CHAPTER 14

first of all before i begin this chapter , there was a special person who asked for a post because it was her birthday . HBD GURRRLLLLL <3333 INSHALLAH IL 3OMIR KILLA , sorry for the late dedecation i was a bit busy but now i hope ull enjoy this small present from me to you :*** , i love you wayed - shaha
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i heard the sound of a phone vibrating .... it was the ringtone of my phone and the sound came from aziz's pocket .  i slowly lean down and grab my phone from the bloody pocket . i open it to find this message

your birthday is tommorow and i decided to help you out with this present , dont worry i have saved more for you tomorrow 
 - unknown 

oh no , unknown will get me in trouble , im not ready to get in jail again for something i didnt do , i looked down at aziz who looked lifeless and dead . what can i do now ?

i started thinking and thinking until this idea popped up in my head . the idea was to hide aziz's body in the closet and by that no soul will find out about this . i started pulling aziz into the closet slowly and i placed him then locked it .

i then looked down at my outfit that was covered with blood and the awful smell was filling my nostril . i took off my outfit and i threw it in the bin then i went in to take a warm shower and as soon as i finished i wore this

as i turned around , i noticed the closet door open , my heart started to beat faster and sweats started forming . i slowly walked towards it and as i entered the closet , i suddenly found nothing , where is aziz's body ? this question kept on running on my mind .

* zzzzzzzzzzz * *zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

my phone started vibrating , i opened it to find this message

it was my mess not yours 

- unknown 


im starting to have doubts on unknown because it suddenly started to be sweat with me , i dont know what is the reason behind it but im sure it isnt a good one . i grabbed my bag and i then i left the building , took a taxi and went off to college .

and when i finnally reached there , i got off then entered the place . i started to feel a bit better around people , i didnt feel like going back to the apartment because the mood there was lonely and scary and i would do anything to get rakan back or to atleast make him forgive me .

i made my way through the crowded hall way and into the empty class that has finished before 2 hours . i found the teacher sitting down , as soon as he saw me , he started speaking

teacher : you missed the class

me : i know ... im sorry

teacher : well you better be because you missed alot of stuff

me : ill attend the class tomorrow dont worry

teacher : we will c .

i then left the place and i started walking through the hall way , and as i placed the key in my locker , someone started calling my name out , i turned around to notice dana .

me : na3am ?

i asked

dana : bss kint bat2asaflich 3ala ta9arofate .... ma kan 8a9dy...

me :  la2 3ade ... a9lan nesait 3ana hal shay .

dana : zain ... bachir 3ed meladich 9a7 ?

me : ee shadarach ?

dana : m7amed kan kila yis2alne 3an shinu il banat iy7boon .... wa lama giltla laish tis2al ohwa iygoole ina 3ed meladich yaya wa yabe iyjahiz

me : 9ig ?

i asked and a smile directly got drawn on my face .

dana : eee ... fa kint abe a36eech shay kan mal m7amed

me : waina

dana : ni6ray ...

she said while placing a key in the locker next to me , then opening it .

me : hatha locker m7amed .... ?

dana : eee

my heart started to ache again , hearing his name makes my heart ache and knowing he isnt here makes it ache more . m7amed's smell filled my nostirl . i wanted to save the smell with me forever. his locker was filled with his books , sweater and a letter that dana took out and gave it to me .

dana : hach hal letter ... amana min m7amed lich ....

me : mashkoora wayed dana

i said while giving her a hug

dana : la2 shda3wa ma sawait shay and happy early birthday

me : thank you .

and before dana closed m7amed's  locker i quickly grabbed his polo sweater that had m7amed's scent on it .

me : abee a5tha ....

dana : ee ok ibser3a lazim a9ika .... la2na il mifta7 '9ayi3 wa ma7ad yadre ina 3inde .

she said while locking it .  i looked down at the sweater then i hugged tightly hoping it was m7amed instead . i placed the letter in my bag and i wore the oversized sweater . dana wasent bad after all , i must have judged her too fast .

dana : ana lazim aroo7 al7een but it was nice seeing you

me : eee same yabelena ga3da thanya

dana : eee 7ada ... hach ra8me itha i7tijtay ay shay ..

me : 5ala9 mashkoora

dana : bye

me : bye

i said while waving at her .

after that i left the college and i took a cab to return to my apartment and when we finally reached there , i got off then i entered it . i then sat down on the coach and i started thinking about the past , it was nice remembering those memories that i will always look back at and cherish . i started laughing as soon as i remembered that incident when nora colored my  face and i ended up going to starbucks without knowing i had colors on my face o waktha 9adaft m7amed marra thanya wa kint 7ail mista7ya wa chan adish il 7amam o astaw3ib ina fee colors chan a5ith il toilet paper o i cover my face with it waktha ma kint agdar ashoof shay chan ad3am bl bab wa m7amed ya rak'9 3ashan iysa3dene and from that moment everything clicked <3333

ambaaaaaaaih yadteeeeeee shlonhaaaa ??? minzimaaaaan 3anhaaaa wallah mishtagatlhaaaa .....

and by that , i started dialing her number in then i pressed call

grandma : alooo lujaaaaain

her voice said in joy

me : eeeee yadteeee shloneeeeech .... 7aillll mishtagatlich

grandma : wallah zainaaaaa intay shlonech ..... ana akthaaaar ... laish ma tis2leeen wala itdgeen .

me : wallah zaina ..... 7ail asfa bss kint mash'3oola bl jam3a o chithe .

grandma : eee .... mita nawya tirj3een tara wayed 6awaltay

me : adreee wallah .....  lal7een madreee

grandma : la2 matifa8na 3ala chitheee .... itha intay mara7 ta7jzeen tathkara 7ag il kuwait ana ba7jizlich 3ala i7sabe

me : la2 inshallah a7jizlee tathkara ilyoom l3yoonich

grandma : *chuckls* zainnn .... ya3ne ay yoom ib balich tirj3een

me : shahar ?

grandma : ay shahar .... la2 wayed ....  wa ba3ad 3eed melad nora yay 3ogb bachir .

me : eeeee 9a7 shlon ansaaaa .... 5ala9 3ayal al7een a7jizleee tathkara 7ag 3og bachir ..

grandma : ne6raaaay ne6raaay ilyoom cham il taree5 ?ambaaaaaih bachir 3eeed meladich shlon ra7 3an bale

me : *laughs* eeee il ayam marrat ibser3aaa

grandma : waaaaaaay binteee ikbarat ........

me : la2 3ad yadtee mo lay hal darja ......

grandma : madam 3eed beladich bachir .... wa inta bitrdeen 3ogb bachir ra7 ni7tifel 3eed meladich wa 3eed melad nora ..

me : *chuckls* 5ala9 3ayal ma awa9eech abeee kayka ikbeer 3ala red velvet

grandma : min i3yonee il thintain

me : yallah yadteee lazim a7ijzlee tathkara al7een wa shakle banam la2ne 7ail ta3bana

grandma : lal7eenich 3ala nafis il routine nooom noom ... mita bityoozeen

me : *laughs* shasaweee lazim a5ith nap .

grandma : allah iyhadech

me : ameeen

grandma : yallah derbalich 3ala nafsech .

me  : inshallah .. ma3a il salama

and i hung up . 9ootha iyrid il roo7 wallah i miss heeeeeeeer <3333333 as i went in my room , i threw myself on bed then drifted through my slep .

*zzzzzzzzzzzz* *zzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

the sound of my phone woke me up from my sleep . i sat straight then rubbed my eyes and opened my phone to notice that it was 10:30 already . wooooooooow was the only thing that popped up in my head . nimt waaaayed mashallah .

i opened this message

rise and shine , there is no time , to rest and lie it is your night and there is no backing out .

- unknown

i needed to be ready to face this , i knew that it was coming and there cant be backing out , so i decided to wear my outfit and wait for unknown's commands because i wanted to end this game for once and for all . i wanted to go back to kuwait while knowing who was the person behind this or who were the persons behind this .

i went into the bathroom and i wore this

 then i sat down on my bed and i waited for unknown's direction i waited and i waited but i got nothing so i decided to fix my bag until i recieve a message from unknown . as i was fixing my bag , m7amed's letter fell off and i leaned down on the ground to pick it up . at the front it said " to lujain ... my one and only " . i smiled to that and as i turned the letter and i opened it to read this .
 
اكذب عليك ان كاني قلت ناسيك
والا بعد حاولت ياروحي انساك
تعيش فيني مثل ما اعيش أنا فيك
حبك حياتي واعرف الموت فرقاك
أنا وقلبي ياهوى البال بيديك
وشلون اعيش ايام عمري بلياك
لا تصدق اني قادر انسى واجافيك
مهما حصل صعب اني انساك و أسلاك
ماتدري إني هايم وميت فيك
ماتدري ان غايه سروري رضاك
اغليك من قلبي ومن روحي اغليك
وافراح عمري تكتمل في ملقاك
كلك حلى سبحان منهو مسويك
يا مجملك في عين قلبي ومحلاك
وزود على حسنك طبوع (ن) تحليك
تفرقك عن هذا وهذا وذاك
يكفيك مني يا هوى البال يكفيك
اني محال انساك لو قلت بنساك



فوق هذا الحب أحبك وبعد أكثر كثير..
يالي تدري إن قربك أنا أحتاجه كثير..
يمكن أكثر من غلا روحي لروحي..
وأنت من نساني بالدنيا جروحي..
ونساني نفسي وخلاني أحبه..
هو صحيح إني قدرت أوصلك..
لكن ماني عارف وين أباوصل بالمحبه..
لقيت بك عمري الي ضاع..
ولقيت
ياقلبي
أنا
فيك
الحنان
ولو بيدي ياحياتي كان أعرفك من زمان..
لحظه الي تلتقي بي يبتسم حظي ونصيبي..
ومثل
أنا ماأقول
"أحبك"

pain started to ache again in every inch of my heart , i looked down at the letter again to notice my tears on it the tears of the flames of the longing <3 .