CHAPTER 7

the weekend had finally came taiba and i packed our bags and we were on our way to the shalaih , shoug told us that she will come afterwards alone , because she needed more time to pack . so taiba and i decided to meet her there . while we were on our way , my phone started vibrating and it was message

taiba will find out about the message that rakan sent you that morning ! she wont be happy about it promise

- unknown


i shifted my eyes  to taiba and she had her headphones on , she was in her own world . the feeling of guilt filled my heart . ughhhhh problems will always find a way back to me and i had to accept that . after many long min we finally reached , and then i quickly got out of the car with taiba and we headed to the reception . we took the shalaih key then we followed the map to our shalaih . as soon as we saw it we unlocked it then we entered . i needed to use the bathroom to do my thing , so i left my phone on the sofa . and then i entered the bathroom , awal ma 5ala9t , 6ila3t chan alage taiba holding it . i was surprised and shocked of what she was doing .

me : taiba

i said in shock

taiba turned her gaze towards me and u could c the worryness through her eyes .

taiba : uhgg ... i can explain

she replied . i quickly grabbed my phone from her hands and said

me : shlon gidartay itsaween chithee taiba kil 5o9o9eeyat ib my phone

taiba's eyes started to tear and i didnt know if it was the feeling of guilt or something else .

taiba : *sniff * 8a9dich your privacy with rakan

me : what the !!!? ?

taiba : that morning ana kint 7asa ina rakan sent u a message but

me : but what taiba ?

taiba : i wanted to be the one to get the message from him , i wanted him to care

me : min mita taiba ? min mita it7been rakan ??

taiba ; il 9ar7a min awal ma shiftaa bss ma giltich 3ashan matgooleen 3ane 5afeeefa

me : bss shlon tijara2tay itficheen my phone

taiba's eyes were glued on the floor she then gave me her phone . i looked at it to find this message

hello taiba , ana mit2akda inich mat3arfeene bss ana a3arfich akthar min ma tit5ayilain , wa a3arif lujain akthar minich ham , shrayich itficheen telephonha wa itshoofeen il balawy ily fee .

-unknown

i paused for a min then i read the message twice and then 3 times .

me : i cant believe you taiba , where is my taiba ? the one i know , the one who would trust her friend ?

taiba : that taiba is gone

i froze in my place and i kept on staring at taiba in shock . i couldnt believe my ears .

me : taiba you dont trust me ?

taiba looked at me and her eyes started to tear again

taiba : lil2asaf ... ee i dont anymore , starting today

and before i could say something .

taiba : ana al7een baroo7 , salmay 3ala shoug o goolelaha ina ana ta3bana fa chithe barja3

me : wait ,,, taiba mo 2la itroo7een we can discuss this problem

taiba : la2 lujaaain im so sorrry , but you have given me no choice but to lose my trust in you . mashkoora 3ala il 3azeeema , bss ana broo7 yallah bye

and she lefttt the placeeee . i sat down on the coach and i started rewinding the events in my mind. and i realized that this was the first fight that i even had with taiba . taiba was a sister to me and i never wanted to lose her . i started thinking if today was the last day i was going to c her . but then i kicked away the idea as soon as i heard someone knocking the door , i quickly stood up and i walked up to the door , i opened it to find shougg .

shoug : salam

me : heeey

i hugged herrr

shoug : waaaain taiba galatlee ayeeblaha panadol

i paused for a min then i said

me : taiba kanat shwaya ta3bana fa chithee ra7at

shoug : 9ig ? weeee 7asafaaaa

me : eeee

shoug : inzaaain 6affficcch

me : shinu

shoug : wa ana yaya bl sayara wa7id 9ifat sayarta jidamee , chan giltla iywa5ir bss ma r'9a ila itha 3a6aita ra8me  , fa ana 3a6aita ra8mich 3ashan iywa5ir

me : shinuuu

i was astonished

shoug : dont worry , if he calls dont answer

me : uffff inzaaain 3ad inshallah ma ya3alich feeene

shoug : lujaaain lets go to the beach 

me : faj2aa ?

shoug : *chuckles * ee yallah

me : amree 3ind allah

shoug and i started walking on the beach and while we were walking shoug got a phone call and this is how it went

shoug : hii

shoug : eeee wi9alt

shoug : la2 mo min9igik ,,,, ma2gdar ana ma3a refeejte

shoug : uffffff laish chithee '3a9ib ..... 5ala9 a7awil

shoug : wa ana akthar

shoug : bye

i didnt know why i got curious on knowing who that was !!!! but a7isss 7adaaa legafa

me  : ohhhhh 7abeeeb il galb

shoug blushes then says : laaa2 shako

me : 3alaina shouggg

shoug : Waaaay lujaaain bss tara ast7eee

me : shismaa

shoug : mabee agool

me : yallah goolay

shoug : inzain ... bander

me : 3eshtaaaaw

shoug : bss lujaaaain u can not tell rakan about thisss , its between u and i only

me : ofcourse i wont dont worry

i gave her a smile to assure her that everything will be alright .

shoug and i spent the rest of the day on the beach laying down on the sand and pouring out our problems to each other . i really got to know shoug more and i could really trust her now easily , but someone was missing and it was taiba , my other half </3 i miss her ;( .


* THE EVENTS STARTING HERE IN THIS CHAPTER AND THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE 100 % TRUE *
 
me : bal3oomee iy3awrnee *cough*

shoug : a7777 maskeena salamat

me : allah iysalmich

ughhhh my throat is killing meeee ! i think that i got a flue . mo wakta ;(

me : shougg yallah 5an ni93ad ta25ar il wakit

shoug : yallah ,,,, wa intay ba3ad shaklich ta3bana

me : wayid * cough *

shoug and i went back to our shalaih . we entered it then we sat down , shoug then got a call from someone .

shoug : a5aaaaf

shoug : inzaaain inzaaain yallah yaya

and she closed the line

me : minu hatha ? bandar

shoug had her eyes glued on her phone and then she said

shoug : eee

me : shyabee

shoug : umm yabee iyshoofne

me : i dont think its a good idea shoug il sa3a 11:00 al7een wa ta25ar il wakit + mako securities at this time

i said in my pale voice

shoug : bss ya3nee inshallah may9eer shay lujain and like this is our first date

me : haw 9igg ?

shoug : eeee 9ig fa chithee i really want to c him

me : bss cant u like wait till tomorrow

shoug : la22 ohwaa yabee al7een wa please lujaain keep ur phone open and itha 9ar shay ill call u

me :  ok bss la tit2a5irain

shoug : I wont

shoug left the shalaih and i started waiting for her to come . kint 3ala a39abee wa 7aaail mitwatraa and worried .

all of a sudden i got a text message from rakan

rakan : hala wallah lujaaain shlonech

me : hala feeek zaina

rakan : haa shlon il shalaih

me : wanasa

rakan : eee ba'3ait as2al 3an shoug wainha ?

i didnt reply then after several sec i replied

me : kahee yamee

rakan : inzain goolelaha itdig 3alay

me : okk i will

ambaaaaaaaaih shasaweeeee al7eeeen ya7sriteeee !!!! waaaaainech ya shoooooug , i really hated the position i was in

i quickly dialed in shoug's number and called her several times and she wouldnt pick up . so then  closed my phone to avoid getting phone calls or messages from anyone especially rakan . and i sat on my bed with many thoughts running through my mind , i was waiting for shoug to come .

* 30 min *

after 30 long min , i was sitting in bed still waiting and all of a sudden i fell asleeep because i wasent feeling good and u know that i had a flue .




i woke up the next morning around 7:00 and then i quickly looked towards the empty bed beside me .  waaaaaain shoooooug ???? i thought . i started screaming out her name through the shalaih and my voice echoed . i quickly ran down in my pyjs  and i started looking around for shoug , i searched every inch of the shalaih . my heart started to beat fasteeer and i was getting nervous . i quickly opened the door and i got out of the shalaih and i started searching for shoug . i walked around the whole movenpick shalaih until i reached the pool side , i heard a noise i started walking towards it and i was surprised to find shoug sitting on the ground crying i quickly ran towards her .

me : shooougggg 7aeeebty wain kintaaay i was searching for u in the whole shalaih

shoug lifted her head up and i could c the dried out mascara on her face , her hair was messy and she had puffed eyes . it seemed that she was crying for hours .

shoug : banderrr

and she countinues on crying

me : shfeeee

shoug : b .. bandar '3e9abnee anam ma3a

and here she bursted out crying on my shoulders i was shocked and surprised of how an A*SS bander was all i did was try to calm shoug down .

me : shouugg shloooon chitheee ,,, but  ur a good girl ma hagaitech chithee

shoug : lujaaaain pleaseee i already feel guilty , dont make it worse please im begging

and shoug had her head on my shoulders crying , we stayed in this position for about an hour .

shoug : lujaaaaain abeeech tooo3deene ina hal shay stays between us o matgoolen 7ag a7ad fahma

me : i wont dont worry bss abeech to3deene inich ithdeen bander

shoug : eeee i will wallah 3ogb ily 9ar amis ana hadayta

me :yallah pack your bag o 5al awa9lich il bait

shoug : yallah

shoug and i packed our bags then i dropped her off to her house .

* AFTER 2 WEEKS *

i was walking my way to the mo7a'9ara and as soon as i entered i saw a crowd of people . i was curious to know what was going on . i walked in between the crowd and i was shocked to find shoug unconscious on the ground . i quickly ran towards her

me : shooooooug

and i started shaking her . and then all of a sudden i saw rakan running towards us

rakan : shooooouggg

me : mo ga3da itgoom

rakan : lazim inwadeeha il mostashfa al7een

rakan then carried shoug and i followed him to the car . he placed her in then we drove off to the hospital . as soon as we reached there , the doctors came running towards us and they took shoug and they placed her in a room with a drip on her hand . she looked weak and pale , but mostly her face looked lifeless , i felt so sorry for her .

rakan : lujaaaain laish ta3batay nafsich o yetay al7eeen ra7 i6oofich mo7a'9ara

me : waaay 3adeee shoug aham

rakan smiles then says 

rakan : shoug wayid ma7'9oo'9a la2na 3indaha refeeja 3ajeeba

i chuckled then said

me : mashkoor

rakan : walaw hatha il 9ig ... ee 9a7 tirayagtay ?

me : eee

rakan : tabeen ayeeblich shay min il cafeteria ta7at

me : la2 maskoor

rakan : 3ayal 5ala9 ana ra7 anzil shwaya ayeeble gahwa it3adil mazajee wa ra7 arja3

me : ok tyt

rakan left the room and i sat down on my phone scrolling through the tweets . all of a sudden i heard shoug say my name out , i quickly turned my gaze towards her .

me : wa a5eeran gimtay ... salamat shoug ... shlonech al7een

shoug : ala iysalmich ,,, ana zaina  bss lujain ana wainee

me : bl mostashfa 

shoug : shlon yeet ihnee , tawnee kint bl mo7a'9ara

me : u fainted chan rakan iyeebich ihnee

and after that the doctor entered the room with  huge smile on his face which was weird .

shoug : haaa dictor bashir ? feenee shay o bss chithee la2ne ma2kalt 6i7t '3ashyana  ?

doctor : la2 mafeesh moshkila wa ana 3ayiz a2oolik mabrook la2nik 7amil  

 


 

CHAPTER 6

as we were walking up to our seat someone said rakan .

both of us shifted our gaze to where the sound came from to find  a beautiful girl .
Her hair was a rich shade of mahogany. It flowed in waves to adorn her glowing, porcelain-like skin. Her eyes, framed by long lashes, were a bright, emerald-green and seemed to brighten the world. A straight nose, full lips . she didnt look like a kuwaiti at all and the truth is i was jealous of her beauty.

rakan's smile lightened the place then he said .

rakan : hala shoug shlonich

oh so her name is shoug i thought in my head . she smiled and then said

shoug : zaina . min ziman 3anik

rakan : eee 3ad ana amis kint ga3id adawrich bss ma shiftech

shoug : eee amis  i skipped il mo7a'9ara o ri7t 360 ma3a refejate 

rakan : lo saleh yadre chan warach allah 7ag

shoug lets out a slight laugh then replied

shoug : la2 3ad ma yadree o yawaelik itha giltla bl zwara

hmmm ' zwara ' they seem related and im sure they are .  shoug then stared at him and i did the same . ga3dna inwazi3 ibtisamat 7ag ba3a'9 chan shoug itgool

shoug : mino refejtik ily yamik 3arifne 3alaiha

rakan : ohhhh asif ! shoug hathe lujain o lujain hathe shoug

i pulled out my hand and she did the same then we shaked hands and i said .

me : tisharaft

shoug : wa ana akthar

the sound of the door startled us we turned around to find the professor in and as usual he was in a bad mood . bss abe adish yoom o alga yibtisim .  rakan , shoug and i sat down then we caught the proffesor staring at rakan it looked like he wanted to say something . the proffesor placed his bag on the table then said while looking at rakan

proffesor : rakan inta shga3id itsawe ihne

rakan : ba3ad yaye il jam3a 3ashan adris ya3ni shasawe

proffessor : mo giltlik itroo7 3ind proffessor m7amad la2na ana mabeek ihne ib 9afee

rakan : shda3wa 3ad proffessor ana bss ta25art 3ala il mo7a'9ara 5 marat

proffesor : la2 o ba3ad itgoolha wa inta mifti5ir ib nafsik

rakan : yuba gilnalk mara7 a3eedha

proffessor : na3am ? inta ga3id itkalim dictor mo 9a7bik bl mal3ab

rakan : mo 8a9 ..

and before he countinued his sentence the proffessor interepted him by saying

profffesor : ana mabee ashoof rig3at wayhik ihnee ib hal 9af yallah ithlif barra

rakan : * low voice * min 7alatik inta o mo7a'9artik wayid im9adig 3omra

shoug and i started laughing at loud then the proffesor shifted his eyes towards us and said

proffessor : taboon ti6loo3oon ma3a tara ana jahiz a6ali3kum mo shay 9a3ib

rakan : laaa2 la 6ali3 lujain minziman mo yaaya il jam3aa

proffessor looked at rakan and he gave him a death stare .

proffessor :ana mo gitlik ti6la3 ma tismaa3 zain

rakan : inzain inzain kane 6ali3

and the rakan left the room with all the fun .

proffessor : lujaain intay laish kintay '3ayba , 3indich 3ithir

me : ee

proffessor : o shinu ohwaaa

i paused for a min not wanting to talk about the past anymore . my train of thoughts got intereptted when the proffersor said

proffseor : intay 9am5aa ? laish matjawbeen

me : uhhh .... kint ma3a zooojy

proffessor : uhaaa allah iywafigkum

and commotion started forming all around the class and people's eyes were all on me . shoug looked confused about everything she shifted her eyes towards me and said

shoug : laish faj2a 9ar iz3aaj

me :  long story * sigh *

shoug : itha ma tabeen itgooleen mo 2la lujaain .

me : la2 bagoolich ! its better if u hear the story from me rather than hearing it from other people .

shoug : ok ! lama it5ali9 il mo7a'9ara nigdar inroo7 starbucks

me : suree

i gave her a slight smile to assure her that im alright .

* after 1 hour of hell * we finally finished from the mo7a'9ara , i spent most of the time thinking about the past and there is this event from the past that was running through my mind .

* FLASH BACK *

nasser and i finished from our honeymoon and we were heading back to our new house that i havent seen before . i was excited and anxious to c it ! i couldnt stop thinking about it and i kept on asking nasser if we we reached there . after 5 long min we finally reached i quickly opened the door then i started running through the house and as i tried opening the door i found it locked . i looked at nasser who was getting out of the car .

me : na9oor 7abeeby il bab ma9kook

nasser gave me a devilsh smile and said

nasser : adreee

me : may9eer abeee adish da5il

nasser : la2 makoo

me : laaaish

nasser : 3ashan ma bistene

i quickly rushed towards nasser and i kissed him on his cheeck

nasser : ba3ad wa7da

me : nasser ba3daain bss please abe ashoof il bait

nasser : *chuckls * fedait il mishta6a

nasser then placed the key in and turned it , the door opened and the smell of paint filled my nostril . the house seemed so new and so perfect . it was better then how i imagined it . i then turned out the lights . and was amazed by the beauty of the house and the color of the paint .

nasser : ha shrayich ?

me : 3ajeeeb ! intay imsawe kil hatha

nasser : eee

me : waaaaay 7abeeeby tho8ik 7ilww

i rushed to give him a warm hug .

nasser : eee wa ra7 iy9eer a7la lama awladna iykoonon ihnee ma3ana

me :eee inshallah

nasser : si3day il dar fog feee mofaj2a

me : 7agyyy ?

nasser : la2 7ag wa7da 7ilw jameeela nar o ma76

i frowned and jelousy filled my heart

me : bala minu hathe 3ashan i kill her

nasser : wa7da wagfa jidamee

a smile formed on my face and said

me : 3abaly ba3ad

i ran up to our room and then i opened the door . i was amazed by nasser taste it was beautiful . i looked around the place to spot a bag with the name hermes on it . a smile formed on my face i opened the bag to find this bracelet

i fell inlove with the bracelet the moment i placed it on ! i found nasser . His cheeks are chiseled like a finely-carved Michelangelo statue. His nose is perfectly symmetrical. His lips are slightly full: the kind that end in a cute little smirk at the corners. The rays of sun highlight the dimples in his cheeks and chin .

nasser : i3jibtich ?

me : la22

i lied just to annoy him

nasser : laish ?

me : la2na ana isme yabdee ib 7arf il L mo H

nasser : min i3yone il thintain ra7 a5aleehum iysawoon wa7id ib 7arf il L . intay bss amray

my cheecks started to turn red

me : o abee ba3ad

nasser : tidalilay

me : abee zac efforn

nasser's smile turned into a straight face .

nasser : minu hatha ?

me : wa7id ma76 naaaaaar iyaniiin 3inda 6 packs !!

nasser : goolyly waina 3ashan a8tilaa

me : ib america

and i bursted out laughing

nasser : hatha wayhee itha ra7 awadeech america mara thanya ! inseeeha

maskeeen nasser 3ad when it comes to guys he takes things seriously so i wanted to apoligize to him .

me : na9ooor

nasser : ..............

me : nasser

i said it in a louder tone so he could hear me clearly . but i didnt catch his attention at all , all of his attention was on the phone .

me : 7abeeeeby wallah sorry

nasser : ........................

i started walking towards him and i sat down beside him .

me : nasser intaaa za3alt

all of a sudden nasser pushed me on the bed and i found myself under him . i was starteled by his move

nasser : shlooon az3al minich !!

me : tara wallah galby kan beyoogaf

nasser : smila 3ala galbich

and after that nasser started tickling me ! i kept on telling him to stop but he never listened , until i told him that i needed to use the bathroom .

nasser : ana baroo7 il jam3eeya 3ashan ashtree a'3raaa'9 7ag il bait t2amreen 3ala shay

me : la2 mashkoor bss abe salamtik

nasser : yallah ana shway o raji3

nasser left the room and i decided to take a worm shower after her long tiring trip . while i was in the shower she heard the door open so i stopped moving and i started hearing the sounds . i then heard the sound of the door open . fear crept through my  feelings and i  said in my shaky voice

lujain : nasser

... : ..........................

i didnt get an answer and i started to worry so i closed the shower and i wrapped a towel around my body . i then went out to check if there was anyone .
everything was normal except for the bed . i noticed that nasser's pillow position has changed and ithought that a criminal might have been here , but then i kicked the idea out of my head .

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me : ambaaaaaaaaih everythingggg makessss sense nowwwwww

fatima : shfeeech ?

me : ill explain when we reach in starbucks

this flashback gave me an answer ! i found out that this day was the day that fatima is7arat nasser and it was true . nasser started acting weird in the other days and i noticed a big change in him but i kept denying it . i kept on ada3eeee 3ala fatimaaaa until shoug and i finally reached starbucks we entered there then we sat down .

shoug : tabeen ta6lebeen ?

me : la2 mo mishtahaya

shoug : madam chithee 3ayal goleele the story ba3dain ana aroo7 wa a6lib

me  : okkk

and i told shoug everything from A to Z ! shoug felt sorry for me and i could c it through her eyes .

shoug : ambaaaaaaih 7a8eeeera ur cousin inshallah mo chtihe

me : shinsawee ba3ad

shoug : jadd 8athatneee

i tried changing the mood so i asked shoug on how she was related to rakan and she said

shoug : rakan wild 5altee

me : oh so ya3ni first cousins

shoug : eeee

me : cuteee !

shoug : eee bss tara there is nothing between us , kil il jam3a kan 3abahla chithee

me : loooool bss shakla he is over protective o chithe

shoug : 7adaaa t5ayeelay gabil ma a6la3 min il bait lazim a9aweerlah shinu labsa and if i didnt ra7 iyeele lay il bait o iygool 7ag my brother saleh

me : inzain your brother saleh nafis rakan

shoug : la2 bl3aks saleh 3adeee 3inda ay shay , ya3ni ma yadre 3ane 24 sa3a ma3a his friends

me : ohhh and ur ok with it

shoug : eee ta3awadt ! and il moshkila kila ma il nas yismoo3oon isim 3aylitee ya5thoon fikra '3ala6 3anee

me : laish

shoug : long story

and before i said another word my phone started vibrating and taiba was calling me

i pressed answer .

taiba : aloo

me :9a7 il noom

taiba : wainech

me : intay tadreen ina 6afitich il mo 7a'9ra 9a7 ?

taiba : eee adree

me : i7na in bucks

taiba : ily yam il jam3a ?

me : eee

taiba : 5ala9 3ayal , ana al7een yay masafat 6reej o ra7 akoon 3indich

me : ok bye

and after few min taiba came in then she greeted us and she met shoug . days passed and shoug , taiba and i are getting closer than ever each 1 of us had something special about her that made us get closer  .  taiba suggested that we invite shoug over to movenpick with us . i said ok so then i called shoug and i invited her . she accepted the inventaition .

the weekend had finally came taiba and i packed our bags and we were on our way to the shalaih , shoug told us that she will come afterwards alone , because she needed more time to pack . so taiba and i decided to meet her there . while we were on our way , my phone started vibrating and it was message

taiba will find out about the message that rakan sent you that morning ! she wont be happy about that i promise

- unknown

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CHAPTER 5

all of a sudden i heard taiba screaming . which made my heart beat faster and butterflies were forming in my tummy . i quickly got out of the bathroom to c whats wrong .

me : shfeeech ?

taiba : shinu hatha ?

me : shinu

she took out a pieace of cloth

me : wain legaiteee

taiba : under nasser's pillow

me : shinu hatha taiba

i could c the fear through taiba's eyes ! and i got scared .

taiba : fatima is7arat nasser !  

wtfffffffffff !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was bewildered and astounded . fatima has really crossed the linee ! 5ala9  now iam assured that burning the wedding is a good idea . i will take my revenge , its my right and im not going to waste any sec on planing it all ! the game is on fatima , u choose it in the hard way .

my train of thoughts got interepted when i spotted taiba smiling .

me : shfeech ga3da tibtasmain

taiba : u know what this means ?

me : no 

taiba: u can have nasser back

me : eeee 5air inshallah ! 5ala9 he will marry that bitch fatima

taiba : ufffff if we found out earlyier we could have done something but now we cant because fatima already controlled him !

i sat down on the bed then said

me : its ok ! It dosent matter now , because my hope has faded away

taiba : but the good part is that we will get revenge .

me : yes we will ! 

i looked at the time and it was 11:30 . half an hour till midnight and i remembered that tomorrow i will have to go to college .

me : taiba lazim anam al7een bachir baroo7 jam3a !

taiba : 9ig ? mo giltay next week

me : eee bss rakan called me and he told me to come 3ashan i catch up with the studies and stuff .

taiba's smile turned into a straight face . i thought ' did i say something wrong ? ' .

me : taiba shfee wayhich in3efas !

taiba : haaaa la2 wala shay

me : taiba tara intay 5obiz iyeede a3arfich 3adil , bitgoolen wala shlon ?

taiba : ufffff inzain

she took a deep breath then sighed and said .

taiba : rakan madre shfeee mo nafis gabil iysoolif o madre shlon . ana lazim i start the convo always

me : taiba inshallah tathgleen

taiba : ya3ni shasawee a7ib hal walad .

me : shoofay lazim matsoolfeen wala shay if he really cares he will text u first .

taiba : oh inzain

i could feel that taiba  was disappointed and i didnt want her that way so i tried cheering her up and saying

me : taibaaaaaaa !!!!!

taiba : shtabeeeeen

me : weja3 inshallah

taiba : betgooleen wala shlooon ?

me : how about we rent a shalaih in MOVENPICK  just for me and u 

taiaba : ambaaaaaih are u seeerious ???

me : eeeee why wouldnt i beee

taiba : a7iiiibiiich

me : * laughs * 9ig ma9la7a

taiba : i take it back

me : inzain bsna garga and lets sleeeeeeep !

taiba : yallah .

taiba and i brushed our teeths then we got into our pjs after that we sleeeeeeeeept .











































* zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz * * zzzzzzzzzzzzz *


my phone started vibrating and that made me get up from my deeeep sleeep .

i quickly grabbed it then pressed on the messages icon .  i was surprised to find the message from rakan .

rakan : 9abaaaa7 il 5aaaair sleeepy head . yallah goomay ma boga shay 3ala il mo7a'9ara

me : :PPP gm and thanks for waking me up without this message i would have missed the mo7a'9ara

afterwards i quickly went to the bathroom to change into this

then i started shaking taiba so she can wake up from her sleeeeeeeep !

taiba : rakaaaaan

she kept on muttering his name for about 1 min .

me : * laughing * taibaaaa goooomay * screaming *

taiba opened her eyes and u could c that i have scared her .

taiba : * streaching her arms * cham il sa3a

me : 7:30

taiba : ufffff ya3ni boga ni9 sa3a 3ala the mo7a'9ara laish ma anam ba3ad shwaya .

me : shooofay ana wa7da tabee troo7 il mo7a'9ara la2na jad i missed many things from the passed weeks .

taiba : shooofay intay roo7ay and ill continue my sleep inzain .

me : min9igich

i replied and i was dazzled by her answer . 

taiba : eeee yallah close the lights pleaseee

me : malat 3alaich il sharha 3alay ina i wake u up

taiba : .............

shakilha namat .

me : fe ba3'9 il nas kanaw ga3deen iygooloon ' rakan' for about 1 min

taiba quickly opened her eyes and said .

taiba : shinuuu ?

me : * laughing *

taiba : lujaaaaain gooolay

me : inzain ! intay madre shfeech kintay ga3da itgoolen ism rakan while u were sleeping .

taiba : min9iiigich ?

me : eeeee

taiba : ambaaaaaih fashla

me : eee ana 9awart kil shay wa ra7 awareee rakan ! yallah byeee

i left the room but i could here taiba saying .

taiba : yawayleeech itha wa raitee wa itha darait i7sabee ma3ach ba3dain .

i started laughing at how 9aida she was .

as soon as i reached the last step of the stairs . i started looking around the place for my car keys and finally after 1 min of searching i spotted it on the table . i grabbed it then i entered the car and drove off to college ! 


* after 10 min *

i finally reached there and i parked my car . it has been a long time since i have been here and before . i was a bit scared to face the world today with the news of the divorce . people will find out sooner our later and im sure the rumours will spread . and stories will be made and people will be wondering about the  reason  ! this is the hardest part that i needed to face . and i needed to be strong while doing it . which meant no tears and no heart breaks ! i needed to move on and forget !

i got out of the car  then  i went up to the fountain and i sat down there looking at the people passing by .  and every person that passes by keeps on staring at me in a weird way . i knew that from this moment the news has spread . i was getting a bit uncomfortable .

all of a sudden . i spotted fatima and rakan getting out from the office of the manager . they were holding each others hand laughing and as soon as they saw me they were as shocked as iam .

their smiles has disappeared and they started giving me disgusted looks and so did i . i then spotted rakan staring at fatima and nasser with astonishment .

nasser stopped to say hi to rakan then left the place with the bitch fatima .

i stayed on my phone looking through the tweets and all of a sudden a shadow was covering the sunlight on me . i shifted my gaze up to find rakan smiling . i blushed with shyness .

rakan : 9aba7 il 5air

me : 9aba7 il noor

rakan : wa a5eeran nawar il jam3a

me : ib woojodik

rakan : shlonich

me : zaina

me : inta shlonik

rakan : wallah il 7imdillah

rakan : inzain  yallah 5andish il mo7a'9ara

me : yallah

rakan and i were waking to the mo7a'9ara but before we entered , rakan said

rakan : lujain

me : na3am

i stopped walking

rakan : minu hal bint ily kanat ma3a nasser

i looked at the floor and i avoided letting the tears take the best of me .

me : 5a6eebta

rakan : shinu

he said almost screaming in shock .

me : eeee

rakan : la2 la2 ma9adig ! nasser abadan ma yisawee chithee

me : la2 yigdar

rakan : wa intay shlon

me : im just an old page in the past that nasser threw out easily

rakan : well he threw out the best part of the story

i shifted my gaze up to rakan and smiled .

me : lets go now , we dont want to miss out another min from the mo7a'9ara

rakan and i entered the mo7a'9ara and we were on time . as we were walking up to our seat someone said rakan .

both of us shifted our gaze to where the sound came from to find ................................................
 































  















 

CHAPTER 4

taiba and i walked to her car then taiba drove off to pinkberry . after 10 min we finally reached there , taiba was parking her car . so i decided to go in and order for both of . then all of a sudden i heard familiar voices i turned to my right to find nasser and fatima sitting together all cuddly with their friends .  i looked at nasser then i thought 

   My heart sing a love song, pound 100 times faster and longing for yours my stomach feeling strange, because of the 1000 damn butterflies in it my lips smile, every time when I think of you my mind saying your name over and over again;my hand waiting for yours to hold it; my arms wanting to hug you my shoulders wanting your arms around it; Me wanting your sweater when it’s cold; i still love you….Damn, I wish you were still mine… <3

i knew that from this moment i had to move on , but still it was hard . nasser and fatima shifted their gaze towards me and u could c that they were surprised of my attendance there . i could hear fatima saying

fatima : shyayebha ihne

nasser : * smirks * akeed shafat my tweet o galat 5al ayee .

fatima :uhaaaaa

 fatima wouldnt dare to look at me  . then i interepted their convo by saying

me : lat5afoon mo yaya 3ashankum tara 3indeee ashya2 wayid aham minkum

fatima shifted her eyes up and then i gave her a disgusted look

me : tara wallah a3arif kil shay 3anich 7asbalich inyee '3abeeya ! u won !

fatima:  uhhh .... ishga3da titkalimain 3an

me : latsaween nafsich '3abeeya *screaming *

all of a sudden nasser stood up then he retorted by saying

nasser : heeeeeeey 7adich 3ala moorty

me : nasser pleaseee isma3neee shwaya

nasser : mako shay nitkalam 3ana

me : fatima is unknown

i screamed back at him and the tears started streaming down my face

me : wallah ya fatima ra7 adaf3ich thaman ily sawaiteee fene

fatima looked at me with a surprise look on her face .

fatima : ambaaaaaih lujain intay shga3da it5arb6eeeen

nasser then came in between us and said

nasser : bsssss ,, security can u please take her away she is disturbing us

me : gadha ya nasser

nasser : eee

taiba then came running towards us and said

taiba : shi9ayir ya jima3a

nasser : hathe refejtich mo 9a7ya wadeeeha moshtashfat il miyaneen a7sanlina o a7sanlich

taiba : na3aaam agoool iglib wayhik lal7een wallah bl ka3ab 3ala wayhik

nasser : yallah .. yallah theeeelfaw

taiba : malat 3alaik o 3ala mortik hathe inshallah i6eee7oon ib mo9eeba kbeera

fatima : smilaaa 3alaina 7abeeeby 5al ni6la3 mo mal na36eehum wayhe

taiba : tooooof 3alaich o 3ala shakliiiich

nasser : eee wallah ta3aly 7abeebty madre min wain yayeen hal ashkal

taiba : 3adaaaaal agoool shift wayhik wallah aba6eee a7la mina

me : * chuckls * wallah 6ila3tay mo hayna

taiba : ish7asbalich !!! ana itha 3a9abt at7awal ila shaba7

me : la2 redbull * laughs *

taiba : * laughs * maleee8a bss ra7 ajamlich ilyoom !

me : '3a9ban 3alaich 

all of a sudden my phone started vibrating . it was message .

i won again and u lost bitch

- unknown

me : akeeed hathe fatima !!!! 

taiba : shinu

me : shoofay

i showed her the message

taiba : lujaaaain ta3aly nishtreeee frozen yogurt o ba3dain ra7 agoolich the plan in my head

me : ay plan

i got excited and curious .

taiba : intay bss ta3alay nishtreee o ba3daina goolich 

me : ok

taiba and i got our frozen yogurts then we went back to the car

me : shinu il plan

taiba : mo 9a7 fatima and nasser ra7 iysawoon wedding

me : eeee

taiba : lets burn it and from that point fatima will get scared and she will stop doing all the shit she does now

me : burn in it  ?

i replied in shock

taiba : eee inyeeb gas on lighter o ba3dain we burn it , i have a special way and no one can find out

me : bsss taiba i dont think its a good idea

taiba : lujaaaain fatima killed ur baby !

me : 5ala9 3ayal lets do it , lets get our revenge

taiba : eeee bss dont u dare tell anyone about it

me : i wontttt !

taiba : 5ala9 3ayal ill get the details on when is the wedding and where then ill tell u .

me : ok how about u sleepover mabeee anam ibroo7ee

taiba :  eeee sure la2na my parents imsafreen fa im home alone too

me : 5ala9 3ayal wanasa

taiba and i drove off back home , we got out of the car then we entered the house . i quickly entered the bathroom because i had to do my thing meanwhile taiba was sitting on my bed .

all of a sudden i heard taiba screaming . which made my heart beat faster and butterflies were forming in my tummy . i quickly got out of the bathroom to c whats wrong .

me : shfeeech ?

taiba : shinu hatha ?

me : shinu

she took out a pieace of cloth

me : wain legaiteee

taiba : under nasser's pillow

me : shinu hatha taiba

i could c the fear through taiba's eyes ! and i got scared .

taiba : fatima is7arat nasser !  



 

CHAPTER 3

 

all of a sudden my phone started vibrating and i found a strange number calling , i decided to answer it and find out who 

 

me : alooo 

... : alooo lujain 

me : eee minu ? 

the voice was familiar to me 

... : * chuckles * ma 3araftene ? 

me : la2 minu

i replied in confusion 

... : ana rakan  

if u dont remember rakan , well he is the one who taiba il thoola bumped that day with her car! 

me : ohhh hiiii 

rakan : shlonich sh5abrich ? minziman 3anich 

me : eee ana il7imdillah zaina . inta shlonik 

rakan : wallah mashe 7ale 

rakan : lujain ?

my heart started to beat faster . i got worried 

me : hala 

rakan : wainech 3ana il jam3a 

me : * sighs * wallah kint mash'3oola ma3a ........ 

and i paused for a min . i couldnt bare calling his name out because it really hurts 

 

rakan : minu 

 

me : nasser 

 

rakan : eee 9a7 ... salmay 3alay wayid , '9arooory ! 

 

me : eee inshallah yo9al 

 

as u can c , rakan and nasser are friends , but i dont know whether if they were very close . nasser invited him in our wedding ! so i guess their close 

 

rakan : inzain mita nawya itrdeen college 

 

me : wallah madre rakan , inshallah next week 

 

rakan : la2 lujain ta3aly bachir 3ashan u catch up on what u missed . tara jad il dicatra ga3deen iy7nooon fog rase kil yoom yis2loone 3anich 

 

me : weeeee maskeeen 

 

rakan : la2 3adeee bss bachir bityeeen 9a7 

 

me : eeee 5ala9 inshallah 

 

rakan : wa wain hathe taiba refejtich matsoolif aw ay shay 

 me : la wallah ? im'3ayir ra8mik wa itgool taiba matsolif 

rakan : sam7ene ana 7ail im9a6il ilyoom 

me : la2 3ade imsam7tik 

rakan : inzain 3a6ene ra8mha 

 

me : ok 99******

 

rakan : 5ala9 mashkoora wayid 

 

me : il 3afo 

 

rakan : yallah lazim aroo7 al7een 9a7bee ga3id iynadene 

 

 me : ok bye 

 

and i hung up . that phone call kinda cheered me up a bit , but then all of a sudden taiba started calling . i quickly pressed answer 

taiba : hiiiiiiiiiii lujaaaaaain mash'3oola 

 

me : la2 *sigh* 

 

taiba : lujain ambaaaih u wont believe it , fe ra8am '3areeb ga3id iysoolif ma3ay ! shakla wa7id rayal 

 

me : ya thakeya hatha rakan 

 

taiba : 9ig ? rakan '3ayar ra8ma 

 

me : ee 

 

taiba : ohhhhh 

 

me : taiba 

 

taiba : na3am ? 

 

me : ta3aly 3indeee bagoolich shay '9aroory 

 

taiba : inzain kane yaya 

 

me : yallah waiting 

 

taiba : waaaait dont hung up 

 

me : haw laish ? 

 

taiba : abeeee aroo7 mokan 

 

me : fe a7ad maskich roo7ay 

 

taiba : ya mama fihmay abeech ityeeen ma3ay 

 

me : taiba wallah maly 5lg o nafseeyte ta3bana

 

taiba : please lujain ishwaya o nirja3 

 

me : uffff inzain bss wallah itha ra7 i6awleen ill take ur car o ra7 arja3 il bait o intay ra7 tirj3een il bait mashe 

 

taiba : inzain i promise mara7 in6awil , bss intay libsay al7een wa ana yaya 

 

me : ok bye 

 

and i hung up . i stood up then i went up to my closet . i opened it to pick an outfit . while i was searching for it , one outfit caught my eye and it was the outfit of my wedding 

 

*FLASHBACK* 

 

kint ga3da ib dar wa wa7da marra kanat ga3da it76lee make up . i was already in my dress . and i had everything on . 

 

lady : yeeyee inte kteeer jameela *syrain accent * 

 

me : * laughs* mashkoora 

 

lady : zoojaik kteeer ma7'9oo'9 

 

me : eeee *smiling * 

 

lady : ka 5la9na  

 

me : mashkoora wayid ma ga9artay 

 

lady : il 3afo 7abebty 

 

and she left the room leaving me alone with my happy thoughts . as i was staring at myself in the mirror and thinking of ' wow , i never thought that this day would come this fast ' . suddenly i spotted the door handle moving down then nasser came in . i blushed with shyness . 

 

nasser : ya ya ya 

 

me : * blushes more * shrayik 

 

nasser : wallah il 9ara7a intay a7la min the girl of my dreams

 

me : '3a9ban 3alaik 

 

nasser * laughs * laaaa 

 

me :eeeee 

 

nasser pulls out his hand and then holds my hand . both of our hands fit perfectly and its like it was meant to be . 

 

nasser : yallah 5anroo7 , kil man ga3id yan6irna 

 

me : la2 wait laish ma nig3ad ishwaya ihne 

 

nasser: la2 7abebty 5anroo7 nig3ad wa 5aleehum iy9awroona 3ashan ma nit2a5ar 3ala il 6ayara 

 

me : eee 9a7 nesait 3anha 

 

nasser : lujain ? 

 

me : na3am nasser 

 

nasser : a7bich 

 

me : wa ana ba3ad 

 

my eyes were glued on the floor . i couldnt look at nasser's beautiful eyes that i would get lost into everytime . all of a sudden , nasser placed his hand on my chin then he lifted up . 

 

nasser : ya 7alat hal wayih 

 

me : *chuckles * bss nasser tara ast7ee 

 

nasser : la tist7eeen 7abebty , lazim tit3awidain 3ala hal kalam il 7ilw . 

 

me : inshallah ill try 

 

nasser : wa inshallah ilyoom ra7 akoon zojich 

 

me : eee inshallah

 

nasser : 3ad it9adgeen lujain 

 

me : shinu 

 

nasser : i7na mara7 in9eer nafis o5ooy o morta 9a7 

 

me : shi9ar feehum ? 

 

nasser : bss ig3adaw 4 months  mitzawjeen chan yi6aligoon 

 

me : la2 inshallah i7na mo chithe 

 

nasser : eee inshallah la2na ana adree inich mara7 it5alene 

 

me : eeee akeed wa inta mara7 it5alene 9a7 

 

nasser : shhal 7achy lujain .... akeed ma5aleeech ! intay malteee lil 2abad 

 

me : mako forever , everything has an end 

 

nasser : la2 embala fe forever 

 

me: * laughs * everyone dies in this world 

 

nasser : eee bss ill die before u 

 

me : laaaaa2 smila 3alaik latgool chithe 

 

i replied in shock 

 

nasser : thats the truth ,,,, if u live to be 100 , i want to live to be 100 minus one day so i would never have to live a day without u . 

me : la2 that wont happen because u are my soul and if u die that means i die too so at the end both of us will die in the same day . 

nasser : as long as ur with me , then am i ok with anything . 

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and the tears stream down my face , knowing that i lost something that i wont be able to replace . 

 

my phone started vibrating ,,, and taiba was calling . i couldnt control calming my self down so i just took my phone and i threw it on the wall  . after 10 min of crying , i heard the door open and then i heard footsteps coming up my room . then all of a sudden the door opens and taiba takes a peek then says 

 

taiba : lujain 

 

me : * sniff * haaa 

 

taiba : shi9aaaar lujaaaaaain 

 

she walked up to me then she sat down beside me . 

 

me : nasser yabe yi6alagneee 

 

taiba : ambaaaaaaaih 9ig ? 

 

me : eeee taiba 9ig *snif * 

 

taiba : did u get the chance to talk about ur realtionship aw ay shay 

 

me : i called him and its offical 

 

taiba : whats offical 

 

me : nasser is marrying my cousin fatima 

 

taiba : waaaait ? fatima hathe ma '3airha 

 

me : eeee 

 

taiba : hathe  fatima yeeenay ya lujain wallah tara jad shes a psycho ! like seriously she tried killing me and u 

 

me : well if she wants to kill me let her do that , there is nothing left for me here . 

 

taiba : what the ..... lujain are u hearing urself 

 

me : yes taiba 5ala9 i had enough she won the game she took nasser the only thing i thought that would be mine forever *screaming * 

 

taiba : no lujain the game isnt over ! im ready for it and u should be too ! we need to fight her and every person out there 

 

me : whats the use .... 

 

taiba : u can win nasser back 

 

me : ya right  ! yallah ill change now 

 

taiba : itha tabeen tara nigdar nig3ad mo 2la we go 

 

me : la2 5ala9 i dont want to stay here another minute because all the memories are locked up here and i cant escape them . its better if i go out and forget them 

taiba : thats my lujain 

 

she smiled and side hugged me . 

 

me : * slight smile * 

 

i quickly got out an outfit and i avoided looking at the wedding dress .  then i went to the bathroom to change into this 

awal ma 6ila3t min il 7amam 6aiba ga3da i6al3nee wa min9adma . 

taiba : jad ..... im so jelous ! u look so pretty 

me : eeee rag3ay ba3ad 

taiba : tara wallah min9igy ! u look so hot 

me : *smile* thank u 

taiba : bss something is missing 

me : shinu 

taiba : make up 

me : waaay maly 5lg a7i6 

taiba : i7mm .... ana 6ofa jidamich 

me : inzain yallah 7i6ele 

i sat down and taiba started applying blusher , lipstick etc........ and she finally said 

 

taiba : doneeee . 

 

me : wa a5eeran 

 

taiba : inzain wain tabeen inroo7 

 

me : madree kaifech 

 

i was on my phone reading the tweets and 1 tweet caught my eye .

 

@nasser_abass : omw to pinkberry jabriya with @fatima_x

 

this is perfect i thought . i wanted to face both of them . 

 

me : inzain 5anroo7 pinkberry 

 

taiba : ay wa7id 

 

me : jabriya 

 

taiba : yallah 

 

taiba and i walked to her car then taiba drove off to pinkberry . after 10 min we finally reached there , taiba was parking her car . so i decided to go in and order for both of . then all of a sudden i heard familiar voices i turned to my right to find nasser and fatima sitting together all cuddly with their friends .  i looked at nasser then i thought 

   My heart sing a love song, pound 100 times faster and longing for yours my stomach feeling strange, because of the 1000 damn butterflies in it my lips smile, every time when I think of you my mind saying your name over and over again;my hand waiting for yours to hold it; my arms wanting to hug you my shoulders wanting your arms around it; Me wanting your sweater when it’s cold; i still love you….Damn, I wish you were still mine… <3




















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tune in for chapter 4 later today ;***** ! FEEEEDBAAACKS ??????????????????????

 

CHAPTER 2

HEY EVERYONE SHLONKUM SH5BARKUM ? 3ASAKUM ZAINEEN MA3A IL EXAMS ! IM SERIOUSLY DYING FROM ALL THE STUDYING BSS SHASAWEE TODAY WAS SO BORING AND I FINISHED STUDYING EARLY FA GILT LETS WRITE A POST FOR FUN ! ILL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE IT LONG ENOUGH FOR U GUYS ! :D ! AND AS I SAY ENJOOOY  !
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Grandma : inzain sim3ay ...

Me : shinu

Grandma : Fatima bint 3amitich in5a6bat

Me : shinu

My face was like this :O

Grandma : Eee shfech min9adma

Me : la2 mo 3an shay bss minu 5i6abha

Grandma : nasser

na3aaam ? la2 la2 im sure its not my nasser !

me : nasser

a said it with  a sudden shock

grandma : eee shfeeech

me : shino 3aylita ?

grandma : wallah madree masa2alt .

me : mita il 3irs

grandma : ba3ad shahar o ni9 inshallah

me : inzain yadtee ana al7een baroo7

grandma : ok 7abeebty , derbalich 3ala nafsich wa salmay 3ala nasser

me : inshallah yo9al

i quickly left the place and drove back home . as soon as i entered , i found most of nasser's things not there . i quickly ran up to our room and i opened his closet to find nothing , i only found a gold rolex watch that i bought for nasser on his birthday . a limp was formed on my throat , could it be true ? could nasser really be gone ? i thought . i sat on the bed and i stared deeply on the right side of the bed , it was the side where nasser usually sleeps at . i stood up then i sat on the right side of the bed i held the pillow and the smell of fierce perfume filled my nostril . it was nasser's smell. tears were forming on the edge of my eyes . then all of the tears started flowing down . i covered my face with the plow .

i felt lonely and unwanted . what have i done to u nasser ? i gave u all my love and u just gave it away. after about 10 min i stopped crying , then i decided to open twitter and entertain myself with the tweets , while i was scrolling down throught the tweets , 1 tweet caught my eye and it filled my heart with pain and sadness.

''I don't like this feeling at all
My mind, it wanders too far
Missing you hurts my heart
I try not to listen to love songs
They just make me cry
I listen to something upbeat,
They make me miss you more
Remembering our time together
Brings a pang of loneliness
I wish that I could hold you in my arms once more
I love you too much to let you go
But missing you kills me on the inside
Trying to move forward without you
Laughing on the outside, crying within
I wish we had more time together
I don't like feeling so alone
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep at night
And wake up lost, and torn
Moving like a robot nowadays
Just until you come home
My heart misses you when you're gone
But I miss YOU the most
One day we will be together again
In the meantime, I weep alone
I"m missing you like crazy
I'm missing you a lot
I'll wait for you forever
Because you have my heart
My heart misses you when you're gone ''

reading this poem was the hardest thing to do , i had to stop in every sentence and avoid crying . this poem really describes the situation iam in now .  i then quickly dialed in nasser's number and waited impatiently for him to answer .

nasser : aloooo shtabeen

he said it in coldness . 

me : are we over ?

nasser : eee

me : that easily ?

nasser : intay 7imday rabich ina ma sawaytlich shay 3ogb il sawaitee fene

me : ana ishsawait ?

nasser : nazaltay il baby ily ib ba6nich wa ana ma kint adre 3ana a9lan

me :  ana ma nazalta wa rabee nasser ma nazalta fe a7ad daznee chan iy6ee7 il baby

nasser : chithb ib chithb ! shi9ar feech lujain , intay mo lujain ily ana a3arifha , mo lujain ily kanat tabe ityeeb i3yal

me : shinu

i replied with shock .

nasser :  eee ily sima3tee

me : where is the old u

i said and i regretted saying that because i wanted to burst out crying

nasser : iam the same nasser u saw the first time

me : oh really , well it dosent seem that way ! u arent the same nasser i fell inlove with

and the tears started falling down one after the other .

nasser : * sigh * lujain intay ga3da tabcheen

me : malik sh'3il

i screamed back at him .

nasser : lujain ana 3a6aitich wayid fira9 bss shaklina mara7 in5ali9 min il ihwash ily baina fa ana 8arart a6algich , hatha ra7 iykoon a7sanle wa a7sanlich

i was speechless , i couldnt believe that nasser gave up on us that easily ,

nasser : alooo lujaaaaaain

me : * sobbing * haaaaa

nasser : lujain ana bachir ra7 adiz awrag il 6alag 7agich abeech itwa8heenhum

i felt frail and weak to cry infront of nasser .

me : eee inzain ...... o nasser

nasser : na3am ?

me : inta ra7 titzawaj fatima

nasser : haaa .... uhhh shdarach

me : ambaaaaaaaih nasser , dont marry her , shes a psycho o rab il mo97af

nasser  : shinu ? bedal matgooleeen mabrook aw shay 7ilw itgooleen chitheee

me : nasser wallah fatima is unknown , stay away from her neyatha mo zaina !

nasser : sim3ay lujainnnn min al7eeen ga3da a7a'9rich ,,,, itha bss 7awaltay itsaween shay ib fatima o feneee matloomeen ila nafsich yallah ma3a il salama

and he hung up . i spent the rest of the hours crying , and finally after calming down , i had the urge to start writing out the pain that was in my heart , so i took a piece of paper and then i grabbed a pen and this is what i wrote .


Is this all we have together?
Is this what love really is,
Yelling through a quarrel
And making up with a kiss? Why can't we get along?
Why do we have to fight?
We starve true love by day
And feed lust all through the night. I wish we'd settle down;
I wonder where peace went.
Why do we pick at each other;
Why can't we be content? If this is what love is,
If tenderness has flown,
I'm thinking more and more,
It's better to be alone.        

and a tear from my eye fell on the piece of paper . i felt a bit relieved after writing this poem . its like i pour out all my pain in here . 

 

 

all of a sudden my phone started vibrating and i found a strange number calling , i decided to answer it and find out who 

 

me : alooo 

 

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who called lujain ? find out on the next post , i hope u enjoy this short post that i wrote for fun !

Colors of dark grey and black fill the world in which I live
No other feeling could possibly be worse than this
Where once was a room filled with laughter & Cheer
Now stands loneliness, ..........

Source: Crying Poems - Poems about Crying http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/sad/crying-poems.asp#ixzz2CUhriDth
www.FamilyFriendPoems.com

Colors of dark grey and black fill the world in which I live
No other feeling could possibly be worse than this
Where once was a room filled with laughter & Cheer
Now stands loneliness, ..........

Source: Crying Poems - Poems about Crying http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/sad/crying-poems.asp#ixzz2CUhriDth
www.FamilyFriendPoems.com

Tears of blood fall from my broken heart
I never thought we would be apart

When you held me you said "forever"
Now that you're gone I know you meant "never"

Saying you love me with that look in your eye
And that was a cold hearted lie

Your tender touch, a soft kiss
Two things about you I will miss

As I sit here thinking about you
My face is wet with tears past due

I should've cried a long time ago
But I loved you so

I know they say love is blind
But I had only you on my mind

A hurt so deep it cuts like a knife
But wounds heal and I'll go on with my life


Source: Pain Of Broken Heart, Tears, Sad Poem about Love http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/pain-of-broken-heart-poem#ixzz2CUifCUkP
www.FamilyFriendPoems.com

  

CHAPTER 1 - new story -

THE 2ND PART OF THE STORY IS BACK ENJOOOY+ give me you FEEDBACKS ! :D
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Nasser : lujain ...

He said my name out loud and clear with guilt in his voice . He then continued

Nasser : 7abeebty sam7ene ma kan 8a9de

Me : shlon asam7ik Nasser 3ogb ily sawaita fene

Nasser : lujain intay tadreen iny a7ibich

Me : lo inta 9ig it7bene chan ma 5alaytne

Nasser : Ana ihne lujain wa 6ool 3omre ra7 Akoon yamich

and by that I woke up from my dream 'a dream' I thought , why ? . I really wanted it to be reality , I wanted Nasser here beside me . But where is he ? out there some where . Tears started falling out . Although I tried my best to hold them back in . After the tears came sobbing . As soon as that happened , Taiba woke up from her deep sleep . As u can c I have been in the hospital for almost a month and I asked Taiba to sleep with me yesterday . so taiba said yes and she slept with me . correction tried to sleep because I spent the rest of the night crying . I knew that it was going to be a daily thing That Will happen .

Taiba : lujaaaain

she said it in her worried tone

Me : *sniff* Taiba *sniff*

Taiba : shfeech ?

Me : I ... Had a dream

Taiba : ok

Me : it was about Nasser

And my crying got more louder , it was because of the pain I had in . I just couldn't hold it anymore .

Taiba : ambaaaaaaih lujaaaaain hadaaaaaay

Me : shloooon ahaaaade *sniff*

Taiba : forget him

I stopped sobbing for a min , and I looked at Taiba with a sudden shock . I was surprised of what she was saying

Me : forget him ?

I said it with confusion in my voice

Taiba : eee

Me : Taiba I have been with him for almost 2 years and u tell me to forget him that easily !?

Taiba : lujain move on , with or without Nasser life will go on

Me : but .. Taiba

I stopped for a sec because I had a limp in my throat

Me : I still love him

A tear escaped my eye

Taiba : a55555 ya Nasser sh9ar feek

me : ba6la3 min Hal mokan 5ala9 I can't .

Taiba : la2 7abeebty lujain il 6abeebe gal Ina Lazim tig3deen lay Bachir

Me : ma2gdar Taiba 5ala9 8amta il mokan ihnee wai3 la3at chabde

Taiba : uffff 3ala rasich Hatha il yabis

Me : taiba please naday il 6abeeb

Taiba : inshallah 3amte

Taiba stood up then she left the room to call my the doctor

After about 1 min , the doctor came in and Taiba followed him .

Doctor : 9aba7 il 5air

Me : hi

Doctor : shlonech

Me : mashe 7alee

Doctor : sima3t Ina tabeen ti6l3een ilyoom

I looked at Taiba and I found her smiling , I gave her a slight smile .

Me : Eee 9ig

Doctor : ra7 a5aleej ti6l3een !

Me : ok Mashkoor

Doctor : bss 3ala shar6

Me : shinu

Doctor : ra7 a36eech adweya wa abeech tishribeenhum

Me : inzain

Doctor : 5ala9 3ayal jahzay a'3ra'9ich 3ashan ti6l3een

Me : ok Yallah Taiba sa3deene

Taiba and I started packing my bag , as soon as we finished , Taiba drove me back home , I thanked her alot , then I entered the house .

Grandma : Hala BL zain kila

Me : *slight smile * mashkoora

I went up to kiss her head

Grandma : 7abeebty shlonech sh5barich , shlon Nasser

Me : Ana zAina wa Nasser ib5air

I lied because I still have hope in getting Nasser back

Grandma : lujain Tara 7adich '9a3fana

Me : la2 mo '9a3fana

And also I haven't told her about my baby or I sadly said my dead baby ;(

Grandma : imbala 7abeebty , laish mo ga3da takleen ?

Me : la2 ga3da akil

Grandma : akeed

Me : Eee akeed

Grandma : wainech matzooreen

Me : wallah asfa yadte bss kint shwaya lahya

Grandma : Eee bss Tara Ana amil ihne lama ag3ad ibroo7e fa shda3wa ya7af'9 ta3alay zooray kil isboo3

Me : inshallah :)

Grandma : inzain sim3ay ...

Me : shinu

Grandma : Fatima bint 3amitich in5a6bat

Me : shinu

My face was like this :O

Grandma : Eee shfech min9adma

Me : la2 mo 3an shay bss minu 5i6abha

Grandma : ........................


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Minu 5i6ab fatimaaaa ???? Find out in the next chapter :D !

CHAPTER 28 - LAST CHAPTER -

I CANT BELIEVE THIS , BUT THIS IS THE LAST POST , TIME FLEW BY SO FAST . AND IT WAS THE BEST TIME WITH THE BEST MEMORIES THAT  I WILL ALWAYS CHERISH . FIRST OF ALL I WANT TO THANK U ALL FOR THIS AMAZING EXPERIENCE , I REALLY GOT TO MEET AMAZING FRIENDS OR I CAN SAY SISTERS WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FROM THE START . BLOGGING WAS FUN , REALLY FUN , AND I ALSO GREW INTO THE CHARACTERS , ESPICALLY NASSER <3333 #ENDLESSLOVE

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Omg eveything makes sense now , the 'b' that is carved in it stands for basement . finally , today is the day where I'll find out the person haunting me and torching me . A huge smile formed on my face . I then quickly placed the key in . but before i tried opening the door , i looked at taiba and said .

me : this is it

taiba : waaaaaaay , yoooooma ana 7adeee 5ayfa

me : dont be , because the unknown will get revealed

taiba : inshallah

i quickly turned the door knob and the door

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openeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed .  my face 9ar chitheeee :O , i quickly pushed the door open .

taiba : ambaaaaaaaaih , the dooooor openeed

me : yallah 5andish

taiba : ok

taiba quickly held my arm . then both of us entered the small door . as soon as we entered the place we saw many pictures of meee . just meeeeeee . i was the center of attention . i got terrified shocked and scared . all this emotions mixed together , making my heart beat faster .

me : ambaaaaaaaih shinu hatha ?

taiba : wallah madreee lujain .

me : kil i9wareeeee ihneeeee , ana 7ail mit2akda ina this is the hiding place for the unknown person .

taiba : we arent safe lujain ,,,, 5al ni6la3 min hal mokan

me : la2 mabeee taiba ra7 a7awil alga clues

taiba : la2 lujain please 3ashane malna 5lg iy9eer shay

me : taiba mara7 a6la3 min hal mokan until i find out who unknown is

taiba : waaaaay lujain 7adich 3aneeda

after that , i started looking at the picture of me . the pictures looked , like a recent pics of me , i started looking around all the things but then i stopped after listening the basement door close .

taiba : lujaaaaaain sima3tay il 9oot

me : eeee

taiba : ambaaaaaih lujain we are stuck here

me : ma yindara

i walked towards the door and i tried openeing it , but it seems that someone locked it . correction unknown locked it .

me : tara i7naaaaaaaa mo 5ayfeeeeeeen * screaming *

me : do whatever u want tooooooo * screaming *

taiba : shhhhhhh lujain 

 i screamed my lungs out . and i didnt get a response from the unknown . but i heard footsteps and i couldnt notice whos footsteps are there .

* zzzzzzzzz * zzzzzzzzzzzz *

it was a message

screaming wont help bitch , u have to think about living now

unknown  

wtf did unknown mean by i have to think about living . i swear this message made me shiver from fear .

me : taibaaaaaaa

taiba : shinu

she said it in a worried tone

me : we arent safe

taiba : i know

her voice was shaky which only meant taiba was about to start crying . and i was right because i noticed the tears streaming down her face . no sound came out of taiba just tears of fear . i sat down beside taiba and i started comforting her .

me : taibaaa shhhhhh dont cry , i swear we will find a solution

taiba : * snif * i hope so

taiba wiped away her tears , then said

taiba : eeee 9a7 digay 3ala nasser wa goleeela

me : eee 9a7 al7een ill call him

i dialed in nasser's number then i pressed call . and finally he answered

me : alooooo

nasser : hala 7ayatiiii

me : nasser abeek itsa3ednee

nasser : ish9ayir lujain

me : nasser the unknown person locked us up in the basement of the shalaih

nasser : hal unknown il 7aywan il zag wallah la a3lma shay ma shafa .

nasser : kaneee al7een yaaaye , wa 5alay il telephone yamich

me : inshallah 7abeebe yallah bye

and i hung up

me : he is on his way

taiba : good

taiba and i sat down . silence filled the place , we kept on looking around the place that was filled with our pictures then suddenly we heard footsteps , the footsteps kept coming closer and closer .

me : nasser * screaming *

no answer

me : nasser *screaming *

again no answer

after that i heard the sound of something getting spilled on the floor and i cant notice what that was . fear took control of taiba and i . we were frail . then all of a sudden we heard the footsteps getting away until it disappeared .


after about 1 min , taiba and i smelled something unusual . something that we didnt beleive would happen .

me : taiba itshmeen hal ree7a ?

taiba : eeeee lujain the place is on fireeeee .

and after that moment taiba bursted out crying . i quickly ran towards the door and i started knocking on it hard

me : heeeeeeeeellllppppp * screaming *

i kept on doing that for about 1 min , until i lost hope and energy , then after that , i pulled out my phone and i found my battery dead .

me : * coughing * i cant breahteee

taiba : lujaaaaaaaaaain pleaseeee dont leave me aloneeee * sobbing *

me : taiba heeeeeeeelp

and all of a sudden , everything went black .



















































'' lujain '' ''' lujain '''

i heard someone call my name out . i tried opening both of my eyes , but i managed to open 1 eye then the 2nd eye .

me : ana waine

grandma : 7abeeebty intay al7een bl mostashfa

me : taibaaaaa * screaming * waaaain taiba

grandma : lat5afeen taiba ra7at il bait tirata7

me : zaaaain

grandma : shlon 9ar chithe lujain

me : wallah madree yadteeee

ma kint abee agool 7ag yadtee wa a5aleeha it7atene

grandma : ahm shay ina mafeech shay !

me : eee il7imdillah  

grandma : 7abeeeebty 5a6eeebich na6rich barra !

me : haw ay 5a6eeeb ?

grandma : nasser

me : yadteee mita o shlon

grandma : wa intay  nayma , nasser kalamnee wa galeeee ina yabeech o madre shino .  wa ohwa  9ig 6ila3 5oosh walad , wa ohwa iy7bich wayid

me :  waaaaay yadteee ast7eee

grandma : * laughing * ikbarat binteee

me : la2 yadteeee latgoolen chithee

grandma : ba3ad hatha il 9ig

grandma : wa intay tadreen ina omich o obooch law kanaw mawjoodeen chan kanaw mistanseen

me : eee

a777777 how much it hurted me when grandma said that .  its trueeeeee i misss my mom so much and i didnt imagine my wedding without my mother . and deeeeeep deeeeep down i really miss my dad ! what to do people come and go , and now im lucky to have a loving grandma . allah i6awil ib 3omriha


* knock , knock *

me : tifa'9al

nasser came in holding a flower boutique .

grandma :3ayal ana al7een a5aleeekum ibroo7kum

waaaaaaaay im soooooo shyyyyyy , my cheecks started to turn red . grandma left the room leaving nasser and i with silence .

nasser : il 7imdillah 3ala il salama 7ayati

me : allah iysalmik

nasser : hach hal worood yibthum lich

me : laish ta3abt nafsik

nasser : wala ta3aba wala shay .

i smiled the flowers . and they had an amazing scent .

me : 3ajeeebeeeen

nasser : la2 intay a3jab

me : *  chuckling * mashkoor

nasser : ba3ad hatha il 9ig !

me : inta 9ig tabe ta56bneee

nasser : eee 9ig 7ayatiiii , shhal so2al .

me : nasser a5aaaaf

nasser : laish t5afeen ?

me : madreee ma a7is ine jahza !

nasser : la2 7abeeebty tijahzay ,,,, la2na inshallah ome ra7 itkalim omich soon 3an il 3irs o chithee

me : bismillah ,,,, ma sharaytleee libs o ma jahazt 7ag shay

nasser : 3adeee feeee wakit 7abeeebty

nasser then came and sat with me on bed , he leaned his head and he placed it on my shoulder . i couldnt resist stoping myself , so i started playing with his hair .

nasser : a7bichhhh

me : wa ana ba3ad

nasser : wa a5eeran ra7 atjawijich

me : eee * chuckling *

nasser : fa al7een kila 3ainech 3ala il ar'9 wa matig3deen ma3a m7amad ow ay i9bay '3aireee

me : inshallah

nasser : 3afya hala il sha6ra

we spent the rest of the day planning for our future , it was a day to remember !


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* AFTER 1 YEAR AND 6 MONTHS *

as you can see nasser and i are married . we had a huge wedding in sharaton hotel . it was the best day ever and it was new start . everyone attended the wedding even m7amad , but it seemed that m7amad was forced to come .  and now iam officially mrs.abass , i have waited for a long time for this day to come and i nasser turned around to be my prince ! we spent our honey moon in london , i loved every second of it . and now im living in a huge house that my hubby bought for me .

the first 6 months , everything was fine with me and nasser . we shared the same love and it was a strong love . i thought that the love between us would get stronger , but instead the fights both of us get into mostly everyday made our love towards each other decrease . the problem with nasser is that he is over protective !

and also the unknown person stopped sending threatening messages and unfortunately i never got the chance to know who it is ! 

it was a quiet morning , nasser has left to work i was @ home sitting alone as usual .

* zzzzzzzzzzz * zzzzzzzzzz*

taiba calling

me : hiiiiii taibaaaa shlonich

taiba : ana zaina intay shlonich

me : wallah taiba ana mo zaina

taiba : lal7een tithawishain weya nasser

me : eeeee * sigh *

taiba : ana ba3arif shlon 9ar chithee bainkum

me : wallah madreee taiba

taiba : inzain kalamteee amis

me : la2 3ogob il hoosha baina ma kalamta

taiba : may9eer chithe lujain ..... till when is this going to last

me : wallah madreeee ,,,, ana ta3abt taiba 5ala9 ta3abt

taiba : lujaaaain dont lose hope pleasee !

me : dont worry i still have hope in getting the old nasser back

taiba : inzain gilteela 3an ur baby

me : la2 i didnt

taiba : ambaaaaaaaih lujaaaaain u neeed to tell him

me : i will when things settle down between us

taiba : eeee

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as u can c , i have been pregnant for about a month , and i havent told nasser about it , because of all the fights we get into  .  today , i have an appointment with the doctor and today is the day that ill find out its a boy or a girl ! im really nervous

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me : ambaaaaih taiba i forgot , that today 3indee appointement 3ind il doctor

taiba  : 9igggg 3ayal ana awadeeech

me : eeee please la2na il 9ara7a maly 5lg asooog

taiba : yallah badlay wa tijahzay ana al7een ayeee wa a5thich .

me : ok kane al7een babadil

i hung up

i slowly went up to my room and then i changed into this

  

 then i opened my phone to find a text from taiba telling my to go outside , i quickly went out then i entered the car. taiba then drove off to the hospital .

me : mashkooora wayid taiba , jad i couldnt have done this without u

taiba : no need to thank me , what are friends for

i side hugged taiab

taiba : good luck and call me as soon as u finish

me : ok babe

i got out of the car then i entered the hospital , i entered the elevator then i went up straight to room 27 i got in then i greeted the doctor . i was nervous , really nervous ! my heart wouldnt stop beating fast !

doctor : ms . lujain may u please take off ur shoes then sleep on this bed .

me : yes

i did as the doctor told me . then after that the doctor pulled my shirt up a bit , then he started moving the device around my stomatch .

doctor : congratulations mrs . lujain ur having a baby girl

happiness filled my heart ! i couldnt stop smiling and tears of joy were streaming down my face  .

doctor : where is ur husband ?

me : umm he is busy and he couldnt make it

doctor : ohh thats sad , but now ill print out the picture of ur baby girl and by that u can show ur husband

me : yessss pleaseee !

the doctor printed out the pictures of my baby girl . he then gave it to me .

me : thank u very much

doctor : ur welx !

i started looking at the pictures of my baby girl , she was really tiny and cuteeeeee ! i cant believe im going to be a mother soooooooooon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i quickly called taiba and i told her everything

taiba : ambaaaaaaaih im so happy for u lujaaaaaaain congratulations

me : allah iybarik feeeech

taiba : ana al7eeen omw

me : 5ala9 3ayal al7een anzil ta7at wa in6irich barra

taiba :  ok bye

she hung up . i started waiting for the elevator , but then i took too long to come , so i decided to use the stairs instead , and as i was going down the stairs my phone started vibrating , it was a message . i stopped to read it

did u miss me ?

- unknown

and after reading that , i suddenly felt someone push me off the stairs with strong strength . i fell down and i screamed in paaaaaaaaaain

me : ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh * screaming *

me : binteeeeeeeeeeeee * crying *

i started screaming for abit 2 min until someone finally came and took me straight up to a room . i was covered with blood , every where  ! all what was going through my mind  was my baby and the pain . i started cryiiiiiiiing really hard , i didnt know if my baby was still alive or not . i had no clue on what was going on , but i knew that that fucking unknown was part of thisssss !!!!!! after that the doctor came in .

me  : dictooor 6ameneee shlon binteeeee

doctor : ana asif bsss bintich tiwafat

me : 9ig ?

doctor : eee 9ig wa i7na al7eeen lazim insaweelich 3amaleeeeya

after hearing that news !!! i started crying really hard , my 1st baby dieeeeeeeeed ! i wanted to have a baby more than anything , i wanted to raise the baby and watch it grow up , but unfortunately that isnt going to happen . the doctors took me to the operation room .

* AFTER 6 HOURS *

i opened my eyes to find myself back into my room . i looked around the place and no one was here ! and all of a sudden the door opened and taiba came in

taiba : 7abeeeeeebty lujaaaaain

she came running towards me to hug me

me * crying * taibaaaaa binteee matat

taiba : adreeee wallah ana 7asaaaa feeech , allah iy3aw'9ich ib bint thanya inshallah

me : * sniff * inshallah

me : haaaaa , giltay 7ag nasser

taiba : tawnee daga 3alay wa ohwa bl 6reeej

i wasent looking forward to c nasser ! i dont know how he is going to respond to this .  taiba spent the rest of the time calming down , it helped little .

all of a sudden the door opened and came in an angry nasser

nasser : intaaaaay shlon itsaweeeeen chihteeeeee * screaming *

nasser : intaaaaaaaaay shlon matgooolyly ina 3indna bintttt * screaming *

me : nasser

nasser : chub wala kilma * screaming *

nasser : wallah ana kint adree ina intay ma kintay ityeebeen i3yal mineee , laish ma gilteeeleee gabil chitheeee

ouchhhhhhh !!!!! each word that came out of nasser's mouth went into me like knifes and tears started forming in my eyes

me : nasser wallah ana kint abeee hal bint akthar mink ba3ad * snifff * 9adeeegneee

nasser : kila chithb ib chithbbbbb

nasser : intay akbar '3al6a sawaitha ib 7ayati

nasser left the place ! and it seemed that those are the last words that im going to hear from nasser !

taiba just stared at me in shock and she didnt know what to do all she did was hug  me and tell me that everything will be alright .

i spent the last 2 hours crying , my eyes got puffed up and red . taiba and i were sitiing down watching tv . taiba was trying her best to cheer me up .

* zzzzzzzzzzzz* zzzzzzzzzzzz *

999**** is calling

this is a strange number to me . i pressed answer and then i said

me : alooooo

.....  : hello mam im isaebl

me : oh hi isabel

isabel : madam i need to tell u something important

me : yes isabel tell me

isabel: maaaaaam u remember when u and ur friend almost got burned

me : yes

isabel : i think that i know who almost killed both of u

me :who is maaaam

isabel : fatima

me :what ???? fatima my cousin

what theeeeeee ???? i cant believe my ears

isabel : yess maaaaaam , i was cleaning her room then i found a hidden recite in her drawer i looked at it and i found that fatima bought 2 gas gallons

me :are u sure isabel ?

isabel : yessss maaaam im sure  and i also found matches .

me : oh ok , thank u isabel

i hung up .

taiba : shin shi9ayir

me :u wont believe me it

taiba : believe what ?

me : FATIMA IS UNKNOWN

to be continued ................................



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