Sunday, October 21, 2012

CHAPTER 22

i caught m7amad staring at me . laykooooon sima3 ? laaaa2 matwa8a3. i looked at m7amad then back at my phone . it was so awkward , so i decided to skip him and go inside . as i was going inside . all of a sudden m7amad held my hand . i was alarmed by his move . i turned around to face him .

m7amad : lujaaaain

me : na3am ?

i said it in a cold way

m7amad : ta3lay shwaya abee akalmich

me : mako shay nitkalam 3ana

m7amad : imbala

he started pulling me towards the garden .there were chairs , so we sat down .

m7amad : ma hagaytich chithee lujain , shlon itsaween chithee

me : shsawait

m7amad : intay 3arfa shsawaita , tabeenee athakrich ?

me : la2

m7amad : insaaaaay nasser , mis7eeeee min 7ayatich * screaming *

me : inta mino 3ashan itgooly chithe

u could c m7amad blinking  fast . shaklaaa 3a9ab 

m7amad:  ana wa7id 7aywan iy7biiich , laish mat7seeen * screaming *


i froze in my place , and then i swallowed hardly . i was trying to find something to say  , nothing  came up to my mind , so i just sat there quietly . m7amad then stood up and left . i pissed him off , i became good at doing that . and im not proud of myself at all . i just sat there staring at the flowers with lost thoughts , m7amad loves me and idk what do , because i dont share the same feelings towards him , ughhhhhh i need to find a solution for this problem asap . suddenly i heard footsteps getting closer i lifted my head up and i saw fatima and farah approaching me and then they sat down .

farah : shga3da itsaween ihneee ?

me : wala shay

fatima: spill it .

me : shtabeen ?

fatima : tara shift m7amad iykalmich fa yallah goolay shgalich

me : ufffffff .... lo tshoofoon shlon kan im3a9ib ,,,, jad kisar 5a6reee ,,, galy ina ohwa iy7bnee

fatima : inzain wa intay shigiltay ?

me : wala shay , kint sakta

fatima : allah iy3neech

me : eee wallah

fatima : tara itha m7amad iy7ib , ohwa iy7ib 8awee

me : shasaweee , sa3dooni

fatima : i7na malna sh'3il

fatima: niii6raw , 3indy fikra ,  laish matkalmeen m7amad wa itsaween nafsich ina it7beena ba3dain 5aleee , chtiheee ra7 yikrhich wa kil shay in7al

i gave farah '' are u serious '' stare .

me : mo min9igich 9a7 ?

farah : la2 3adeee , 7abebty ana a3arif  hal swalif

me : eeee akeed , shlon mat3arfeen , a9lan intay awal wa7da bl kuwait

farah : shda3waaa , im just helping

me : allah a3lam cham 9bay kalamtay

farah : waaaaaay wayid , a9lan ana artibi6 ib wa7id wa itha 7asait 9ar maleee8 adaweerle wa7id thane , ya3ni i change .

me : mashllah 3ala il change , hatha mo isma 7ub 9igy , hathe 7ub yahaaal

farah : 3ad shda3wa akooo 7ub 9igy , 7asbalich hal 9bayan ily ana akalimhum mo mirtab6een ib '3aiiry la2 7abeeebty hathool mirtab6een ib akthar min wa7da '3aiiiry .

me : mo kil il 9bayan

farah : la2 imbala , at7adach ityeeebeele i9baaaay mayl3ab bl banat

me : nasser

farah : eeee 5air inshallah , la2 wa ba3ad mo mathiiiiiil wa kil bint tabeeee , a9lan hatha akbar player bl kuwait

me : laaaaaa2 7abeebty nasser ma3nda chitheee la2na mitrabeeee

fatima : bsssssssss ista'3farallah , lawa3taw chabdeeee , ma3ndikum salfa , '3ayraaaaw il maw'9ooo3 la2na jad wai3

farah : hathe ta38idat 3ogb ma anhat 3eela8atha ib nasser

i just froze in my place staring at farah then fatimaaaa , fatima was in a relationship with nasser ? min mita and how . i needed answers for those questions and why the hell didnt nasser tell me about this .

me : shinooo ? ay nasser

fatima looked at farah and u could could notice it all from her eyes . she looked mad and worried and hurt . i wonder who ended the relationship between both of them .

fatima  : nasser .... abass

she said it in a low voice . her eyes wouldnt dare looking at my eyes . there was a story that i didnt know behind this .  i was just pissed off from fatima and nasser . why didnt they tell me about this  .

me : shlon

fatima :  3adee ma nitkalam

me : la2 fatima tikalimaaaay i need to know

fatima : lujaaaaaain bssss , cant u feel , its tooo much, nasser is dating my cousin for god's sack * screaming *

tears started streaming down fatima's face . she stood up and she went running back inside and then farah followed her . what just happened ? fatima seems hurt .... deeply hurt ! u could feel her heart crying too . the pain all that she suffered and the nights that she cried her self to sleep .  ohhhh god , cant just a day pass without tears . i wondered deeply of how life would be with my mother here by my side , how much i miss her and how much i need her right now . she would have helped me survive this drama and pain . god how much i miss her . i swallowed the pain in and then i decided to go in and check on fatima . i saw looked around the living room and there was no sight of her . i started at the stares and knew that fatima might be up . i went up the stairs and i found 2 rooms . and then i heard the sound , it came from the bathroom . so after that i entered the bathroom to find fatima and farah sitting on the floor . fatima's face was covered with mascara , and her eyes were red . it seemed that she cried alot , poor thing . i sat down beside her .

me : fatimaaaaa ,, im so sorry

fatima : nooo .... lujain im sorry for shouting at u like that

me : its ok , im sure u didnt mean it

then after that , fatima pulled me into a tight hug . and i could hear her sobbing , which only meant that she started crying again . i felt sorry for her .

me : fatima  7abeeeebty bss latabcheen

fatima : inzain  * sniff *

after 2 minutes fatima calmed down .

me : fatima iy9eeeer ittgoolyly sh9ar bainech wa bain nasser , i really need to know

fatima : ok ill tell u

fatima took a deep breathe , then she started speaking

fatima : nasser kan awal 7ub 9igy ib 7ayati , 7asait ina 5ala9 ill keep him forever ib 7ayaty , il ayam ma3a kanat itmir ibser3a , wa ohwa ma kan imga9ir ma3ay , imdalilnee wayid, lo bss yirj3oon hal ayam .

me : shi9ar ba3dain ?

fatima :ana agoolich , ana 7aywana , wa 7mara  la2neee kint ashiiiik wayid ib nassir , fa ba3daaaain yaaa yoom , ana wa nasser thawashnaa then we broke up , 7awalt araj3a bss lil2saf ma gidart .

me : wa al7eeen

fatima : , 3ady mako shay baina , bss it still hurts seeing him and knowing his not urs anymore

fatima : wa al7een he has u , wa allah iy5aalekum 7ag ba3a'9 inshallah

me : mashkoora

could that be it ? just because a fight ? they ended their relationship , i feel there is more to this story , that fatima didnt want to tell .

farah :  inzain bsna drama , 5al insawee shay

fatima : drama ib 3ainech , mako shay ista'3ferallah .

me : chan 6ila3na , bss im busy

fatima : laish ?

me : im meeting my friend

fatima : or u mean nasser

me : u can say that

fatima : have fun

me : i will , thnx

i was getting uncomfortable , by the way fatima was staring ,  u could c the jelousy through her eyes . and i could feel her faking a smile . i skipped the stares that fatima was giving me and then i decided to tell my grandma that im tired and i want to go home . she said yes , i said bye to all of them then we went back home , i decided to get ready so i applied , a bit make up and then all of a sudden my phone started vibrating . i looked over to find a message

becareful , ur not the only one who loves nasser , another person does  too ( fatima ) 

- unknown
 




 

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