7ad ijeesh ish3ara minich .

wahab then walked towards the place of where the sound came from , he leant on the ground to pick up  a piece of paper . his face started to change colors . we started getting  worried . wahab started to whip away his sweats  .  

shoug : 7ayati ...... shfeek ?

wahab : ha ...... la2 mafe shay

he said while holding the piece of paper behind his back .

shoug : wahab

her serious voice said .

shoug : shinu maktoob bl weriga .

wahab : .................

me : wahab 3a6ne ihyaa .

i said while trying to grab the paper from him .

wahab : wa5raw 3ane .....

he said while pushing our hands away .

shoug : wahab

her angry voice said and she managed to grab the paper . i looked over the piece of paper to find the picture of wahab and i in the sea . it was taken earlier this afternoon when wahab pushed me in and i did the same . someone was watching us . unknown was watching us . shoug's grip on the paper started to tighten more and more until she tore it apart .

shoug : *crying* how dare you do this to me wahab ......... i have trusted you

and by that shoug was already walking her way back home , wahab ran behind her , held her arm then stopped her .

wahab : shoug ....... 7abeebty wallah mafee shay baina ...... bss kina ga3den nil3ab bl ba7ar ....

shoug : o lama agoolik barkab jet ma3a rakan it3a9ib ....... hathe mo 7ala ... wa5eer iyeeedik 3aneee

she scram back at him . and started to run back to the shalaih with tears flowing . i froze in my place and i started to rewind what happened and shoug had every right to do what she did . she dosent have an explaniation but from the picture it shows that wahab and i have a thing going on for each other but the truth is were just friends and not more . i started following wahab who was running back to the shalaih already .

wahab : mabeee a5seerha lujain ....... a7ibha

me : mara7 ta5serha inshallah ....... just take her to the side and explain everything .

wahab : hatha ily basawe .

as we stepped into the shalaih , we heard a car engine start and that hinted it was shoug . wahab and i rushed outside and luckily wahab managed to enter the car before she moved .

wahab : shouggg sim3aaaay ...... lo ana kint abe al3ab feech chan 9a7abt alif bint '3airech .. bss ana noo3ee mo chitheee ... ana wafeee ... wa ti2akiday min hal shay ine maa7 a5oonech lo shinu y9eer wa hal 9oora .... ana dazait lujain bl ba7ar chan lujain idznee ma kan fe shay baina .... ana a7ibich o hatha il maw'9oo3 ..... itha matabene agdar al7een a6la3 min 7ayatich o mara7 itshoofene marra thanya .

wahab : ishgiltay

shoug : wahab a7iiibik *sniff*

she said while throwing herself in wahab's arms .... she started crying like a baby and wahab kept on playing with her hair trying to calm her down .

and as they finished talking shoug said bye as she drove off to the shalaih .






















*few days passed *

it was 5:00 in the morning ........ my grandma was asleep and thats what i wanted . it was the day of my flight to swiss . rakan and i decided to meet up @6:00 in kuwait airways lounge . i started caryying my bag slowly trying my best not o make a sound . as i managed to get out , i placed in the car and i drove off to the airport .

*zzzzzz* zzzzzz*

it was a meesage from rakan

rakan : 9ba7 il 5air ...... ana al7eeen bl 6reej shwaya o o9al ... wainech ?

me : 9aba7 il noor ..... masafat 6reej o o9al

rakan : zain 3ayal ashoofich

and by that we ended our convo .

as i reach kuwait airways lounge , i sat down on the comfy chairs waiting for rakan . and when he finally saw me he came to greet me then sat down . he had his messy hair on that make me go olalalalalallaa :ppp .

rakan : *yawns* ta3baan ......

me : la7a'9t

rakan : 9ig ?

me : *chuckls* eee .. iybayin min i3yoonik

rakan : *smiles* ee mo nayim zain amis

me : laish ?

i asked

rakan : kint a7atee il 6ayara o chithe fa ma gidart anam zain .

me : 3ayal nam .... o itha its time to board ill wake u up .

rakan : la2 3ade ,,,, i can wait .

me : 3ala ra7tik

and after several min , i turned around to find a sleeping rakan . i laughed in a low voice . 9iggg 3aneeeed , he looks so cute while sleeping . oh ma god , lujain snap out of it .

it was time to board , which means , it was time to wake up rakan who looked deadly tired . i walked slowly towards rakan and i started pushing his biceps .

me : rakan .... rakan

i said slowly .

rakan : hmmm ........

he said.

me : gooom .... its time to board

rakan stretches then looks at the time

rakan :  oh lazim indish il 6ayara

me : eee i have your bag

rakan :mashkora .

he said while taking it from me . we made our towards the airplane then we were off to switzerland .





















*several hours *

we touched down in switzerland .......... we collected our bags then rode  the taxi and told him to take me to my apartment which was next door to m7amed's :( .

as we finally reached , we headed up to our apartments with the bags . rakan entered my apartement , i told him to wait a little bit while a go and do something and that something is going into m7amed's apartement reliving the memmories . as i turned around the door knob the door opened , and m7amed's scent filled my nostirls . i havent smelled his scent from a long time , i miss it and mostly i miss him . i was looking around his apartement to notice a piece of paper on it . i held it up to read it.

lujain might be your precious gold and that gold can be turned into stone if you dont do what iam about to tell you . go on to nasser al flani and taiba al flani wedding while wearing a black suit with a black mask . make sure that no one catches you . remember time is ticking , and lujain is counting on you for this
- unknown 

i froze in my place , and the tears already found their path out . everything makes sense now , most of my unanswered questions got answered . unknown was the one to let m7amed attend the wedding in a black suit and at the same time it sent a message to rakan telling him to kill the person with the black suit which is m7amed . i leaned my back to the wall then i started crying my eyes out . m7amed ..... you died because of me ...... you loved me from all of your heart . You were my angel ,From heaven you fell right into my heart
But now that your gone, I'm lost with out you
Where do I start?
My heart has been broken,
My feelings shattered

i can no longer live . i started walking towards the kitchen and as i took out a knife . i held it infront of my stomatch . m7amed you can no longer be alone in heaven , because i decided to share the spot with you , atleast ill be there happy , no feeling of sadness will ever dare to cross my heart . ill get to see my mother too since we have been apart . here goes nothing  .......................

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can chapter 9 be the end of the story ???? tune in soon for the continuation .