CHAPTER 18

I took my bags and before i turned the door knob to enter the house . My phone started vibrating

Wb to kuwait  . I suggest u stay out here because i have prepared a nice surprise for u

-Unknown

And after a few seconds i recieved this shocking message from taiba 

taiba :Ambaaaaaaaih lujaaaaain rakaan sawa 7adiithh 

omgggggg was the only phrase that kept on shouting in my mind . i wasent in the mood for unknown at all . i wasent ready to face the endless game again . it was tiring . i quickly dialed in taiba's number then i pressed call . 

taiba : aloooo lujain ana o shoug al7een on our way to the hospital 

me : ok then ra7 ayeelikum ba3ad ishwaya 

taiba : la2 u dont have to , tawich wa9la

i could hear shoug sobbing over the phone . poor thing . 

me : la2 may9eer shoug needs both of us by her side now .

taiba : ok 3ayal inshoofich ihnak bye

she quickly hung up . i entered the house to find my grandma sitting on her iphone . im sure shes busy with whats app or instagram . mothers these days , they would never leave their phones . and its so hard to talk to them , sina 3ala ma iyridoon bss an6ir il 5edma it5ali9 3indhum ba3dain their free enough for u :P #kuwaitimomsfact.

back to the story . as soon i closed the door , my grandma's eyes faced mine . u could c her surprised expression on . her eyes started to water . pleaseeee no no no dont cry . those words kept on uttering in my mind .

grandma : lujain

her shaky voice said while she stood up to give me a warm hug . she examined my features then said

grandma : ishtigtlich wayid 7abebty .... mita rija3tay

me : wa ana akthar .... ilyoom

grandma : wallah ana asfa lujain ... sam7ene ... ma kan 8a9dy a'3a9bich itsafreen bss tadreen il som3a bl kuwait shlon mohma fa ana kint bss na6ra il ashya2 tihda 3ashan tirj3een 3inde

me : la2 3ade bl 3aks ..

i said then i paused . i was about to tell her how fun it was with m7amed but i didnt . something held me back , a strong force , a force of guilt . i already miss him like hell . il hajer 9a3ib wallah ;( i just hope that he is ok there with saleh .

grandma : intay yo3ana 9a7 ?

me : shdarach ?

grandma : 5obiz iyede a3arfich ,,,, 59oo9an lama itkoonen maska ba6nich iybain inich yoo3ana

me : * chuckls * eee 9a7 7aail yo3ana ,,, i cant eat a horse

grandma : laaa2 mako horse ra7 asawelich min 6iba5 iyede .. ishtabeen ?

me : ay shay minich 7ilww

grandma : 5ala9 3ayal ra7 asaweelich pink sause pasta

me : a555ay 7aaail mishtheeta

grandma : eee 3ayal roo7ay badlay o '3a9lay wa ra7 tilgain il akil jahiz inshallah

me : weeeee nesait ... yeditee ajleee il akil 7ag ba3dain lazim aroo7 3ind rakan .

grandma : minu hatha rakan ?

she give me a stare . dont get the wrong idea pleaseee .

me : wild 5alat shoug

grandma : ishtabeen fee ?

me : di3mta sayara wa ohwa al7een bl mostashfa shoug minhara wayid wa lazim aroo7 ashoof shlonha

grandma's serious expression changed into a sad one .

grandma : weeee maskeeena ... allah iysa3dha wa iygawim o5ooha bl salama

me : ameeen inshallah

grandma : intay ishna6ra ? yallah roo7ay il bint akeed na6ritich

me : inshallah wa shakly bamir ay m63am akilele fe 3asha

grandma : ya7ibkum 7ag il junk food

me : * smiling * yallah asta2thin ana baroo7 al7een

grandma : allah ma3ach .

and i left the place then i drove off to the hospital adress that taiba has sent me . as i finally reached there , i parked the car then i entered the hospital . i started walking towards room 120 . i spotted taiba and shoug sitting on the chairs . shoug had her head on taiba's lap . u could tell that she was crying .

taiba : wa a5eeran yeetay lujaain

taiba said and shoug then moved her head up . her puffed up eyes could describe the pain she was suffering from .

me : 7abeeebty shoug shlonich

i said while hugging her . i then heard her sobb .

me : shouggg 3ashaneee la tabcheeen

shoug : * sniff *ga3deen iysawoonla 3amaleya

me : id3eeela ... inshallah iygoom bl salama

shoug :  inshallah .

taiba : lujain 8in3ay shoug takil shay .... min awal ma 6ila3t ma3aha ma kanat makla shay .

shoug : mabeeee akil inzaaaaain .... bss abeeee rakan iygoom bl salama .

taiba : hal bint 6al3a 3alich ..... intaw il athnain wayid 3aneedeen

i gave taiba a stare to make her shut up .

after waiting for many min and hours . the nurses started pushing rakan towards his room . i stood up and i stared deeply at rakan's lifeless face . he looked pale , he had many scars on his face .

shoug : rakan

she scream as soon as she saw him . shoug wanted to enter the room with rakan but the nurses prevented her .

shoug : abeeee ashoooof raaaakan ....

nurse : may bye9eer rakan ta3ban wa hwa 3ayiz yirta7 bokra il 9ob7 ta3aly wa ra7 tla2ee rakan 9a7e *eygiption accent *

me : la222 iy9eeer mara7 aroo7 ila lama ashoof rakan

nurse : intee ma bitifhame ,,,, ana am a2oolik ina may9eer ya3ni may9eer * eygiption accent * 

taiba : shoug 9alay 3ala il nabe ... 5ala9 bachir ana ra7 awadeech 3inda

shoug : bsss ......

taiba : yallah 3ad shoug mafe ila il 5air ... intay tawich shifte wa ti6amantay 3alay ... wa ana mit2akda lo ohwa kan gayim chan galich itroo7en

shoug : inzain bss bachir il 9ib7 ra7 inyeela

me : eee 5ala9 ana o taiba inwadeech

shoug : what could i have done with u guys ,,,, jad thank uuu

taiba : nn , what are friends for .

after that , all of us grabbed a bite from mc dodo ( mc donalds ) then each one of us went back home . i returned home while being very tired . i threw my self on bed then i slept .



















* next morning *

i woke up around 11:30 , i went to the bathroom , i did my thing then i wore  this

with black high heels , then i went down stairs . i found my grandma sitting down on the coach i went up to her then i kissed her forehead .

grandma : 9aba7 il 5air

me : 9aba7 il noor

grandma : tara ana amis 6awaftlich iyaha ,,, bss hal marra mara7 a6awifha .. ra7 takleen riyoog min iyde fahma

me : * chuckls * inshallah

grandma : sawaitlich pan bake madre shisma

me : * lmfao * mo pan bake pan cake

grandma : ily ohwa ... ti'97keen 3alay

me : laaa2 bss sa3at itg6een badleyat naaaryaa yadteee

grandma : shasawe il kobir shain

i threw myself in my grandma's arm then i hugged her tight

grandma : ayyyyyy lujaaain ga3da it3awrene

me : a7iiibich

grandma : wa ana akthar bss wa5ray 3any kisartay i3'9ame

me : * laughing * u are the moon and the sun and the sun and the moon

grandma : shga3da it5ab6een ,,, agool roo7ay iklay gabil ma ityeneen akthar .

i stood up and i ran to the table . i found my pancakes freshly prepared with ????????? all of u know it NUTELLA !!!!! uhaaaaaaa ,,,,, the taste of heaven !!!!

i ate up all of the pancakes ,,, it was a boost of energy .

* zzzzzzzzzzzzz * zzzzzzzzzzzz*

taiba calling

me : aloooo

taiba : hala lujaaain ana wa shoug yayeen na5thich ma3ana

me : ok waiting

i sat down chatting with my grandma trying to catch up with her ! i really missed her alot . and finally taiba's car horn filled the whole neighborhood . i said bye to my grandma then i went out and i entered the car . we were then off to the hospital . the minutes flew away fast because we spent them talking . taiba was parking her car while me and shoug went up to rakan's room .

shoug turned the door knob , then both of us entered to find rakan awake . a smile formed on shoug's face .

shoug : raaaakaaan shlonick

rakan : ana ..........

he said in an unclear voice then he stopped . the nurse then intereppted by saying

nurse : rakan is having some trouble with his vocal cords ....... he cant really talk

shoug : its temporary right .....

nurse : yes it is temporary we will do our best to help rakan get his voice back

shoug  : please do

shoug replied in a sad tone . both of us sat down beside rakan who looked pale and lifeless . which was heartbreaking .

me : 7imdillah 3ala il salama

rakan : alla...........

and his voice dissapeared .

nurse : mr. rakan u can use this board to communicate with them , it will be easier for u

rakan nodded then he took the board and he wrote
 

" allah iysalmich "

 

shoug : ana baroo7 ashtrele coffee wa ashoof wain hathe taiba 

 

me : ok 

 

shoug left the room and silence filled the whole place . i broke the silence by saying 

 

me : rakan tigdar itgoole shlon sawait il 7adith 

 

i said knowing that unknown was the reason behind it . rakan nodded his head then he started writing things on the board , i waited until he finished . 

 

"  yoomha kint rayi7 7adeega feeha 5ayma ikbeera ihnak ra7 iysawoon 3ers nasser o fatima bint 3amitich wa ana ga3id barra ibroo7e bilail , faj2a sima3t 9oot da5il il 5ayma , ri7t ishwayshway bedoon ma a7ad yisma3ne chan ashoof "

rakan wrote this and i wanted to know more about the story , it keeps getting interesting .

 

 

 

me : raaaakaaan pleaseee goleeee shift minu 

 

 

rakan stared at me with his eyes that looked worried . he started writing again

 

 

" shift a7ad igreeb lich lujain ma2gdar agool minu la2na mabeech tit2athain wa ana adree ina that person was behind my accident , the person got afraid that ill tell out the secret "

 

 

me : rakan pleaseeee i wont get hurt if u tell me who it is , ull help me !

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

readyyyyyy ???????? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

" unknown did this to me  be careful lujain ur not safe at all " 

 

me : who is unknown rakan ? please im begging u 

 

i said while looking at rakan with fear in my eyes , fear of finding out the truth . 

 

 

rakan started typing again but suddenly the door opened and both of us shifted our eyes to find ...........................................

 

 

CHAPTER 17

the plane finally touched down in k-town . i got out then i collected my bags and i headed to the arrivals sections . as i was making my way down there , i heard someone call my name out . a huge smile formed on my face , i turned around to find the one and only nasser . my smile disappeared by his sight.

I stood still and my eyes started to scan his features . Nasser has shaved his beard off and he reminds me of before of our love story that ended . it brought back many memmories , good ones . His eyes have the same sparkle he used to have before . Its like my nasser is back .

Nasser : 7imidllah 3ala il salama

He said while smiling which was weird

Me : allah iysalmik

I replied and my eyes were popped out of their places because i was astonished of how much he changed

Nasser : lujain abe akalmich ib maw'9oo3

Me : mo gilt gabil mafe shay nitkalam 3ana .

Nasser : la2 fe 7ay....

and he paused . Did he almost call me '7ayati' ? The last time he called me 7ayati was a long time ago . This brought back the bright past of us . Nasser seems weird today , weirder than ever .

me : umm inzain how about we meet up in starbucks bed3

Nasser : eee 5ala9 mita ?

Me : bachir il 9ibi7

Nasser : 3ayal ashoofich bachir inshallah !

Me : eeee

We stood there staring at each other and sharing smiles . i then got a call from taiba

Taiba : alooo lujaaain i7na ra7 nit25ar 3alaich wayid la2na fe 7adith bl 6reej

Me : ufffff mo wakta !

Taiba : dawrelich a7ad thane iywadech

Me : inzaaaaain byeeeee

I hung up

Nasser : 3asa ma shar

Me : ha .... umm la2 mafe shay bss ga3da adawir a7ad iywa9ilne il bait

Nasser : ana awa9licccchh

Me : laaaa2 3adeee .... ill call sara

Nasser : 5ala9 3ala ra7tich ! 3ayal ana baroo7 al7een ! ma3a il salama

Me : bye

I dialed in sara's number then pressed call

Me : aloooo sara

Sara : hala lujain

Me : sara ta3alay i5thene im in the airport

Sara : hawwww ?? Ishga3da itsaween bl kuwait

Me : rija3t ihnee 7ag 3irs fatima

Sara : shlon itroo7een il 3ers intay mo ma3zooma wala ana wala yadtitee ! Kila minich

Me : hmmm ... 5ala9 3ayal akalmich ba3dain

Sara was about to say something that would hurt my feelings so i decided to close the phone .

I sat down on one of the empty chairs there thinking of who could take me back home . The only choice i had was to call the taxi which was not a turn on at all .

While i was dialing in the taxi's number ,  i felt a shadow covering the light . I looked up to find nasser .

Nasser : mashallah 3alaich ma ta'3ayartay 3aneeda wayid

I shyly smiled then said

Me : umm la2 3ade ill call the taxi

Nasser : min9gich ... agool 9ikay il telephone o ta3alay ma3ay

And before i could reply , i found nasser walking his way out of the airport pulling my bags , i quickly ran behind me and i followed him to his car . I sat down in the front seat and nasser did the same then we drove off to my house . I was using my phone because it will be awkward if i sit there doing nothing . I caught nasser's eyes staring at me . I turned around and i smiled

Nasser : m7lawa lujain mashallah

Me : umm .. mashkoor

Me : shlon fatima ?

I said out of the blue

Nasser's smile turned into a straight face .

Nasser : zaina

Nasser : lujain

He said and he sounded serious this time which got me worried . It made my heart beat faster than ever . Butterflies formed in my stomatch .

Me : na3am

Nasser : shi9ar baina lujain

Me : i guess things didnt work out

Nasser suddenly stops the car on the side of the street and says

Nasser : why am i with fatima ?

Me : u chose that not me

Nasser : lujaaain wallah madre shi9ayir ib hal denya madre ana wain madre ana shinu

And suddenly tears start falling on his cheecks . i felt so sorry for him , really sorry ! il si7ir il fatima sawita ib nasser kan il sibab ib hal shay ! nasser ma yistahal chithe wa la ana . I wanted to hug him tight and tell him that everything is going to be alright but i didnt i didnt know if that is right but something in me felt right about it . My heart was telling me yes and my mind was telling me no .  My mind would usually win at this game but it didint this time , instead my heart won the battle . I spread my arms and i hugged nasser tightly . His scent filled my nostril . How much i missed it .

Nasser : you and i were meant to be cant u c it

Me : i used to c it but not anymore

I replied  while moving away from him .

Nasser suddenly leaned closer and he kissed my cheeck . He didnt say anything and so did i . We both stayed silent for the whole ride . We finally reached my house .

Me : mashkoor wayid matga9ir nasser

Nasser : ma sawait shay

He replied  . His face defined the word sadness . I could sense it . Now i was sure that nasser was free from fatima's evil spell . It wasent right for us .

me : nasser inta shdarak ina ana kint bo9al ilyoom

Nasser : ily iy7ib yis2al lujain

Me : ........

I took my bags and before i turned the door knob to enter the house . My phone started vibrating

Wb to kuwait  . I suggest u stay out here because i have prepared a nice surprise for u

-Unknown

And after a few seconds i recieved this shocking message from taiba

Ambaaaaaaaih lujaaaaain rakaan sawa 7adiithh

CHAPTER 16

finally right ??? ! and ya dont forget to visit our booth tomorrow . we would love that ! enjooy !
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* zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *

m7amed : a7ibich

i read the message more than once . tears started falling again . i felt guilty for leaving him that way , without saying goodbye but maybe it is best that way , maybe we will meet again someday right ?

i started typing those 4 words that would change m7amed's life

me : i love you too

and after a few seconds m7maed was calling . i didn't hesitate to answer .

m7amed : lujain ana agdar ashoof 9a7 ?

me : *chuckles* ee

m7amed : ya3ni intay ily dazaiteleya tawa 9a7 7agy ana ?

me : eee 7agick

m7amed : intay lo tadreen ana ishkithir mistanis , bss abe arja3 il she8a 3ashan ashoofich wa almich

me : *crying* ................................

m7amed : alooooo lujaaaaain

he said thinking that i couldnt hear him . i stayed there sobbing quietly .  m7amed kept on repeating my name over the phone . then he closed the line .

i couldnt hold it any longer , i cant take it anymore with all the memories locked up here . from this day i found out the true meaning of getting heart broken . i found out that leaving a special person in  life can never be easy . i found out that love is true . i found out that my world is m7amed . yes i said it . m7amed is my world and beyond that . i already miss him right now , his voice , his face , his everything . i misss him so much that i couldnt stop crying by time to time when the fact that ill be leaving comes up to my mind .

i know that leaving m7amed can be unfair , he dosent deserve this pain . he really dosent . all i want from him is forgiveness , thats all . i want him to forgive me for what iam about to do now . and if he does then ill be the happiest girl alive .

i folded the paper that i wrote for m7amed then i left it on the table ,  then i went back to my apartment .  i laid my head  that was filled with the thoughts of m7amed and everything about him on the pillow.





me : m7ameeeed gariiib bagoolik shay 

m7amed leans closer to me and i kiss his cheek leaving a mark of my lipstick on it . 

m7amed : a77777 im dead * pretends to fall on my lap * 

me : * laughs * 

i started playing with his hair . m7amed stayed in his position  for 2 min not moving at all . 

me : m7amed 

i said while pushing him 

m7amed : ...............

me : m7amed tara if its a joke ill kill u 

m7amed : ...................

me : m7amed pleaseeee 

i said begging him to wake up so i could stop worrying . my heart's rate was faster than ever . i started breathing heavily . 

... : lat 7awleeeen itgoomeena ..... m7amed maaaaat wa il sabab intaaay 

me : * sobbing * laaaaa2 donttt lieeee m7amed isnt dead

..... : * laughs * itg9een 3ala minu ? 3alay wala 3ala nafisch .... 5aaala9 maaaat 

me : * sobbing * why did u do this to him ??

....... : ur the only one to blame 

me : who aree uuu ? 

......... : im unknown 

and the person removes the mask away , it wassss 


























































* alarm rings *

me : bismillah il ra7man il ra7eem

i said while whipping about the tears from my face  . what a horrible dream that wasss . i went to the bathroom , i did my thing then i wore this

 i started taking my bags down the stairs , i stood beside the taxi cab watching the taxi guy place the bags in the car . as i walked towards the door of the car , i turned around to find saleh's car parked there and he was staring at me with a surprised expression on his face . i did  the same . saleh then quickly got out of the car , he then started approching me .

9ale7 : il salam 3alaikum

me : wa 3alaikum il salam

9ale7 : wain ray7a ?

me : il ma6ar

9ale7 : ib tirj3een il kuwait ?

me : umm .... eee

9ale7 : m7amed yadre 9a7 ?

me : ha ..... umm

words didnt find their way out of my mouth . i stood there staring at the floor .

9ale7 : ohwa ma yadre 9a7

he said and i looked at him to find him staring at me in a disgusted look . i didnt blame him . i deserved what i was getting . i was ashamed of my presence there .

me : la2 ma yadre

i barely said .

9ale7 : ya3ni bit5aleen m7amed wa tijr3een il kuwait ib hal soohola lujain ? * smirks * madre shlon m7amed 7ab bint mithlich ..... . he gave u a second chance and i guess u didnt deserve it . what a waste . ma hagaitech chithee .

his words went into me like knives . my heart was crying and the tears froze on the edge of my eyes .

me : ana a7ib m7amed

9ale7 : wa lil 2asaf m7amed iy7ibich wayid ... wa intay imga9ra ib 7aga

me : adree 9ale7 .... u dont have to make it worst ... atleast do me a favor and dont tell m7amed about me leaving . let him find out on his own

9ale7 : i wont tell him because that is the best thing for him and he just finished his operation .... he has enough of pain for himself .

me : so i guess this is good bye

9ale7 : good bye ... it will be better if u stay away from m7amed . because i dont think he will forgive u this time

me : 9ale7 i love him ..... why cant u understand

9ale7 : if u love a person u wont let him go

me : but

and as i wanted to continue my sentence the taxi guy said

taxi guy : when are u planning on entering the car ? i have other costumers u know .

me : yes sorry

me : 9ale7 please take care of m7amed for me . it isnt too much to ask

9ale7 : latwa9een ... have a nice flight

he replied then he entered his car and drove off . the taxi guy drove me to the airport for about an 1 hour . as soon as i reached there i took my bags then i waited in the departure area my plane leaves after 10 min .

i started texting taiba

me : taiba im going to board now ... please pick me up @ 5:00

taiba : heeeeeeey :** !!!! sureee , ra7 iyeeb il zaga shoug ma3ay

me : eeee ok , so ill c u guys then



speakers : please passengers board to plane 547 that will be taking off to kuwait city in a few min . thank u

 so i guess this is goodbye to switzerland , the memories , m7amed . i ll miss u and may allah guard u day and i night <3

i closed my phone then i took off to kuwait











* AFTER 7 HOURS *

the plane finally touched down in k-town . i got out then i collected my bags and i headed to the arrivals sections . as i was making my way down there , i heard someone call my name out . a huge smile formed on my face , i turned around to find the one and only nasser . my smile disappeared by his sight.

ANNOUNCEMENT

BEFORE I START , I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT THIS ISNT A POST :P SORRY BUT I CANT BECAUSE I DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME .

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FROM 5:30 TILL 9:30

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1- hot chocolate ( 4 flavors )

the flavors are : 1 - recess
                         2- cadburry
                         3- nutella
                         4- oreo

and u can place marshmallows on top with whip cream if u want to

2 - fresh brownies

3- molten

the booth will be held by : shaha al x ( me :D :P ) , farah al x , aisha al x , hessah al x , nahla al x , lolwa al x .

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IF U REALLY LOVE ME AND MY BLOG THEN U WILL HELP ME TO SPREAD THE WORD AND BRODCAST IT :D PLEASE , IT ISNT TOO MUCH TO ASK .

THANKKK UUUU  xoxoxo

- SHAHA <3 

 

CHAPTER 15

as i was about to walk out of the room , i felt m7amed's hot hand wrap around my arm .

m7amed : lujaaain

he said in his weak voice . i turned around to face him . he had both of his beautiful eyes open . and he had placed his other hand on his stomach .

me : na3am

m7amed : ana 7ade ta3ban

he said and my heart got broken . i felt pity and sad for him  .

me : al7een badig 3ala saleh 3ashan na5thik il mostashfa

m7amed : la2 mo 2la

me : m7amed min9ijik ,,, ur so tired and i could c it through your eyes . maly shi'3il im calling saleh and i wont be getting  no for an answer .

m7amed : intay wayid 3aneeda tadreen

he said and as soon as he chuckled he started coughing .

i scrolled through my contacts and pressed on the name ' saleh ' then call .

saleh : aloo

me : saleh ibser3a ta3al shi8at m7amed he is very sick , we need to take him to the doctor .

saleh : yallah ana yaya masafat 6reej o o9alikum .

me : ok we are waiting bye

i said then i hung up . i sat down on the chair next to m7amed's bed .

m7amed : min waylich ra8ma

he said while looking straightly at me .

me : lama kina binsawelik surprise i took his number

m7amed : ra7 tims7eena al7een fahma

me : ur really sick and u find this more important than ur health ?

m7amed : eeee

me : la2 its not imp ur health is more imp.

m7amed : it5afeen 3alay lujain ?

he said out of the blue . i paused and i kept on staring at him . silence filled the place and our eyes were the only things moving .

me : ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

and all of a sudden , the door opened and saleh came in . thank god , perfect time and i didnt have to answer the question and face the awkwardness .

saleh : a7777 m7amed shaklik film

he said while laughing .

m7amed : chub o yallah sa3dne

saleh : inzain

m7amed stood up slowly then saleh helped him walk to the bathroom . we waited until m7amed came out from the bathroom. he came out wearing his hollister hoodie jacket with free city pants . he then grabbed his rayban shades and he placed them on . the only thing i did was ataaaanii7 3alay because he looked so freakin hoot with his messy hair . bamoooooooot min il jaaamaaaal ya nassss ! 3athaaaaaaab .

saleh : mishaina

he said and i came back to reality . saleh helped m7amed enter the car then all of us drove off to the hospital . they took m7amed into x rays then they transferred him into a room . after that , the doctor came in with the results .

doctor :  so m7amed seems to have a worm in his stomatch because of something he ate which then leads us to an operation .

saleh : olaa kil hatha bss 3ashan shay makla .. yal 7aywan inta shimakil 3ashan iy9eer chithe

m7amed : shadrane ,,,, kalait pizza bl 7afla ba3dain gabil ma anam sharabt 7aleeb

saleh : chayakt mita taree5 il intiha2 mal il 7aleeb ?

ma7amed : la2 ... laish ya3ni lazim achayik ?

saleh : inta mo mal  tig3ad ibroo7ik bl she8a ... lujaaain tokfain rij3ay 3eeshay ma3a lay 9eer fe shay .

i chuckled . their the funniest friends i have ever seen jad allah iy5aleehum 7ag ba3a'9 .

doctor : so , are u ready for the operation ?

ma7med : is it nessecary

he said and i could feel that he didnt want to do it .

doctor : yes because if that worm stays there more it will grow bigger and bigger and unfortunately ull end up dying . 

m7amed : i have no choice , so ya im ready .

he said and i sudden feeling of wryness filled me .  i wanted m7amed to be safe and mostly i wanted the operation to be successful  . a tear suddenly escaped my eyes .

i couldnt even look at m7amed my eyes were glued on the floor and the tears just kept on falling .

doctor : ok then , i will call the nurses for u so they can take u to the operation room .

m7amed : ok

the doctor left and the silence filled the whole place , my tears wouldnt stop falling . i hope m7amed dosent notice that .

m7amed : lujain

he said and i couldnt look at him because i know that ill burst out crying if i do .

me : na3am

i said in my shaky voice .

m7amed : intay ga3da tabcheen

me : la2

i said trying my best to convince him .

m7amed : 3ayal 6al3ene

i didnt want to , i couldnt . so i  kept on staring at the floor .

saleh : ana baroo7 il 7amam

he said and he left both of us in the room alone .

all of a sudden m7amed stood up and he started approaching me slowly . he then sat down infront of and he placed his hand on my chin , then he gently moved it up .

as soon as he saw the tears falling he started whipping them away by his thumb softly .

i couldn't hold it anymore so i threw myself in m7amed's arms and i started crying like a baby  .

m7amed : lujaaain shfeeeech ga3da tabcheen chithe

he said while playing with my hair .

me : kila minik *sniff*

m7amed : 3ashan ily 9ar bl 7afla amis ?

me : la2 * sniff *

m7amed : 3ayal laish ?

me : the operation

i said and i knew that ill regret saying it later .

m7amed : ya3ni intay it5afeen 3alay lujain ?

he said softly and i knew that he was waiting for my answer

me : ee

the door surprisingly opened and the nurses came in .

nurse : m7amed please can u lay down  on ur bed so we can push u to the operation room

m7amed : ok

and before m7amed stood up he kissed my forehead and said

m7amed : mara7 a6awil inshallah , bss abeech to3dene ina  u wont cry

me : i wont

i replied while smiling . m7amed laid down on his bed , then the nurses pushed him out of the room . saleh entered the room and we sat down waiting until m7amed will finish from his operation . i took out my phone and i found a message from taiba that said :

taiba : lujain u need to be in kuwait within tomorrow ma boga '3air 1 week for the wedding and we need to make sure we have everything for our plan .

i texted her back

me : ok then , ill have to make up an excuse for going to kuwait . ill pack my bags , but can u book me a ticket ?

within a few seconds i got a reply from her

taiba : sure , ill book u a ticket that leaves tomorrow @ 9

me : ok but taiba cant i stay longer in switzerland ?

taiba : no lujain .... u cant back down now we need to make our plan work

me : ufffff ....ok then book me that ticket and ill be ready by then .

taiba : done :)

and the chat ended .

* AFTER TWO HOURS *

m7amed still didnt come back from his operation and i started to get sleepy , so i decided to take a nap .



















" lujain " lujain goomay " a familiar voice said . i opened my eyes to find saleh .

saleh : yallah lujain rij3ay il bait o ana ra7 ag3ad ma3a m7amed

me : bss ...

saleh : mako bss o hal kalam yallah rij3ay il bait la2na today was a long day for u .

me : ufff inzain bss ya3ni ma 5ala9 min il 3amaleeya ?

saleh : la2 

i needed to c m7amed before going back to the apartment , i needed to because im leaving back to kuwait and i didnt want to leave without saying goodbye .

me : saleh im not going until m7amed comes back from his operation

saleh : uffff 3ala rasich il yabis ... ya3ni bachir ra7 itshoofena

me : .............

me : 5ala9 ok ra7 aroo7

i got out of the hospital then i took a taxi back to the apartment , i started packing my bags . and as soon as i finished , i went to m7amed's apartment .  i took a piece of paper and i wrote this :

dear m7amed , first i want to thank you for all things  u did to me . without u idk what i could have done . remember when i bumped into u in 360 ? becuase i still remmeber that and do u also remember when i found out that u are my cousin in the shalaih . good times . u might be wondering why i am writing this message its not to say hello but to say good bye . i dont know how time passed by so fast maybe because i keep on getting attached to u  . and i dont think its  a good idea to get attached more because i know that its going to be hard to leave u . and its already hard now . remember when u asked me if i cared about u today ? well that answer is yes . m7amed i care about u and i want u to know that . and i also want to say that i'm so sorry about my attitude last night i know that it was ur birthday and i shouldnt have done that , i never got the chance to apologize so iam doing it now . i hope u forgive me . i never thought that we will meet again but im thankful for coming here because i met u and as they say life moves on without me . i hope you liked my gift ! and i will never forget the memories we had here . good bye m7amed and stay safe

- lujain <3 ;(

* zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *

m7amed : a7ibich 

CHAPTER 14

i sat down waiting for m7amed to arrive and as soon as the door opened widely , i stood up to find m7amed , but he wasent alone . another person was behind him . a person that i was surprised to see .  it was dana . wait what is she doing with him ????? ambaaaaaaaih did m7amed lie to me , was he really going to be late because of dana ????? a sudden feeling of jelousy filled my heart . i felt useless , ugly and insecure . the fact that dana was wearing something shorter than my outfit made me get jealous .

everyone : surpriseeeeeeeeee

m7amed's worried face turned into a wide smile . everyone started greeting him , mostly boys . and the only girl would be dana . a9laaaan laish yaaaaya . waaaaai3 dasha  3ar'9 malha mokan bl i3raaaab. lazzzzgaaaa ista'3farllah . all these horrible thoughts of dana started colliding in my brain forming hatred . oh god how much i found her annoying .

i got mad of the fact that dana wouldnt leave m7amed's side and something unexpected happened there , dana wrapped her hands around m7amed then she moved away and she mouthed happy birthday . mo min9ighaaa hatheeee :O !!!! i felt like crying . i wanted to be the only girl who would hug m7amed not her . and what annoyed me was that m7amed didnt react to her hug , he just smiled and  said thank u .

anger kept on increasing in me and i had enough of this crap so then i took the gift that i bought for m7amed and i pushed it to his chest and said HBD , then i left the place before he would reply . i quickly ran up the stairs to the roof of the apartment and then i sat there and i started bawling my eyes out .

whyyyy ????? whyyyy do i loveeee m7amed ??? he is just a typical kuwaiti boy i thought . but the truth is deep down i knew that he was more , he is a caring , loving , generous and much more than that . he was my life . and he is what i got left and im not ready to lose him . nasser was a mistake but i know that m7amed wont be one . i had faith in him . a strong one . and he has given me so much , and i know that i have given him less but he deserves more . those 3 words were ready to pop out to m7amed " i love u" ! i had the urge to tell him that before its too late , i wanted him to know .

i spent the rest of the evening staring at the sky  that was beautiful and relaxing to watch . i was lost in my own thoughts about m7amed . when the clock striked   10 at night , and the stars came out . i felt that i was time to get back to the apartement , im sure that by that time all of them would have left. i imagined the party much more funner than this , but it didnt go the way i expected it . its better if i dont get my hopes up next time . i walked my way down the endless stares then i entered my apartment to find m7amed sitting down and he had his hands under his chin , and he wouldn't stop moving his legs , it looked like he was waiting for something . as soon as i knocked the door so they could c me . m7amed and saleh turned their gaze towards me . then m7amed spoke

m7amed : intay heeeey wain kintaay ??? *Screaming *

me : bl 9a6i7 laish ?

m7amed : ma tist7een 3ala wayhiich ?

me : la2 ast7eee

m7amed : ni6artich wayid 7asbale 9ar feech shay ,, dagait 3ala il shir6a

he said and his eyes were red and scary . how much i hated that side of m7amed 

me : la2 mafeene shaaay

i said with an attitude

m7amed : bss abee marra ashoofich ti'97keen ?? kila im3a9baa wala shay ya3jibich

me : la2 ana abtisim bss inta lazim i'9ayigne .. m7ib lama it9ari5 3alay

m7amed : itha ana 5aayif 3alaich itgoolen ga3id a'9aygich ?

me : eee m7amed mala da3eee it3a9ib

m7amed : bss intay mo mla7'9a ishsawaitaaay ??

me : m7amed ana ri7t il 9a6i7 wa rija3t

m7amed : inzain laish ma itrdeen lama adig

me : ma kint adree

m7amed : mita ra7 tikbreen ? *screaming *

me : laish ya3ni ana yahiiill ?? 

i said and i was starting to get pissed

m7amed : eeee bss il yahal iysawoon hal 7arakat il bay5a

i couldnt stay another minute beside m7amed because i knew that i would get madder at him . as i was making my way out of the door , i felt strong hands wrap around my arm i turned around at m7amed who was closer than ever to me .

m7amed : wain ray7a

he said and his breath tickled me .

me : malik sh'3il

i said as i moved my hand away from him .

m7amed : a7saaaaan rooo7ay !!!! 3ashan artaaaaa7 minich la2neee 5ala9 ta3abt .

he said as he grabbed his jacket and he left the room and saleh followed him . i closed the door hard showing how mad iam at him .

when anger takes over me , i just feel like throwing stuff , i hated that thing about me . so that best thing to do is sleep . i wore my pyjs then i laid my head and i drifted through my sleep . 
















the next morning , i woke up then i went to the bathroom did my things and i wore this

i choose this short outfit and i knew that the reason was to make m7amed jealous and impress him . i wanted to win the game over dana . i was competitive .

after doing that , i went to the living room to find it dirty from last night and that brought up m7amed back to my thoughts making me feel terrible and guilty for being a jerk to him last night . and i also forget that it was his birthday and he was supposed to have fun not mad . i needed to make it up to him . so i decided to go up to his apartment and apologize .

as soon as i reached the front step of his door . i knocked on the door . no answer then i continued on knocking . thats strange

me : m7amed

i almost screamed

me : m7amed

i said again . and i got the same , no answer . i started calling him and i could hear his phone ring through his apartment .

me : m7amed shda3wa ya3nii inshallah u open the door .

......

no answeeeer . wthh ????

me : kaifeeeek i7giir tara mara7 arooo7 o ra7 an6irik .

i said being confident more than ever .

*15 minutes passed *

bssssss mara7 an6er ba3ad . i turned the door knob then the door surprisingly opened . i entered m7amed's apartement .

me : m7ameeed ????

i said hoping that illl get a reply , but still the sameeee nothing

i started looking over and i found his bedroom door closed . should i open the door or shouldnt i ?

those questions kept on fighting in my head until i turned the door knob and i found m7amed laying on his bed his faced looked lifeless .

me : m7amed

i said in my soft caring tone .

m7amed : ...............

i went closer to him and ohhhhhh myyyyyyy godnesss . heeeeee was shirrrrtlessssss . daaaaaaaamn it heeee looked hot and irresistable . should i shake him ? noooo lujain his shirtless . but i want to touch his body . meeee likeeeeeee . i started shaking m7amed slowly and i noticed his body was on fireeeee . it was horteeeeer than ever . i got worried so i placed my hand over his forehead . shitttttt shiiiiiiiit m7amed has a feeeeeeever .

as i was about to walk out of the room , i felt m7amed's hot hand wrap around my arm .

m7amed : lujaaain

he said in his weak voice .  

CHAPTER 13

 shlonkum , sh5abrikum , i hope all of u are fine ! i know its been a long time since i posted but its not up to me and its because of the stupid ass school ! many hws , tests etc..... ! well finally time is by my side to post . as i always say enjooooy !!!! :) ! please give me ur feedbacks
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i spent the last 2 hours arranging my stuff and cleaning some stuff out which was exhausting . i decided to sit on the coach and rest my back . while i was reading the tweets from my phone , the door suddenly opened .

.. : shhhh

the voice said . i quickly turned around to find 9ale7 . uhh ...... what is he doing here ????? wa fe shay isma knocking :) .










me : uh... saleh ishga3id itsawee ihnee







saleh : shhhh ..... ga9ray 9ootich ! m7amed ma yadre ana ihne

me : whats going on * low voice *

saleh sat down on the coach beside me . he then replied

saleh : bachir 3ed melad m7amed *low voice*

me : 9igg *low voice *

i said while looking straight through his dark brown eyes .

saleh : ee fa 5an sawela shay

me : umm......

i started thinking

me : insawela surprise party in my apartment

saleh : eee bss  bachir intay fa'9ya 9a7 ?

me : eee atwa8a3 ... ma3ndeee shay

saleh : 5ala9 3ayal amirich wa inroo7 together nishtre the cake

me : inzain  bss shlon m7amed ?

saleh : waktha ra7 iykoon bl jam3a

me : eee zain 3ayal bachir bss ay sa3a

saleh : 11:30 ?

me : perfect . ill be awake

saleh : ok give me ur number

he said and i started typing his digits in my phone .

saleh : bachir latinsain 11:30

he said while opening the door .

me : i wont

i replied while smiling

saleh : ma3a al salama

he said then closed the door . that was a bit awkward . i spent the rest of the time thinking of what to get m7amed for his birthday . i dont know him that much and the truth is i wish i did . i wish that i didnt waste half of my life with nasser who i thought would be the one who i would stay with forever. il denya dawara , at first i thought nasser was it and now im thinking that there might be a chance of m7amed and i . and if u want to know whats stored in my heart then here is it .

i have loved m7amed since the first time i saw him in 360 and from that day i couldnt stop thinking about him he always crosses my mind and he never left . he was treasured in my heart . then i met this guy called nasser who i thought was my world . but then things happened and now he is like a stranger with memories it sucks i know but life can be unfair sometimes , it might do things that can mess up ur whole life and u might think that there can be no happiness . i guess hope is the best solution for it .

after spending several min of thinking what to get for m7amed , i thought of getting him this

a watch for his birthday ,, im sure he will like it !

i started getting sleepy so i decided to go to bed . and i did , as as i laid my head on the pillow i drifted through my sleep .















soft lips kissed my forehead making me wake up from my deep sleep , i managed to open both of my eyes fast . i then stared at the open door and the figure getting out of the door . what just happened ? i thought . was that m7amed ??? noooo i dont thinkkk i might be dreaming . i pinched myself .

me : a77777

i noticed that it wasnet dream . so m7amed did kiss me ???? the fact of thinking about it made me blush . i couldnt stop smiling .

all of a sudden my phone started vibrating , and saleh was calling . i answered

me : aloo

saleh : ana barra

shooooooooot

me : kane few min o nazlatlik

saleh : ok ill be waiting

me : bye

i then hung up . i quickly ran towards the bathroom , i did my things then i wore this

 i grabbed my phone then i went downstairs towards then i entered saleh's black range rover .

me : im soooo sorry adree ine mit2a5ra

saleh : la2 3adee

after that , saleh drove off to the cake place . we reached there then we entered the place . it was filled with different kinds of cakes . am in heaaaven ???? i thought . jad i felt like buying each type of cake , they were irresistible . 

me : minu ra7 na3zim ?

saleh : ra7 a3zim kil a9diga2 m7amed

me : eeee okk goolihum iyoon @2:00

saleh : al7een agoolihum

me : good ! bss boga hadeyte 7ag m7amed  . iy9eer irtoo7 ma7al rolex

saleh : eee bss awal shay lets choose the cake

me : oh 9a7 nesait . silly me

inshallah mo chitheee . jaaaaaad 7adeeee tifashalt . saleh and i started looking at the cakes . silence filled the place .

me : m7amed shinu iy7ib ?

saleh : icecream cake

me : ok then excuse me may i have an icecream cake

lady : sure dear , what flavor would u like it to be ?

me : ummm ....

i didnt know the answer so i looked at saleh .

saleh : chocolate please

lady : ok then and would u like me to write anything on top of it

me : yes please HBD M7AMED

lady : can u write that down

me : ok

i started writing down HBD M7MAMED and i suddenly found myself placing a heart at the end of his name . i then noticed that saleh was staring at the paper , i turned around to find him smiling at me. i got so nervous .

saleh : 3adee lat5afeen ... m7amed galy kil shay bainkum

me : oh

i said while looking at the floor and my chucks started blushing . i suddenly found saleh saying "5ara" out loud . i wondered why .

me : shfeek ?

saleh : m7amed ra7 yit2a5ar bl jam3a shwaya

me : uffff la2 ..... shlon al7eeen !!

saleh : wallah madree

my mood suddenly changed from happy to sad and im sure saleh noticed it by the way i was acting .

saleh : eee yatlee fikra !

me : shinu

i said in excitement

saleh : itmathleen ina fe mishkila o chithe 3ashan iyee m7amed

me : eee wallah fikraa 7ilww

i said and i almost hugged saleh from happiness .

lady : the cake is ready she said as she placed it on the table . saleh and i paid for the cake then we went to the rolex shop , i got m7amed his birthday gift then we went back to my apartment to arrange the stuff .

saleh and i started preparing the stuff the minute we got there , we placed on the decorations , food , drinks etc..........

and that i left now is the people to come .

minutes passed by and people started filling the place , mostly guys . i got a bit shy to be around alot of guys that i didnt know . and i decided to start the plan now . i dialed in m7amed's number then i pressed call .

m7amed : alooo

me : aloooo m7amed ibser3a ta3al il she8a feee 7araaameeee

i said pretending to be scared .

m7amed : shinuuuu ???? ana al7eeen yaye

he said and i could feel the worryness  through his voice . he then hung up.

i sat down waiting for m7amed to arrive and as soon as the door opened widely , i stood up to find m7amed , but he wasent alone . another person was behind him . a person that i was surprised to see .  

CHAPTER 12

all of a sudden m7amed pushed me to the wall . i was startled by his move .

m7amed : ana ma yihmnee intay shinu sawaitay wa ilyoom il cola ana 6aya7ta wa kint mit3amid la2nee a'3ar ya lujaaain 7isay feneee wa mahma jara7tene wa 5alaytnee ana lal7een a7bich lujain

i kept on staring at m7amed shocked more than ever . my tears even froze in their places . m7amed then moved away leaving a few inches between us .

m7amed : uhh ... ana baroo7 al7een itha i7tijtay shay degay ,, mara7 at2a5ar

he said nervously and his voice was shaky . he left the place and i sat down on the coach thinking of what just happened . m7amed still loves me .... after all i did ! i left m7amed hanging and i married nasser and still he waited how ? and how is he sure that there will be an "us ". these questions wouldn't stop repeating in my mind .


i kept on thinking over and over about how will i act now with m7amed because it will be a bit weirder than before , i had to ask him if my apartment will be ready soon ! i got up then i decided to call taiba . i dont care if she is still mad at me but i really missed her .

me : alooo

taiba : hiiiii lujaaain 9a7 ?

me : eee taiba tara im so sorry about that day

taiba : about that i was going to call u but then i heard that u went to switzerland

me : ughhh taiba if u knew how much i needed u by my side that day

taiba : wallah asfa lujain ma kan 8a9dy asawe chithe that day

me : 3ade 5ala9 ihya 9af7a o in6iwat

taiba : i misssss u yal kalba

me : wallah akthar

taiba : inzain lujain laish imsafra swiss shlon il jam3a o ba3ad shlon it5alene ana o shoug

me : taiba shasawe yadte i'39ibatne aroo7 3ogob ma shaft il 5abar

taiba : ambaaaaaih il 5abar 9ig

me : eee bss ana maly sh'3il bly 9ar wa ana mafene shay

taiba : ya wayleeee min allah 7asbaly mo 9ig fa chithee ma sa2alt 3an shougg

me : la2 9igg tokfaaaain kila gi3day ma3a shougo tara wallah taksir il 5a6ir

taiba : inzain 5ala9 3ayal ana basawe ily alllah iygadirne 3alay

me : taiba sa3dene

taiba : haw shfeech ?

me : m7amed said that he loved me

taiba : mo shay yedeed ,, already galich minziman

me : eee i know bss like i thought that the love has disappeared after marrying nasser

taiba : *smirks* min9igich ..... al7een tilgaina mistanis 3ogub ma nasser 6aligich

me : *sigh* taiba shasawee

taiba : lo ana ib mokanich chan giltla i love u too . la2na il 9ara7 m7amed is one of a kind wala marra ib 7ayati ashoof kuwaiti i7ib wa7da hal kithir

me : ..............

taiba : alooooo lujaaain

me : kane ma3ach

taiba : ana giltlich raye bss madre kaifech intay saway ily tabeena

me : this is much more harder than i expected

taiba :it might seem that way at first but then it will be easy

me : inshallah .. 5ala9 3ayal ill text u if anything happens

taiba : please do

me : i will bye

i said then i hung up . i spent the past hour sitting on the coach thinking about the future , i was worried more than ever and i kinda got sick from thinking because it was tiring .

and finally the door opened and came in m7amed holding a bag of food .

m7amed : sorry ta2art  3alaich

he said while placing the food on the the table

me : la2 3ade

m7amed : yallah ta3alay yibtlich 3asha

me : mo mishtahya ... 3alaik bl 3afya

m7amed stopped placing the food on the table and he started staring at me , its like i have said something wrong and the way he was staring showed that he was thinking about something that i cant define .

m7amed : is it because what happened today

me : laaaa2 ....

m7amed : bss lujain ba6nich ra7 iy3awrich ba3dain

me : la2 3ade i have gone for weeks without eating

m7amed : 3ala ra7tich

he said and i felt the anger run throught his vines . i went back to my room and i sat down then i  laid back my head and the moment kept on repeating in my head until i fell asleep .

i woke up the next morning with a major headache that got me feeling dizzy . i went to the bathroom did my thing thing then i wore my stripped black and white leggings with a white shirt and a leather jacket on top finishing it off with my white toms










 i went out to find m7amed sitting on the table eating .

m7amed : 9aba7 il 5aair

me : 9aba7 il noor

i said while placing my hand on my head .

m7amed : shfeeech ?

me : ha ... la2 wala shay

i said while sitting down . m7amed walked towards me then he place his hand on my forehead .

m7amed : mafeeech 7arar

me : mafene shay

i said to assure him that everything is fine

m7amed : 3ayal akeed feech 9oda3 9a7 ?

i nodded my head .

m7amed : intay laish 3aneeda . mo giltlich tit3ashayin 3ashan may9eer fich chithe

he replied while taking out a piece of pandol from the cabinet

m7amed : hach shirbe

he insisted . i listened to him so then i drank it .

m7amed : al7een bititrayagain o mabe no for an answer

he said while placing a sandwhich on my plate .

me : laish ta3abt nafsik

m7amed : la ta3ab wala shay . yallah iklay

me : inshallah

i replied then i took a bite out of it .

after i finished eating the sandwhich , i stood up then said .

me : m7amed shi9ar 3ala my apartment ?

m7amed : ee about that , il rayal dag 3alay o gale ina jahza

me : 3ayal i can go there now ?

m7amed : eee bss lazim nishtre ahya2 min il jam3eya o chithe

me : ok lets go

m7amed : yallah

he said while wearing his hollister jacket and placing the hat backwards on his head . ughhh he looked sooo hot !!!! lujain he is ur cousin snap out of it !

we left the place then we drove off to the jam3eya or i can say university .

m7amed parked his car infront of a university which was a bit weird .

me : wain benroo7 ?

m7amed : fe carnival bl jam3a o gilt inroo7 ihnak .. o lama in5ali9 inroo7 o nishtre ashya2 min il jam3eya

he replied while unfastening the seatbelt .

we got out of the car then we entered the huge carnival .

m7amed : ni6ray ihne shwaya , baroo7 asalim 3ala my friends .

me : sure tyt

i stood there waiting for m7amed who was greeting his friends and they had the looks of 5aleeji boys . then all of a sudden a tall girl wearing tight jeans and a short was approaching m7amed .
minu hathe ? laykoon 7abeebta ? la2 i dont thinkkk . i kept on staring at her and watch her .  i noticed m7amed staring at me so then i pretended to be busy with my phone .

while i was checking twitter , i felt a shadow cover the light . i looked up to find m7amed .

m7amed : sorry ta2a5art 3alaich

me : la2 3ade

m7amed : yallah tabeen nitmasha around , yimikin ya3jibich shay 

me : ok

m7amed and i started walking around the booths and as we were walking , i stood infront of a booth that had that girl that i saw talking to m7amed , she was staring at me in a weird way . it was uncomfortable .  she then spoke

girl : tabeen asa3dich ?

me : la2 3adee im just looking

girl : m7amed ma3araftne 3ala refejtik

she said while looking at me and smiling and i could feel that she was faking it .

m7amed : lujain hathe dana , dana hathe lujain

dana : tisharaft

me : wa ana akthar

i said while shaking her hand .

dana : m7amed tara il notes 3indee , itha tabe tan8il minee 3ade .

m7amed : bachir an8ila minich 3ayal

dana : ee ok

m7amed : yallah i7na nista2thin , lazim inroo7

dana : bye

she said while getting a last glance at m7amed , that was weird  . m7amed and i finished walking around so then we entered the car and we drove off to the jam3eya .

me : min mita ?

m7amed : shinu ?

me : irtiba6t feeha

m7amed looked at me in a confused way .

m7amed : minu dana ?

me : ee

m7amed : laa2 shaku mo mirtab6een ihya bss refejte

me : uha ... shift shlon ga3da i6al3ik

m7amed : ee 3ade ya3ni mithil ma intay i6al3ene ihya chithe

me : la2 m7amed , its obvious that she likes u

m7amed : shasaweelaha .... ana mabeeeha

m7amed : laish ga3da tis2leen

he asked and i didnt know how to answer .

me : laa2 bss chithee

a smile formed on m7amed's face .

we finally reached the jam3eya we bought many things then went back to the apartment . we found a envelope infront of m7amed's door .

m7amed : this is ur apartment's key

he said while taking it out from the envelope .

me : thank u

i replied . then i took the key from him . i went up to my apartment and i unlocked the door . i entered it , to find it clean and tidy .  m7amed  helped bring my things here .

m7amed : so this is all of the things

he said while placing my last bag .

me : jad thank u wayid m7amed ,, adree ine ta3abtik ma3ay

m7amed : la2 3ade shdawa ma sawait shay .

m7amed : so i guess its time to say goodbye to my roommate . 

me : eee but still , we will c each other everyday u know that right ?

ma7amed : yeah . but ill miss u

he said and my heart started to beat faster and butterflies started forming .

me : ill miss u too

i said . and i could see the sadness through his eyes which made my heart cry .

me : so ill go and arrange the stuff now

ma7med : ok , ill be right next door if u need me .

me : so ill c u then

m7amed : bye

me : bye

i said while closing the door . i spent the last 2 hours arranging my stuff and cleaning some stuff out which was exhausting . i decided to sit on the coach and rest my back . while i was reading the tweets from my phone , the door suddenly opened .

.. : shhhh

the voice said 

 

CHAPTER 11

this post is dedicated to the lovely @biebuhshawty <33333333 
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all of a sudden , i heard a noise coming from the door , which made me freeze in my place . as i tried walking back to the living room i suddenly bumped into something or someone .

me : * screaming *

and suddenly i hugged the figure infront of meee

  .., : shi9ayir ?

a far voice said . and it was familiar . the lights opened and i found  m7amad at the end which made get shocked ! i quickly turned my gaze towards the figure infront of me . then i  moved away as soon as i noticed that it was a stranger .







me : im so sorry ma kan 8a9dy

my cheecks were red as the tomatoes 








.. : la2 3ade

the cute tall figure said while smiling . he had wide dark brown eyes , he was tall and not muscular but cute .  i turned my gaze towards m7amed to find him staring awkwardly at both of us . oh good what have u done lujain ? 

me : so ...

i tried broking the silence 

m7amad : 9aloo7 ta3al barra shwaya sa3deene asheel il a'3ra9

he said while giving me a disgusted look . what did i do know ? seriosulyyyy ! unbelievable .

9ale7 : yallah yaye

and both of them left the place leaving me alone with my thoughts . i then over heard their convo .

m7amed : shi9aar 9aloo7 .... laish lujaaain lamitik ... inta it3areefha ?

9ale7 : la22 ma3arifha .. ana kint dash ba7i6 il a'3ra'9 ib darik chan faj2a ihya yat o lamatnee

ya 7aaa'9yy there were no lightsss !!! inshallah u dont leave that part outtt !

m7amed : 3ad '3areeba .. lujaain malamatne gabil

9ale7 : afaa 3alaik !! ana a'9ab6ikk ,, it9adig  3ad naaaar

m7amed : heeeeeey inta shga3id itgool tara hathe bint 3amitee

9ale7 : laykoon hathe ily int gaylee 3anha

m7amed: *sigh* ee hathee

9ale7 : a777 ya wild il kalb 9ig inik wa7ish shlon gidart ityeebha min il kuwait lay swiss

ma7amed : malik sh'3il yallah sa3dnee ad5il il ashya2

9ale7 : wallah 6ila3t mo hayin ya m7amed .

and after that both of them entered the room . i pretended to be busy with my phone .

m7amed : lujain ta3alay il 3asha wi9al

me : kane yaya

and i sat down on the table . saleh came in , then he placed the food on the table .

saleh : ana asta2thin al7een , yallah bye

m7amed : ma3a il salama ashoofik bachir

saleh : inshallah

and saleh left the place . silence was surrounding each inch of the apartment until m7amed spoke

m7amed : lujain

i shifted my gaze up to m7amed

me : hala

m7amed : ahh ... intay laish lamaitay saleh

me : shinu ? ana ma lamayta

m7amed : latchathbeen lujain .. ana shiftech ib3yooni

me : inta fahim '3ala6 .. ma kan fe lait o ana da3amt ib a7ad o 7asbale inta

m7amed : ya3ni  kintay tabeen itlimene ana ?

me : la2 ya3ni kint 5ayfa o chithee

m7amed had a devilish smile on his face .

me : shfeek ga3id i6ali3nee chithe

m7amed laughs  then says : la2 wala shay

me : inzain shfe il lights in9akaw

m7amed : madreee

me : inzain please fix it tara wallah a5af

m7amed : la2 3adee mo 2la ba5alee nafis ma ohwa . mita ma yabee yin9ak 5alee yin9ak

i gave m7amed a death stare.

me : 5ala9 3adeee mo 2la ana ill just stay here for a few days o ra7 aroo7 my apartement .

m7amed : shda3waa za3altay ...... ga3id at'3ashmar ma3ach

me : ana az3al 3ashanik ... 6eeeeeer

m7amed : a7777 .... gadhaa

me : o igdood

we continued on talking and chating and having fun . as soon as we finished , i decided to go to bed and rest because i was deadly tired.

the next morning i woke up to the sound coming from the kitchen , i went to the bathroom did my things then wore this

 
 i went out of the room to find m7amed cooking . thats weird ...

i kept on staring at him not believing what i was seeing . min mita m7amed cooks ?

me : 9aba7 il 5air

m7amed turns to face me then says

m7amed :9aba7 il noor

m7amed tana7 3alay then he said

m7amed : um ... wain bitroo7en ?

me : madre kaifik

whats wrong m7amad ... he seems so uncomfortable and his acting weird

m7amed : 7ayach il akil jahiz

me while smiling : min mita ti6ba5

m7amed : minziman

me : ma kint a3arif

m7amed : la2nich ma3a6aitne majal a3arfich 3ala nafse

me : shlon  ... bl shalaih kila ashoofik o ag3ad asoolif ma3ak bss wala marra giltlee hal shay

m7amed in a low voice : la2na ana 6ool il wakit afakir ib shlon agoolich ine a7ibich

i pretended to not hear what he just said .

me : shinu ?

m7amed : salamtich

shfeeee m7amed ilyoom , im really getting worried . i decided to take a bit out of the delicious looking eggs that m7amaed has prepared .

me : 3ajeeeb mashallah

m7amed smiles then says

m7amed : latjamleen *chuckls*

me : wallah im not ... hak thoog

i cut out a piece of egg from my fork then i gave it to m7amaed . m7amed ate the egg then said

m7amed : ee wallah 7ilw

me : ishgiltik *smiling*

m7amed and i finished eating our meal . after that my grandma started calling

me : alooo

grandma : 7abeeeebty lujain , shlonech sh5barich

me : zaina

grandma : ana wayid mishtagatlich

me : wa ana akthar

grandma : lujaain 7abeebty tara ana ma gilt 7ag wild 3amitich laish inta yaya ihne

me : shinuu

i said being surprised more than ever .

grandma : ee 7abeebty mala da3ee ya5ith fikra '3ala6 3anich

me : bss yadteee intay it3arfen ine ana maly sh'3il ib ay shay

grandma : lujain ana lazim aroo7 al7een akalmich bachir bye

she said then i hung up  . she keeps on trying to change the subject when i open with her this discussion .

m7amed : shlon yaditich ?

me : zaina

m7amed looks at his phone then says

m7amed : yallah inroo7 al7een

me : wain ?

m7amed : gilt madam hathe awal marra 7agich in switzerland awadeech tour .

me : okk

m7amed : itroo7een chocolate factory

me : min9igiiiik .... ofcourse

m7amed : yallah inroo7

we left the place then we drove off to the chocolate factory .

m7amed keeps on looking at my legs bain wakit lay wakit . shilsalfa . is my outfit too short ??? yessss u dummmy m7amed hates it when u wear short outfits . i dont care and he didnt even say anything about it . we finally reached there and m7amad now can finally stop looking at my legs . we entered the place and surprisngly it was crowded with arabs . waaaaaai3 3ad yallah ra7 yabde il 7ash . ( hatha il 9ig bss abe marra a6la3 mokan bedoon people judging me ) . m7amed then went in and got 2 tickets . as we were waiting in line to tour around the chocolate factory we heard girls whisper

girl 1 : shoofay hatha 7ilww ily jidamna

girl 2 : 7adaaaa ... tawne sima3ta yitkalam kuwaity

girl 1 : 9igg ... akeed hathe 7abeebta ily yama

girl 2 : waiiii3 jaikara ... ana a7la minha

my anger kept on increasing and increasing i was a hot volcano and all of a sudden i burst  out the lava . i turn towards them then say

me : feee mishkila ,,,,

girl 1 : ga3da itkalmeena ?

me : la2 il 6oofa

girl 1: 5air ishtabeen

me : intay ily ishtabeen 9arlich sa3a  it7sheen

girl 1 : waaaai3 ta3alay 5anroo7 hathe shakilha ra3yat mashakil

me : roo7a bala rada inshallah

i said out loud so they could hear me . jad zbaaala mostawahum . i turned at m7amed and i find him staring at me in surprise his expression was priceless .

m7amed : wallah 6ila3tay  jaree2a

me : * smirks * inta mat3arifne itha 3a9abt

m7amed : zain ma 6agaitehum

me : hatha ily kan b9eer itha gi3daw digaga thanya yamna

m7amed : zain ra7aw

and then the speakers announced that it was time to make a single file so they can take our tickets and the tour can start .

(those are real pictures i took when i was in the chocolate factory in swiss !! )

 

 

  as soon as we finished the tour , we left the place then we sat down and m7amed started ordering and i sat down waiting for him . i felt many eyes on me i turned to left to find 3 boys who seem to have the looks of 5aleeji boys . i overheard them speak

guy 1 : aysh hal 7alawa ( sorry for my horrible saudi accent im trying my best )

guy 2 : ay wallah hathe jameela .

guy 1: ab'3a ra8amha

guy 2 : la2 latsawee mashakil .

guy 1 : shoof libsha kitheer g9eer .

guy 2 : ayy .

and they never stopped looking which got me feeling uncomfortable . m7amed finally came back with the drinks which were ( 2 diet coke , ( my fav) )

me : mashkoor

m7amed : il 3afo ma sawait shay

and i spotted m7amed staring at the guys . he also got uncomfortable then suddenly the coke fell on my skirt . shooooooooooot

m7amed : ana asiff

me : la22 3adee 7a9al 5air

m7amed : gi3day ihnee , shwaya o arja3lich

i sat down filled with coke ,that has dried out and my legs became sticky . waaaaaaai3 . m7amed finally came back while holding sweat pants that has a pic of a cow on the side , greeeaaaat :)

m7amed : roo7ay libsee

me : okk thanks

m7amed : il3afo

i went to the bathroom and then i wore the weird looking sweat pants . i had no choice and the pants fit me perfectly . i went out to find m7amed staring at me and his face had a plastered smile .

m7amed : yallah inroo7

me : eee yallah

m7amed : eee 3ashan saleeh na6irnaa barra

me : saleeeh ??

m7amed : lat5afeen ohwa ra7 iyee ib sayartee , ra7 awa9lich il bait wa ra7 a6la3 ma3a ishwaya o ra7 arja3

me : umm ok

laaaaaaaa2 mabeeeeee !!!! wallah shakleeee iyfashil with this cow pantss !!!!! today isnt my lucky day .

m7amed and i walked towards the car then m7amed and i greeted saleh . we were then off to m7amed's apartement .

saleh : m7amed lay6oofik

m7amed : shinu ?

saleh : fee salfa 8aweeya 9ayra gabil fatra

m7amed : shilsalfa ?

saleh : fee bintain ib movenpick i5ti9abhum wa7id rayal isimhum shoug al flani o lujain al flani

my  face became as white as chalk with my lips were trembling like a candle in the wind and my voice? my throat was so dry as if i had climbed the eifel tower in one breath .... i cud barely make a sound saleh's words went like knives into me and now the secret is revealed and m7amed will take a shitty idea about meeeee . my heart started to beat faster .

m7amed grabbed saleh's phone and he stared the phone for almost a min then  said

m7amed : inta mit2akid min hal 5abar

he said while looking at me in the mirror . his face was red and it showed how mad he was . its like he was burning in fire .

saleh : eee ba3ad 7a6een bl jareeda

m7amed then suddenly threw the phone at saleh's lap .

saleh : it3arifhuuuum

m7amed ignored saleh's question then he shoke his head while he had his eyes at me . he wouldnt blink at all .

tears of guilt started running down my cheecks i wouldnt dare look at m7amed in the eye , because i knew that i would burst out crying and i didnt want that to happen . 

each minute felt like a year . and after long min we finally reached the apartment .

m7amed : saleh in6ernee ihnee ana shwaya ray7 o ra7 arja3

as soon as m7amed opened the door i quickly got out with tears streaming down my face , i ran as fast as i can to the apartemnt while going up the stairs as soon as i reached the 7 floor . i stopped to catch my breath then i opened the door and i placed my back on the wall . i started crying more and more and then i found my self on the floor crying while covering my head between my legs . the door quickly opened and came in m7amed i stood up then whipped away the tears .

all of a sudden m7amed pushed me to the wall . i was startled by his move .

m7amed : ana ma yihmnee intay shinu sawaitay wa ilyoom il cola ana 6aya7ta wa kint mit3amid la2nee a'3ar ya lujaaain 7isay feneee wa mahma jara7tene wa 5alaytnee ana lal7een a7bich lujain



saleh : ok

CHAPTER 10

me : mara7 asafir , end of convo

sara : wa itha giltlich itha mara7 itsafreeen intay ma6rooda min il baiitttt !!!!

depression filled me and this is not like our old silly fights with sara , its a serious one .

me : 5ala9 basafer 3ashan aftak minich

whattt theee fuck did i just say just now ! anger makes me hurt other people's feelings and i know that deep down sara was hurrrrt .

sara : inshallah il sifar iraj3ich nafis gabil

me : im who iam and i wont change for anyone

sara : who areee u ? i cant believe ur lujaaain seriouslyy i feel like im talking to a bitch not lujain

me : well that bitch is lujaaain

sara : no that bitch isnt lujaain tell lujain i want her back

sara's words kept on repeating in my head and i was lost in my thoughts all i did was remember the old happy meee ! and sara is right i changed to the worst , unknown , losing my baby + nasser were all to much for me which made the happy side of me disappear leaving the angry side of me only . when was the last time i smiled ? i thought .

sara : legait 6ayara bachir il sa3a 9:00 il 9ib7 ! saway jan6ich wa tijahizaay

me : ok

i went up the room and i sat down and i started placing the stuff in my bag ! and the truth is i didnt know how many days that i will be staying there maybe 2 weeks 3 weeks ! idk ! after i was done placing my clothes in the bag , i decided to call shoug !

me : aloo

shoug: hala lujain

she said in her week voice .

me : shlonich ?

shoug : mashe 7ale

me : haa shi9ar ma3ach ?

shoug : il baby 6aaa7

me : shinuuu ?

shoug : eee 6a7

and i could hear her sobbing . her tears brought back a dark flashback of me losing my baby too . and i started crying too .

me : shooug inshallah allah ra7 iy3awi'9na

shoug : itss all my fault the baby died mala thanb

and she starts to cry again

shoug : oboooy 6agnee 6ag chan il baby iy6ee7

me : im so sorrry shoug !!

shoug  :*sniff * its ok ..

me : tara ana  basafir switzerland tabeen shaaay

shoug : bl salamah inshallah , la2 salamtich ! bss shlon il jam3a

me : shaklee bakamil derasa ihnaak

shoug : laaaa2 lujaaain pleaseee dont leave , ur the only person i could trust now what can i do without u

me : shoug please dont put it that waay wallah lo ib 2dy chan i stayed but im forced to leave to switzerland

shoug : why are u forced ?

and i told her the whole salfa

shoug : lujaaaaain wallah im sorrrry its alll my faulltttt sam7eeneee

and she starts to cry again . her sobbing truly broke my heart.

me : shoougg 5ala9 dont crrry pleasee ! i know u didnt mean it

shoug : inzaaain * sniff *

me : i promisee ill call u everyday

shoug : okk then , ill misss u lujaaaain waaaayid

me : moreeee shouggg

shoug : yallah lazim aroo7 ill whats app u then

me  : okk byeee

and i hung up . i was exhausted so i decided to sleep , i woke up the next morning to the sound of the alarm , then i went to the bathroom did my things then wore this

i went downstairs with my heavy bag , i placed it on the floor then i started pulling and as i was opening the door i heard someone say my name. i turned around to find  my grandma .

grandma : 7abeebty ra7 ashtaglich waayid

she said while hugging me .

me : wa ana ham

grandma :  nesait agoolich

me : shinu ?

grandma : wild 3amitich ra7 iykoon na6rich bl ma6ar

me : ay wa7id ?

grandma : ya3ni minu '3ayra ! m7amad

m7amad ????? its been about almost 2 years and i havent seen him , and i didnt know if i wanted to .

me : laish ya3ni giltoola iyee il ma6ar tara ana mo 9'3eera

grandma : ham law ! ana a5af 3alaich o intay bint ibroo7ich ily bss ray7a ihnak

me : inzain

grandma : yallah 7abeebty roo7ay , manabeech tit2a5rain

me :inzain bye

i left the place then i went to the airport , as soon as i reached there i boarded to the plane , then i sat down waiting until it leaves . as soon as the plane took off , i left my heart in kuwait .



* AFTER 8 HOURS *

i finally landed in geneva airport ( a7biiich switzerland lo bass tirja3 il ayam o aroo7 minak ;( )

i took my bag , then i started walking to the arrival section , my heart started beating faster by the fact that m7amad will be here . i continued on walking then  i spotted m7amad . he gave me butterflies and i thought that they died a long time ago . m7amad was different , waaaay different ! he lost much more weight and he has grown a beard . its been a really long timeee and we finally meet i thought .

m7amad :il 7imdillah 3ala il salama

he said while smiling

me : allah iysalmik

m7amad : mashallah 3alaich ta'3ayartay

me : la2 shda3wa i didnt im the same lujain u saw before a long time

m7amad turned his gaze towards my bag then said

m7amad : 3a6ene jan6itich 5al asheelha lich

me : la2 3adee i can do it by myself

m7amd : 3ala ra7tich

i started following m7amad to his car , as soon as we reached there , m7amad took my bag then he placed it in , i thanked him then i sat down in the front seat . 

m7amad : wa a5eeran nawirat swiss  ( maly 5lg kila aktib switzerland , ill write swiss:P)

me : ib wojodik

m7amad : shlon kuwait ?

me :  wallah zaina

m7amad : lo ana bidalich chan ga3adt bl deera a7san o ma yeet ihne la2na wayid malal

me : lo ib 2dee chan ga3adt

m7amad : laish ya3ni mo ib2eedich ?

me : haaa

ma7amad : wallah awal marra ashoof rayal ya'39ib morta itsafir bedoona

me : ....

m7amad : lo ana mo i2hne chan 5alach ibroo7ich mathalan , 9ig gazahrhaa hatha

me : m7amad nasser 6alagnee

i said and the pain came back again leaving me sad and embarrassed that whenever people ask about nasser ill be like allah ma kitab lina . 

m7amad : shinu

he said almost crashing into the other car because his attention was all on me

me : laish ma darayt

m7amad : shlon adree ya lujain , wa intay ba3ad ma tis2leen

me : tadre min ib yitzawaj al7een ?

m7amad : minu

me : bint 3amitik fatima

m7amad : intaaay ishga3da itgoolen ?

i turned my gaze to the window and the tears kept on falling one after the another , tears of regret of pain and of the flames of the longing .

all of a sudden i felt m7amad wrap his hand around my arm leaving me speechless and startled by his move .

m7amad : ana 7a'9artich mina lujain

he said in his soft tone

me : bss ma kint adree ina i would fall this hard for him

i replied while crying .

m7amad : allah iy3aw'9cih

m7amad said .

me : inshallah

i said while whipping away my tears .

me : wain ray7een al7een

i tried changing the mood

m7amad : binroo7 my apartement

me : fashla

m7amad : dont worry ur apartment will be ready after a few days  

me : ok mashkoor

m7amad : placed in a cd and the song started playing , i listened closely to each word .

 اذا ناوي تروح
ابفهم وين اروح
تخليني اعيش بعدك
بألم و جروح


و اذا عني مشيت
و اذا غيري لقيت
منو غيرك انا بلقى
يا روح الروح


يعني ترضاها علي
تترك ايدينك ايدي
تنسى من عايش عشانك
ان كان ميت او حي



و اذا نويت تعشق تحب ثاني
امانة لا تنساني
اني احبك موت




طمني عليك إذا
حسيت بـ اي اذى
بتلقاني مع قلبك اذا بكى



منو يحس فيني انا
اذا ذقت العنا
منو يداري قلبي في يوم اذا شكى




يعني ما بشوفك بعد
ولا اسمع صوتك ابد
و اذا ضاقت علي دنياي
مالي غيرك اي احد




و اذا نويت تعشق تحب ثاني
امانة لا تنساني
اني احبك موت




this song got me speechless , its really amazing and also the meaning behind it  !

m7amad : hathe i'3neeyte il mofa'9ala
 








me :7ilwa wayid






m7amad stares at me and a smile formed on his face








m7amad : wi9alna

i turned around to find a huge building . i got out of the car and i already found m7amad carrying my bag . i smiled on how 3aneeed he was ! i followed him and we went up to floor 7 flat 1 . i entered it and it was huge for 1 person .

m7amad : ta3aly 5al awareech darich

i walked behind him and i entered the amazing room , it was arranged neatly !

me : mahskoor wayid m7amad .

m7amad : shda3wa ma sawait shay

m7amad : ana al7een baroo7 il jam3eeya ashtre a'3ra'9 7ag il bait o ra7 arja3 inshallah soon

me : ok m7amad

m7amad : turns around then says

m7amad : hala

me : cham il sa3a in swiss

m7amad looks at his watch then says

m7amad : 7:30 .

me : ok

i went up to my room then i started unpacking , as soon as i finished , i sat down on my phone , i then got bored so i went to the living room and i started looking at the DvDs that m7amad has .

paranormal activity 3 . allah i have been waiting so long to watch the movie . i placed the movie in then i started watching it . the whole time i kept on placing my hand on face . it was hell of a scary movie .

suddenly all the lights got turned off !

what theeeeee ??? i sat down still on the coach scaried and terrifed more than ever . i stood up then i started searching for my phone .

suddenly ,  sounds started coming from the kitchen

me : who is it ?

i said with fear .

.........

i got nothing . which makes the place more creepy . lujain dont crrry and dont freaaak out , ur a big girl ! i tried convincing myself that but it was a fail !

im soooo stupid ! why did i watch the movieeeee .

i started walking slowly towards a room and i didnt know whos room it was !

all of a sudden , i heard a noise coming from the door , which made me freeze in my place . as i tried walking back to the living room i suddenly bumped into something or someone .

me : * screaming *

and suddenly i hugged the figure infront of meee

.. : shi9ayir ?

a far voice said .