i sat down waiting for m7amed to arrive and as soon as the door opened
widely , i stood up to find m7amed , but he wasent alone . another
person was behind him . a person that i was surprised to see . it was dana . wait what is she doing with him ????? ambaaaaaaaih did m7amed lie to me , was he really going to be late because of dana ????? a sudden feeling of jelousy filled my heart . i felt useless , ugly and insecure . the fact that dana was wearing something shorter than my outfit made me get jealous .
everyone : surpriseeeeeeeeee
m7amed's worried face turned into a wide smile . everyone started greeting him , mostly boys . and the only girl would be dana . a9laaaan laish yaaaaya . waaaaai3 dasha 3ar'9 malha mokan bl i3raaaab. lazzzzgaaaa ista'3farllah . all these horrible thoughts of dana started colliding in my brain forming hatred . oh god how much i found her annoying .
i got mad of the fact that dana wouldnt leave m7amed's side and something unexpected happened there , dana wrapped her hands around m7amed then she moved away and she mouthed happy birthday . mo min9ighaaa hatheeee :O !!!! i felt like crying . i wanted to be the only girl who would hug m7amed not her . and what annoyed me was that m7amed didnt react to her hug , he just smiled and said thank u .
anger kept on increasing in me and i had enough of this crap so then i took the gift that i bought for m7amed and i pushed it to his chest and said HBD , then i left the place before he would reply . i quickly ran up the stairs to the roof of the apartment and then i sat there and i started bawling my eyes out .
whyyyy ????? whyyyy do i loveeee m7amed ??? he is just a typical kuwaiti boy i thought . but the truth is deep down i knew that he was more , he is a caring , loving , generous and much more than that . he was my life . and he is what i got left and im not ready to lose him . nasser was a mistake but i know that m7amed wont be one . i had faith in him . a strong one . and he has given me so much , and i know that i have given him less but he deserves more . those 3 words were ready to pop out to m7amed " i love u" ! i had the urge to tell him that before its too late , i wanted him to know .
i spent the rest of the evening staring at the sky that was beautiful and relaxing to watch . i was lost in my own thoughts about m7amed . when the clock striked 10 at night , and the stars came out . i felt that i was time to get back to the apartement , im sure that by that time all of them would have left. i imagined the party much more funner than this , but it didnt go the way i expected it . its better if i dont get my hopes up next time . i walked my way down the endless stares then i entered my apartment to find m7amed sitting down and he had his hands under his chin , and he wouldn't stop moving his legs , it looked like he was waiting for something . as soon as i knocked the door so they could c me . m7amed and saleh turned their gaze towards me . then m7amed spoke
m7amed : intay heeeey wain kintaay ??? *Screaming *
me : bl 9a6i7 laish ?
m7amed : ma tist7een 3ala wayhiich ?
me : la2 ast7eee
m7amed : ni6artich wayid 7asbale 9ar feech shay ,, dagait 3ala il shir6a
he said and his eyes were red and scary . how much i hated that side of m7amed
me : la2 mafeene shaaay
i said with an attitude
m7amed : bss abee marra ashoofich ti'97keen ?? kila im3a9baa wala shay ya3jibich
me : la2 ana abtisim bss inta lazim i'9ayigne .. m7ib lama it9ari5 3alay
m7amed : itha ana 5aayif 3alaich itgoolen ga3id a'9aygich ?
me : eee m7amed mala da3eee it3a9ib
m7amed : bss intay mo mla7'9a ishsawaitaaay ??
me : m7amed ana ri7t il 9a6i7 wa rija3t
m7amed : inzain laish ma itrdeen lama adig
me : ma kint adree
m7amed : mita ra7 tikbreen ? *screaming *
me : laish ya3ni ana yahiiill ??
i said and i was starting to get pissed
m7amed : eeee bss il yahal iysawoon hal 7arakat il bay5a
i couldnt stay another minute beside m7amed because i knew that i would get madder at him . as i was making my way out of the door , i felt strong hands wrap around my arm i turned around at m7amed who was closer than ever to me .
m7amed : wain ray7a
he said and his breath tickled me .
me : malik sh'3il
i said as i moved my hand away from him .
m7amed : a7saaaaan rooo7ay !!!! 3ashan artaaaaa7 minich la2neee 5ala9 ta3abt .
he said as he grabbed his jacket and he left the room and saleh followed him . i closed the door hard showing how mad iam at him .
when anger takes over me , i just feel like throwing stuff , i hated that thing about me . so that best thing to do is sleep . i wore my pyjs then i laid my head and i drifted through my sleep .
the next morning , i woke up then i went to the bathroom did my things and i wore this
i choose this short outfit and i knew that the reason was to make m7amed jealous and impress him . i wanted to win the game over dana . i was competitive .
after doing that , i went to the living room to find it dirty from last night and that brought up m7amed back to my thoughts making me feel terrible and guilty for being a jerk to him last night . and i also forget that it was his birthday and he was supposed to have fun not mad . i needed to make it up to him . so i decided to go up to his apartment and apologize .
as soon as i reached the front step of his door . i knocked on the door . no answer then i continued on knocking . thats strange
me : m7amed
i almost screamed
me : m7amed
i said again . and i got the same , no answer . i started calling him and i could hear his phone ring through his apartment .
me : m7amed shda3wa ya3nii inshallah u open the door .
......
no answeeeer . wthh ????
me : kaifeeeek i7giir tara mara7 arooo7 o ra7 an6irik .
i said being confident more than ever .
*15 minutes passed *
bssssss mara7 an6er ba3ad . i turned the door knob then the door surprisingly opened . i entered m7amed's apartement .
me : m7ameeed ????
i said hoping that illl get a reply , but still the sameeee nothing
i started looking over and i found his bedroom door closed . should i open the door or shouldnt i ?
those questions kept on fighting in my head until i turned the door knob and i found m7amed laying on his bed his faced looked lifeless .
me : m7amed
i said in my soft caring tone .
m7amed : ...............
i went closer to him and ohhhhhh myyyyyyy godnesss . heeeeee was shirrrrtlessssss . daaaaaaaamn it heeee looked hot and irresistable . should i shake him ? noooo lujain his shirtless . but i want to touch his body . meeee likeeeeeee . i started shaking m7amed slowly and i noticed his body was on fireeeee . it was horteeeeer than ever . i got worried so i placed my hand over his forehead . shitttttt shiiiiiiiit m7amed has a feeeeeeever .
as i was about to walk out of the room , i felt m7amed's hot hand wrap around my arm .
m7amed : lujaaain
he said in his weak voice .
everyone : surpriseeeeeeeeee
m7amed's worried face turned into a wide smile . everyone started greeting him , mostly boys . and the only girl would be dana . a9laaaan laish yaaaaya . waaaaai3 dasha 3ar'9 malha mokan bl i3raaaab. lazzzzgaaaa ista'3farllah . all these horrible thoughts of dana started colliding in my brain forming hatred . oh god how much i found her annoying .
i got mad of the fact that dana wouldnt leave m7amed's side and something unexpected happened there , dana wrapped her hands around m7amed then she moved away and she mouthed happy birthday . mo min9ighaaa hatheeee :O !!!! i felt like crying . i wanted to be the only girl who would hug m7amed not her . and what annoyed me was that m7amed didnt react to her hug , he just smiled and said thank u .
anger kept on increasing in me and i had enough of this crap so then i took the gift that i bought for m7amed and i pushed it to his chest and said HBD , then i left the place before he would reply . i quickly ran up the stairs to the roof of the apartment and then i sat there and i started bawling my eyes out .
whyyyy ????? whyyyy do i loveeee m7amed ??? he is just a typical kuwaiti boy i thought . but the truth is deep down i knew that he was more , he is a caring , loving , generous and much more than that . he was my life . and he is what i got left and im not ready to lose him . nasser was a mistake but i know that m7amed wont be one . i had faith in him . a strong one . and he has given me so much , and i know that i have given him less but he deserves more . those 3 words were ready to pop out to m7amed " i love u" ! i had the urge to tell him that before its too late , i wanted him to know .
i spent the rest of the evening staring at the sky that was beautiful and relaxing to watch . i was lost in my own thoughts about m7amed . when the clock striked 10 at night , and the stars came out . i felt that i was time to get back to the apartement , im sure that by that time all of them would have left. i imagined the party much more funner than this , but it didnt go the way i expected it . its better if i dont get my hopes up next time . i walked my way down the endless stares then i entered my apartment to find m7amed sitting down and he had his hands under his chin , and he wouldn't stop moving his legs , it looked like he was waiting for something . as soon as i knocked the door so they could c me . m7amed and saleh turned their gaze towards me . then m7amed spoke
m7amed : intay heeeey wain kintaay ??? *Screaming *
me : bl 9a6i7 laish ?
m7amed : ma tist7een 3ala wayhiich ?
me : la2 ast7eee
m7amed : ni6artich wayid 7asbale 9ar feech shay ,, dagait 3ala il shir6a
he said and his eyes were red and scary . how much i hated that side of m7amed
me : la2 mafeene shaaay
i said with an attitude
m7amed : bss abee marra ashoofich ti'97keen ?? kila im3a9baa wala shay ya3jibich
me : la2 ana abtisim bss inta lazim i'9ayigne .. m7ib lama it9ari5 3alay
m7amed : itha ana 5aayif 3alaich itgoolen ga3id a'9aygich ?
me : eee m7amed mala da3eee it3a9ib
m7amed : bss intay mo mla7'9a ishsawaitaaay ??
me : m7amed ana ri7t il 9a6i7 wa rija3t
m7amed : inzain laish ma itrdeen lama adig
me : ma kint adree
m7amed : mita ra7 tikbreen ? *screaming *
me : laish ya3ni ana yahiiill ??
i said and i was starting to get pissed
m7amed : eeee bss il yahal iysawoon hal 7arakat il bay5a
i couldnt stay another minute beside m7amed because i knew that i would get madder at him . as i was making my way out of the door , i felt strong hands wrap around my arm i turned around at m7amed who was closer than ever to me .
m7amed : wain ray7a
he said and his breath tickled me .
me : malik sh'3il
i said as i moved my hand away from him .
m7amed : a7saaaaan rooo7ay !!!! 3ashan artaaaaa7 minich la2neee 5ala9 ta3abt .
he said as he grabbed his jacket and he left the room and saleh followed him . i closed the door hard showing how mad iam at him .
when anger takes over me , i just feel like throwing stuff , i hated that thing about me . so that best thing to do is sleep . i wore my pyjs then i laid my head and i drifted through my sleep .
the next morning , i woke up then i went to the bathroom did my things and i wore this
i choose this short outfit and i knew that the reason was to make m7amed jealous and impress him . i wanted to win the game over dana . i was competitive .
after doing that , i went to the living room to find it dirty from last night and that brought up m7amed back to my thoughts making me feel terrible and guilty for being a jerk to him last night . and i also forget that it was his birthday and he was supposed to have fun not mad . i needed to make it up to him . so i decided to go up to his apartment and apologize .
as soon as i reached the front step of his door . i knocked on the door . no answer then i continued on knocking . thats strange
me : m7amed
i almost screamed
me : m7amed
i said again . and i got the same , no answer . i started calling him and i could hear his phone ring through his apartment .
me : m7amed shda3wa ya3nii inshallah u open the door .
......
no answeeeer . wthh ????
me : kaifeeeek i7giir tara mara7 arooo7 o ra7 an6irik .
i said being confident more than ever .
*15 minutes passed *
bssssss mara7 an6er ba3ad . i turned the door knob then the door surprisingly opened . i entered m7amed's apartement .
me : m7ameeed ????
i said hoping that illl get a reply , but still the sameeee nothing
i started looking over and i found his bedroom door closed . should i open the door or shouldnt i ?
those questions kept on fighting in my head until i turned the door knob and i found m7amed laying on his bed his faced looked lifeless .
me : m7amed
i said in my soft caring tone .
m7amed : ...............
i went closer to him and ohhhhhh myyyyyyy godnesss . heeeeee was shirrrrtlessssss . daaaaaaaamn it heeee looked hot and irresistable . should i shake him ? noooo lujain his shirtless . but i want to touch his body . meeee likeeeeeee . i started shaking m7amed slowly and i noticed his body was on fireeeee . it was horteeeeer than ever . i got worried so i placed my hand over his forehead . shitttttt shiiiiiiiit m7amed has a feeeeeeever .
as i was about to walk out of the room , i felt m7amed's hot hand wrap around my arm .
m7amed : lujaaain
he said in his weak voice .
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